that was a reflection of me for a second there. I'm struggling to say '' **** it. but like you i want to be healthly,stronger and sure in the hell don't want to have SOMETHING controling me. I'm smarter than that.and i'm also glad i can reconize the lies i been telling myself.
for everyone that gave advice or talk to me eailer thank you . update; went took that hot bath. which made me feel alittle more normal, did my face up alittle even if it were to just go to the daycare.oh smell good lotion also!!!!!!!!!
Jolene
Jolene
Just got home from work.I have to do a couple of things but I will be back in 30 min. or so. You sound like your doing OK. I aint easy girl but it will be so worth it. You sound really determined. Didn't think your name was butterfly. Jolene is a pretty name.
TA, You out there ??
Be right back
Frank
Just got home from work.I have to do a couple of things but I will be back in 30 min. or so. You sound like your doing OK. I aint easy girl but it will be so worth it. You sound really determined. Didn't think your name was butterfly. Jolene is a pretty name.
TA, You out there ??
Be right back
Frank
Jolene, glad to hear you're feeling better...... Hot baths are wonderful during this time! Take as many as possible because it probably is the most important thing that you can do during the withdrawal period.
Thanks for the compliments, but I am NOT a strong person.... not at all. I used to be - I used to think I was a survivor - I had gone through a lot of terrible things in my life and I overcame all of that..... was the first one in my ENTIRE family to go to college, made a lot of $$$, married a handsome guy & had a beautiful child...... But this addiction has knocked me down hard. I am still very weak, mentally & physically. There are days I feel I can't do anything right, that I've failed everyone that loves me.
But every day, I get stronger and stronger and I'm one step closer to being my former self. It's just tough because not only did I quit doing pills, but I had to make an entire life change..... I am no longer friends with the people I've been close to over the last 3 years, I can't hang out with the people I've been friends with for years (they all party), I can't have a drink if I DO go out (because of the sub)..... I'm taking about 10 vitamins and minerals a day to repair the damage my addiction caused......
I am no longer that fun-loving girl my husband married.... but that's good AND bad, I guess. And I AM getting better..... especially thanks to all of you!
Be strong.
Danni
Thanks for the compliments, but I am NOT a strong person.... not at all. I used to be - I used to think I was a survivor - I had gone through a lot of terrible things in my life and I overcame all of that..... was the first one in my ENTIRE family to go to college, made a lot of $$$, married a handsome guy & had a beautiful child...... But this addiction has knocked me down hard. I am still very weak, mentally & physically. There are days I feel I can't do anything right, that I've failed everyone that loves me.
But every day, I get stronger and stronger and I'm one step closer to being my former self. It's just tough because not only did I quit doing pills, but I had to make an entire life change..... I am no longer friends with the people I've been close to over the last 3 years, I can't hang out with the people I've been friends with for years (they all party), I can't have a drink if I DO go out (because of the sub)..... I'm taking about 10 vitamins and minerals a day to repair the damage my addiction caused......
I am no longer that fun-loving girl my husband married.... but that's good AND bad, I guess. And I AM getting better..... especially thanks to all of you!
Be strong.
Danni
Danni........hey! Had to remind you......you will be that fun-loving girl again. She's still in there and will be back soon....promise! Just stay on the track you're on and you will find her! Take care!
Danielle, I don't know if God heard my prayers or what today. I'm actually feeling pretty good. very weak bodied. thats pretty much all though. Is something going to creep in on me by tomorrow? I have been hearing alot of people mention sub. i asked a out paient clinic about it today and they said hardly any Drs mess w/ it here in TX bc of how expensive. I don't know if i make it though thats it!!!! cuz like you said i was tired of being around people i didn't like just for pills. I was dealing bars just to pay for vics. and i just wanted to tell you be sober doesn't mean your not fun-loving. we can still party sober!!!!!!
Hey Danni -
You sounded a little "down" in your earlier post. Hey, it'll take time, but remember all time it took to get to this place. Just remember your pros and cons - you know that the pros far outway the cons. Youve come such a long ways and I'm sure there are still fun-loving days ahead of you. Take care of yourself. You are doing such a great job!!!
Love,
Marie
You sounded a little "down" in your earlier post. Hey, it'll take time, but remember all time it took to get to this place. Just remember your pros and cons - you know that the pros far outway the cons. Youve come such a long ways and I'm sure there are still fun-loving days ahead of you. Take care of yourself. You are doing such a great job!!!
Love,
Marie
