Well, busy day actually..which I guess is normal.
Last night Tina and I were watching 24, when she got a call from her brother. Tina and her brother, lost thier mutual brother last year and he got drunk and was really upset. I made Tina get dressed and we went down there. While Tina's brother and I sorta get along, I do not think he has accepted me as part of his family yet. I told Tina her brother needed her and may not want to see me, so i just waited in the car.
About a half hour later I got a call on my cell telling me to come in, he seemed a lot better. He has this impression because I buy a lot of toys for myself that I'm selfish and do not want anything to do with the family, which is nothing further from the truth. All I have left on my end is an alcohlic mother with an abusive stepfather, who I have seperated myself from until she calls me and wants to press charges against him. I told her brother he can talk to me anytime, I will be involved as little or as much as he wants to me to be. When we left he was happier and talked to him at work this morning to make sure he got to bed ok last night.
I would not call him an alcoholic, he drinks beer, and smokes pot but thats about it. Being I really am not family Tina is dealing with those issues he has, and im here to offer a helping hand if needed. Tina's her little sister so I understand that he's weary of me, I could be playing center field for the Yankees and he'd proabably still feel that way. I'm patient, I can wait.
Got home around 2am, woke up at 7:30 by a phone call. Did not get to eat breakfast or lunch because I was dealing with a lot of downtime due to the noreaster we are having. I got in around 4:30, and started with my cerial and vitamins. Going to enjoy a chicken parm hero tonight and chill.
Day 16 of no opiates. I guess if having breakfast at 4:30pm is the worst part of my day I'm doing pretty good, peace. :) - Chris
I'm glad that you're posting every day Chris. It's fun to watch you grow in your recovery. It's so important for me to be able to write things down, feelings etc...glad to see you doing it as well. Take care and have a good night.
