Day 1 .

Marijuana
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ive smoked weed 4 7 years . free from alcohol over two years in aa . unable 2 stop repeated lame attempts . i dont talk to anyone about it . no local na meetings . this is my way of saying i surrender ! i cant take any more im mentally and physically drained my health is greatly effected xx weed has taken over my whole life and i let it .. anyway hope the stinking evil thing ive just extinguished is the last xx god bless all sufferers of addiction xx ps xx will update tomorrow xx
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i failed to get through today without it . one this morning one tonight . less than usual but the pain it causes me physically to smoke and the damage its doing to my nose it just shows me the insanity of my disease . god willing tomorrow is a new day .. god bless u all x
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hi there,all I can say mate is don't give up,you know you have had enough, your locked into this nasty cycle.your lucky so far its only 7yrs,as i have done 24yrs smoking that ------green stuff.and today i have been clean 53 days.I FEEL AMAZING BEST I HAVE FELT IN A LONG LONG TIME.HANG ON IN THERE my friend its not easy but if you put your mind to it and truly want FREEDOM you WILL GET THERE.you know i have known for years it was holding me back,hiding the real me,and making life so much worse.i tried many a time to give up,and i believe now i know were i have gone wrong in succeeding.i quit cigarettes 9yrs ago and haven't had one since.but the dope whenever i have given up,that sneaky temptation and my thoughts oh but i will only have one,leads to two,three then weekly,daily then right back to every few hours.so for me has come the aha moment,i know now i can NEVER have another smoke ever again.i wish you well and pray you find the power as i have,its not easy and its a good idea to do whatever you can with support,walking,treats, journal ling to help you through.GOODLUCK
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thankyou for your response smokenomore . im smokin 2 joints a day at the min on average . its strange i dont have a problem saying im an alcoholic , i follow the 12 steps of aa , im just so frustrated i cant seem to hand this over ..self will runs riot with me xx i was the same when i was trying to hand over booze .. i wont give up giving up xx god bless ya xx
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smokenomore and emie,

I am proud of you for giving up the weed. I was a daily smoker also, smoked for 25 plus years when two and a half years ago, I came here for the first time and said I was quitting this damn habit tht was controlling my life.

Nobody said it was going to be easy. You have to do this one day at a time. Drink lots of water, pray, walk, read, listen to music and believe in yourself. My life has never been better since i quit smoking weed.

Keep posting.
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thanku so much for ya responses xxxx i have every reason goin to stop smoking xxx last week i had a biopsie taken from my mouth , basically they are testing me for cancer xx hopefully god willing its not xxxx either way im heading for some pretty grusome surgery on my nose and mouth xxx all caused by smoking and heavy drinking , ive let the drink go over 2 yrs ago xxx pot has takin its place xx im physically mentally and spiritualy beat ,i pray to god that i awake in the morning with the stength and courage to get through this one day at a time xx god bless all who suffer xx
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emie,

I just read your last post. I was away for awhile so I couldn't check the board.

I wish you all the luck in the world with the surgery. Be strong. Everything will be alright.

Please let us know how you are doing.