Dark Day In Boston

Mornin',

I have dark day (day off from shows) today in Boston so I decided to use it wisely and fix some busted gear, do some laundry and read this incredible book. It's called 'Restore your life, a living plan for sober people'. It's by Anne Geller. I can't remember who on this board recomened the book, but it's amazing and all I can say is GET IT AND READ IT!!! I found out that our production rigger is also a recovering pill head and he and I have been hanging out together throughout the tour. It's good to find someone to relate to out here concidering most of the yahoos out on the road would snort dirt if it got you high. It's comical at times, but mostly sad cuz that used to be me. Hell, I don't even remember the 80's. I just woke up one day and it was 1990. When I toured with George Thorogood he used to say 'rock n roll never sleeps, it just passes out'. And that as they say, is the hell of it....
lol...who are you touring with this time?

Makes me smile to know that you've got a buddy in recovery to hang with. Nice to know that you don't have to be alone in your feelings and thoughts.

I wrote down that book...can you tell me more about it? I have so many to read.


XXX
CG
Hi Cowgirl,

doing some private dates with Toby Keith. I don't like Country much, but I'll do country for money. The private gigs are mostly big time parties, corporate events and fund raisers. Did I mention that the money is good????

anyway, the book is a very detailed outline of your physiology & psychology during use, withdrawals and recovery. It contains stories and testimonials from users & drinkers who have gone through every aspect of recovery. It has a guide that will help step you through the critical first three years of recovery. Anne Geller is a recovering alcoholic that runs the smithers center for drug & alchohol rehabilitation. She definitely spells out why we feel the way we do and what we can do to get beyond our physical & mental struggles during recovery.
Bikeman, I am so happy that you got the book. I have it here next to me and I pick it up to make sure I'm still where I should be in this process. Without it I would have not known how normally I am doing. I am 84 days clean and that is almost through the beginning phase. I think it puts it into perspective about how long it really takes to feel okay. I hope more people get a copy because there is no substitiute of the knowlegde that we need time to allow our nervous systems to recover and panicking about lack of sleep or depression will lead us to pills we won't need after we heal up. She says less than 3% of addicts need any sort of antidepressants or anything, but taking them before a year goes by, well, you don't have a baseline established. That made me feel really good that the book is so helpful to you. It was a sobriety saver for me! Have a nice day. CAS.
Its an awesome read. I couldn't put it down.

Glad to see you doing well Bikeman.

Redd
Hi Redd & CAS,

Yes, dito on the book. It has the best advice on recovery that I have found to date. I agree with you and her (Ann) that antidepresants are very tricky in the first year of recovery. I don't use them nor will I ever use them. I just feel like they have turned some of my friends into zombies. I don't feel like I need to take drugs to feel happy.....used to, but not anymore. However, that being said....I had a piece of Keylime pie in Orlando last week that was absolutley euphoric.
Bikeman
That book sounds really good---i will have to get it. But do you have any tips that you can remember out of the book? Did you ever read The Power of Now
by eckhart tolle---that was pretty good. And did you ever do any shows in Broward or Dade? Have you ever been to the Hollywood Sportatorium???
That place brings back so many memories!!!! I love hard rock and metal!!!
some country is good too---- well have a great day!!!
Guess I'm ordering that book today. Did somebody say that they can get it on Amazon.com?

Oh and by the way....what's wrong with country? I've seen Toby Keith and he rocks like the big boys. lol


Hope you're enjoying your day off.


Cowgirl
I got the book at the public library for free and have renewed it for months! The library has all the new books and they are something good that our tax dollars go towards! Maybe there aren't libraries where some of you guys live, but if there are then use them! I went to brunch for the first time as a sober person and drank lots of memosas made with orange juice and sparkling water. The waitress thought it was a great idea because when you go to bruch and drink real memosas (champagne and OJ) you are wrecked for the rest of the day. My boyfriend said he used to like to go to brunch and drink, so he would have an excuse to take an afternoon nap...he's on the sofa now napping and sober for 84 days along with me. Food has NEVER tasted so great and without the alcohol we are not putting on any weight...remember that alcohol, even a glass a day slows your fat burning for 24 hours by 74%!!!! It's not the calories in it that make you fat, it's the effect on your metabolism...so eat that key lime pie Bikeman and savor every tart/sweet bite...you deserve it! The book is written in short chapters and not meant to be read cover to cover..just as a reference as to what problems you might be having...sleep, sexual, social, etc...she knows newly recovering addicts cannot sit and read for long periods of time...our fried brains don't recover for at least a year, so be patient and it will all be returned to you and all you have to do is one thing...STAY SOBER!!! It's fun having an almost child-like sensitivity to foods again. Like how sugar makes kids hyper...I am like that again. I had turkey for dinner and felt like I had an actual hangover from the tryptophan in it...a few sips of real coffee are even too much now...there are so many rewards of being sober, but that addict in my brain still wants to get out of the cage I have it in and I just always have to be on guard about it! Never relax about that fact...not ever. You can't place yourself in slippery situations or you will slip eventually....how many times will you walk across thin ice until you fall in and you many not get out if you fall in, so why try to make it across that ice in the first place? Check out your local library if you have one nearby! CAS.
You sound so good CAS!!!
Firesign, I have a pure white pigeon that I found when she was a baby and she flew away and came back to me...looks like your sign there. I am good and then not so good and then great and sometimes bad, but this is life even for non-addicts. We will never be the same and that is good. I love birds very much and that is something that will never change! CAS.
Hi Fire...

The sportatorium sounds like a venue from years gone by but i don't know what ever happened to it. Lately have worked shows at the American Airlines Arena, Sinatra Theatre, The Hard Rock, Bank Atlantic Center and the Orange Bowl. The 80's were kind of a blur so If I ever worked there I don't remember. However, if you saw Ted Nugent, Poison or Iron Maden in the eighties it was most likely me who is responsible for blowing your ears out. Sorry about that....


Cowgirl- Yup, some Country is cool. I have toured with Willie, Merl and Ray Wile Hubbard. That's good country....
Bikeman-Glad to see your hanging in there.That must be a tough life working with musicians.You sound like you handle it pretty good.
Get back to Houston my friend and we can hook up.
Later,Tim
Bikeman:

You lead an exciting life. I like Toby Keith okay - like some of his songs - went to one of his concerts but as I say, I look for any concert that may interest me b/c they give me a high that dugs never have. I love all music.
What kind do you get into more than others?

Take it easy.

Love, Jean


Bikeman and CAS, thanks for the book review. I am always on the lookout for recovery books which are readable, and sounds like this one is.

Too bad it's a dark day up there, Bikeman. It's super sunny in the south, but windy as heck. I have pots on the deck with 20 gallons of dirt in them which blew over, not to mention the furniture and hot tub cover. It's a very blustery day in the 100 acre wood. LOL

Take care, and hang with the winners.
Bikeman:

I have wondered why you drop in and then go away for a while. Now I know, your touring.
What do you do in the band?

Jean
Carol & Jean,

Good morning. Loading in a show in DC. Been damned cold up here...wet too.
I mix front of house audio for the band. I also produce concerts and corporate events and prefer to do that, but any gig that pays will have me packing my suitcase. Sometimes on the road you get a dark day (day off) and you try to use it wisely. Like doing your laundry or paying bills. Some of the guys just try to score....ya know what I mean. It's been difficult to maintain sobriety while out here, but you get burried in the work and the cravings/triggers seem to go away.
Let's see, someone asked what kind of music I like. Well, I like all kinds of music and I have been a blues/rock guitar player for over 25 years. Never made it as a musician so I ended up doing the next best thing. I think the blues and heavy rock are my favorites, but when ya listen to Leo Kotke (sp.??) or Paco De Lucia perhaps some John Klemmer. That's good stuff. Never toured with Rush, but always wanted to. They have a well established crew kind of like family. It would take a death in that family for someone like me to hire on. Anyway, gotta get back to work.....