Same old stuff. Today is going to be my last day to whine and complain.
I've taken a lot from the people of this board and haven't given anything back yet.
Effective tomorrow, I'm going to be full of positive thoughts, words, and deeds. Time for me to pay back a little of the love you all have shown me.
You need a hug, a pat on the back, a smooch on the cheek, I'm the guy.
But for today, I WANT MY PILLS BACK (not really, it just felt good to say that.)
Pat, Good morning and congrats on day 10! Just wanted you to know that you take as long as you need. don't rush things. I admire your strength and determination, but don't get in too big a hurry. Trust me, there will be plenty of time in the future to give back, and there is always some here in need that you can help.
It has been a pleasure to watch you these past few days. You have done an amazing job getting through the past 9 days. You should feel pretty darn good about yourself today. Have a good one.
WTG Pat!!!
Actually I have seen little complaining- unlike me who had a few Pity Party days. I've been reading all your stuff here, everyday and as always am encouraged by your strength and determination.
Ya know, those of us that are new to recovery have a big voice here to those either contemplating quitting or just starting out. I am confident that those folks who read the "newbie" type posts really see what CT and WD's are about because we are living it- right now- one day at a time.
And those here with a whole lot of clean time- really help those of us in those first few weeks when it seems impossible at times.
You're catching up with me- !!!
Actually I have seen little complaining- unlike me who had a few Pity Party days. I've been reading all your stuff here, everyday and as always am encouraged by your strength and determination.
Ya know, those of us that are new to recovery have a big voice here to those either contemplating quitting or just starting out. I am confident that those folks who read the "newbie" type posts really see what CT and WD's are about because we are living it- right now- one day at a time.
And those here with a whole lot of clean time- really help those of us in those first few weeks when it seems impossible at times.
You're catching up with me- !!!
just wanted to pop in and pat you on the back! how do you feel today?
Hey Pat you have done so well your going to make it day 10 thats great.It not all roses all the time but its better to have a psitive attitude it helps yor recovery as well and also helps you to know that you know what someone else is feelin and can give them advice and support them through the ruff parts.With Love.........Jessica ...............PS You have a wonderful day sounds like youv'e had a good start.............God bless
For some reason it is really, really hard today. I would so dearly love to swallow about 6 Lortabs right now. I don't have any, I don't have a clue where to get any, and I'll make it through today. I posted somewhere else that a bad day will just make me stronger, and after I wrote that I realized that I really believe it! Wow.
Thanks, everyone, for your encouragement. Trust me, it really does help a lot. But you know that....
Thanks, everyone, for your encouragement. Trust me, it really does help a lot. But you know that....
Pat,
I agree, bad days do make us stronger. I feel I am a MUCH stronger person coming out of all this, and a better one. I have alot more compassion for people, among other things. Dont get me wrong, I dont recommend becoming an addict and going into recovery as a self help tool..lol..
Regards,
Tom
I agree, bad days do make us stronger. I feel I am a MUCH stronger person coming out of all this, and a better one. I have alot more compassion for people, among other things. Dont get me wrong, I dont recommend becoming an addict and going into recovery as a self help tool..lol..
Regards,
Tom
Yeah, Tom, and it's a heck of a way to lose 10 pounds, too. :=))
hey james -
when i would have a cravings to use, it was always a sign that there was so underlying issue i needed to address. thank God for the 4th step!
are you going to any NA meetings?
hugs -
sammy
when i would have a cravings to use, it was always a sign that there was so underlying issue i needed to address. thank God for the 4th step!
are you going to any NA meetings?
hugs -
sammy
Lose 10 lbs? Hmm.. I was not so lucky.. I gained 25 since I quit in december.
Regards,
Tom
Regards,
Tom
Hello, I'm Jean:
That doctor should be ashamed for giving you 270 Lortabs in the first place. That's how I got started - a doctor who gave me unlimited Lortabs and I mean unlimited. I didn't know for 7 months that I had a problem. I just thought the pain was gone and I had energy. When I went to this doctor and told him I had a problem, that when I stopped, I got sick, he had the nerve to say that I needed to learn how to take my medicine properly. Also, sent me home with a new prescription. At that point I had to blame myself b/c I kept going back for a couple of years before I signed my records over to another doctor.
I don't think I'm any better than anyone else and I know that drug adicts come in all ages, looks, etc but one time when I told him that these Lortabs were really a problem for me - and they didn't even help the pain anymore, just kept me functioning, he said I don't know what you're doing with your pain pills - maybe you're selling them. Left his office again with another prescription. Like I say, I have to take full responsibility for the years since that 1st 7 months but why are these doctors handing out these pills. My problem is Arthritis/Fibromyalgia.
I have had "real" doctors tell me that you can't take narcotics for permanant chronic pain.
Had he given me 12-15 a month for flare-ups, I don't think I would be where I am now so I do think these kind of doctors should accept some of the responsibility.
Good luck to you - if you feel like whining, I think we all deserve a little of it some days. You really sound like you're doing great.
Jean
That doctor should be ashamed for giving you 270 Lortabs in the first place. That's how I got started - a doctor who gave me unlimited Lortabs and I mean unlimited. I didn't know for 7 months that I had a problem. I just thought the pain was gone and I had energy. When I went to this doctor and told him I had a problem, that when I stopped, I got sick, he had the nerve to say that I needed to learn how to take my medicine properly. Also, sent me home with a new prescription. At that point I had to blame myself b/c I kept going back for a couple of years before I signed my records over to another doctor.
I don't think I'm any better than anyone else and I know that drug adicts come in all ages, looks, etc but one time when I told him that these Lortabs were really a problem for me - and they didn't even help the pain anymore, just kept me functioning, he said I don't know what you're doing with your pain pills - maybe you're selling them. Left his office again with another prescription. Like I say, I have to take full responsibility for the years since that 1st 7 months but why are these doctors handing out these pills. My problem is Arthritis/Fibromyalgia.
I have had "real" doctors tell me that you can't take narcotics for permanant chronic pain.
Had he given me 12-15 a month for flare-ups, I don't think I would be where I am now so I do think these kind of doctors should accept some of the responsibility.
Good luck to you - if you feel like whining, I think we all deserve a little of it some days. You really sound like you're doing great.
Jean
Pat,
You're wrong about not giving here sir. There are alot of people here that are reading your posts, some have been there, some are there at present time, and then there are people that are about to start that journey.
Rerading your progress helps us without you even knowing it.
I know today is hard, some days are like that for no reason at all. Just get through today, try to find something else to think about.
Do you want me to change avatars through out the day? Cause I will.
Redd
Patriarch you are in a fabulous place - a place a lot of us wish we were - 10 days without pills. Do you realize what an accomplishment that is? Dont throw it away. Im sure you are at a better place then you were 5 days ago so just think how youll feel in 5 days from now. The worst is over so continue with the plan to make each and every day better and better. Youve lost 10 lbs - fantastic! I wish I was in the place you are right now. Hearing from people like you shows that it is possible. Continued good luck.
I don't think the weight will stay off, although I wish it would. I just didn't have any appetite at all during that first awful 5 days.
I remember eating a center cut of bologna sandwich once, and on the evening of the 6th day my wife fixed me the world's best cheeseburger. I'll never forget how good that cheeseburger tasted for the rest of my life!
Now I'm eating again, although not as much as I did while on the pills. What I have developed is a hell of a sweet tooth, especially for fresh fruit mixed with ice cream. Last night I had fresh peaches and strawberries with black walnut ice cream. Yum!
I'm not going to any meetings yet, because this whole thing was sort of un-planned anyway. I don't know where or when NA meetings happen around here anyway, but I'm going to try to find out this afternoon when I go to lunch.
I really haven't done anything except stop taking pills. Now that I've stopped, I'm unsure what to do next.
Thanks to all of you for your most wonderful support! I mean that!
I remember eating a center cut of bologna sandwich once, and on the evening of the 6th day my wife fixed me the world's best cheeseburger. I'll never forget how good that cheeseburger tasted for the rest of my life!
Now I'm eating again, although not as much as I did while on the pills. What I have developed is a hell of a sweet tooth, especially for fresh fruit mixed with ice cream. Last night I had fresh peaches and strawberries with black walnut ice cream. Yum!
I'm not going to any meetings yet, because this whole thing was sort of un-planned anyway. I don't know where or when NA meetings happen around here anyway, but I'm going to try to find out this afternoon when I go to lunch.
I really haven't done anything except stop taking pills. Now that I've stopped, I'm unsure what to do next.
Thanks to all of you for your most wonderful support! I mean that!
And Redd, don't change your avatar. I like it.
And Jean, what I had was an Rx for 90 (three a day) with 2 refills. Which the pharmacy had no problem refilling every 9 or 10 days, either.
Now here's the sick part. When I went through those 270, I'd just call the Doctor's office and say "I'm out" and that afternoon drive over and pick up a new Rx. So I was going through 270 Lortabs about every 19 or 20 days.
And Jean, what I had was an Rx for 90 (three a day) with 2 refills. Which the pharmacy had no problem refilling every 9 or 10 days, either.
Now here's the sick part. When I went through those 270, I'd just call the Doctor's office and say "I'm out" and that afternoon drive over and pick up a new Rx. So I was going through 270 Lortabs about every 19 or 20 days.
did you find a meeting, james?
namaste'
sammy
namaste'
sammy
No, sammy, I didn't. I'm not sure how to go about it. I drove over to a building where my ACOA group used to meet on Wed nights, but there was no one there. A few people from that group also went to AA or NA meetings, but now I can't find any of them.
Do you just look in the yellow pages under Narcotics Anamyous? I'm not at a crisis point right now, but I KNOW I should find a series of meetings to go to BEFORE I get in a crisis.
Because sooner or later someone is going to stick a 10mg Percocet under my nose and I'm going to have to say, "No, thanks, none for me." and I'll be wanting something to fall back on when that happens.
Do you just look in the yellow pages under Narcotics Anamyous? I'm not at a crisis point right now, but I KNOW I should find a series of meetings to go to BEFORE I get in a crisis.
Because sooner or later someone is going to stick a 10mg Percocet under my nose and I'm going to have to say, "No, thanks, none for me." and I'll be wanting something to fall back on when that happens.
yeah james - look in your phone book, or call a rehab center and ask for the phone number or if they have a list of meetings they could send you.
i saw you posted that you are in tennessee. you may want to try this link as for a meeting in your area. if your city isn't listed, write to these people and perhaps they can give you a contact.
http://nanashville.org/
i hope this helps.
hugs -
sammy
i saw you posted that you are in tennessee. you may want to try this link as for a meeting in your area. if your city isn't listed, write to these people and perhaps they can give you a contact.
http://nanashville.org/
i hope this helps.
hugs -
sammy
Pat,
If you were not in tennessee, I'd say we had the same doc. I would get a script for 100 vikes, with 3 or 4 refills, go through those and just call him and he would call me in some more, and if that was not enough I would get them from OP. Eating 20 a day to function is not fun. W/D are not fun. In fact this whole ride has been the most un-fun thing I have ever encountered. What I would not give just to go back in time and take that first script and shove it right up my docs you know what. He's an incompetent a** that deserves his license taken away. Not because of my stupidity, but because of his. The words habit-forming are a little understated in my opionion. Now if the label had read "Warning: this medication can and will destroy your life if not taken as perscribed. Severe and debilitating withdraw symptoms will occur. Habit forming. Video games are habit forming, picking your nose is habit forming, watching TV is habit forming. Abusing pills is a little more than habit forming.
take care, you hold my hand, I will hold yours.
michelle
If you were not in tennessee, I'd say we had the same doc. I would get a script for 100 vikes, with 3 or 4 refills, go through those and just call him and he would call me in some more, and if that was not enough I would get them from OP. Eating 20 a day to function is not fun. W/D are not fun. In fact this whole ride has been the most un-fun thing I have ever encountered. What I would not give just to go back in time and take that first script and shove it right up my docs you know what. He's an incompetent a** that deserves his license taken away. Not because of my stupidity, but because of his. The words habit-forming are a little understated in my opionion. Now if the label had read "Warning: this medication can and will destroy your life if not taken as perscribed. Severe and debilitating withdraw symptoms will occur. Habit forming. Video games are habit forming, picking your nose is habit forming, watching TV is habit forming. Abusing pills is a little more than habit forming.
take care, you hold my hand, I will hold yours.
michelle
