Hi, I'm Dave and new to this forum lark but thought it might help to
Find someone to help encourage me when I feel like scoring.
I have been on H for about 16 years now and lost lots of friends and even
My older brother coz of it. I only smoke it but I have been down the
Injection road and crack road n beat them. I live a normal life with
A partner of 15 years n hav 2 kids n a good well pay'd job. I have been
On methadone for about 2 years this time and keep going back to scoring.
Even 2 days with just my 55ml meths is good going for us as it has
Become a way of life. I used for the last time today n 2012 is guna
Be the start of a new life. We keep ourselves to ourselves n don't have
Many friends at all so was hoping to find some one on hear maybe in the
Same boat to spur each other on. Or somebody why has been where I am
And can help, even a odd reply may make a difference. If I don't stop
Now, I am sure to loose my job soon becouse of drug testing at work
Then I will loose everything!! Cheers. This is the start. Day 1.
congrats on your day 1. that's a start and next will be day 2. you already know how it goes and it's not easy. no it's not, but it's so worth it.
you'll be on day 2 by the time you read this. then keep on every single day and count it up.
just for the idea you want this is a big deal.
oh and friends? over rated right? when you're clean for awhile and get right with you i bet you will meet some new interesting people or even people you already know who you will embrace.
make day 2.
you'll be on day 2 by the time you read this. then keep on every single day and count it up.
just for the idea you want this is a big deal.
oh and friends? over rated right? when you're clean for awhile and get right with you i bet you will meet some new interesting people or even people you already know who you will embrace.
make day 2.
Thanks. I will let you know how I get on, take it you have been there?
Hay dave good on you bro
Its so much harder when you are both using, there is no magic answer you already know the answer, but you will find friendship and support on this site, it might seem like a mountain ahead of you to climb , maybe this is your time?? To change your life, its never to late brother
bob
Its so much harder when you are both using, there is no magic answer you already know the answer, but you will find friendship and support on this site, it might seem like a mountain ahead of you to climb , maybe this is your time?? To change your life, its never to late brother
bob
Cheers bob. This is the start of the rest of our lives. Even if it means I have to leave. I would be a better dad (clean) than I am now. Glad I have my staffy dog ( Tyson) to show me sum love.
Welcome, Dave. I haven't been where you are (I am the mother of a recovering H addict), but I wanted to stop by and let you know I'm pulling for you. What if you upped your MMT mgs? More methadone might help. Glad you found us.
Peace ~ MomNMore
Peace ~ MomNMore
Thank you so much! I lost my mum who was an alcoholic most of her life, a few years ago, along with my oldest brother throu this stuff. I really simpothise with you, it's not just our life we ruin. I really dont want to go up anymore, becouse I can cope phisically with my dose, it's more mental. We have been using for so long now it is allways in our mind. And has become a coping mechanism. Just need more will power, and these words of encouragement, really do help.
Well, day 1 nearly done, got. I money anyway, coz hate the stuff! I got prepared this time by buying plenty off food/ gas/ elec and baccy ect. So this is it. Thank god for my iPhone, hours of entertainment !
Well, day 1 nearly done, got. I money anyway, coz hate the stuff! I got prepared this time by buying plenty off food/ gas/ elec and baccy ect. So this is it. Thank god for my iPhone, hours of entertainment !
Dave...in my lowly methadone ex junkie opinion...your using on top cuz your dose is too low...not increasing your dose is just another way to convince yourself you gotta use...get an increase...maybe one where you know you wouldn't feel the dope even if you scored it....
Con
Con
Dave its nice to be able to talk to others that have been through it, the cool thing about this site is there are always people to share with, keep on fighting bro its all in your head , but to change the way we think is no small feat, just take it hour by hour, get plenty of vitamins down your neck, fresh juice and veggies , I have been on and off for over 25 years its never to late bro
Just posted on the meth site for you, keep in touch it helps to share
bob
Just posted on the meth site for you, keep in touch it helps to share
bob
Cheers bob. Keep on touch.
hello dave i feel u reading your message was like reading mine,I'm on 84 mg,right now as we speak,and i need a raise but i keep thinking about how it's going to be trying to get off the methadone, but thats a excuse i know i need a raise and it sounds like u do too>>> But one thing is for certain and two for sure U dear dave is on the road to recovery ,And just keep getting up (the good lord willing)And getting to the clinci to get your medicine and time willl be flying,,Now the job ,U should be alright ,Methadone is a legal medicine,It's precribe for pain among other things,,I'm pulling for U,smile
