Well I am at day 16 it seems like just yesterday that I quit. I have my ups and downs it so funny because you keep expecting to have this wonderful miraculous feeling of health and well being because hey you quit and got all those toxins out right??? Well I now come to realize that aint gonna happen!! I have to take the highs with the lows. Right now I still have to push myself to do things (like I pushed myself to clean this morning before I got on the computer) hee hee But seriously I am doing Ok. Still have the sweats and after a long day I am so achy in my body which is when I looked for the drugs to relieve that achiness I do so miss that of course I do miss the high too I am not kidding myself. But I am trying to remember all the bad stuff along with it so I can stay on this path of recovery. God Bless
Roxy`
Roxy Im so proud.Of course youll have ups & downs.Huny even non addicts have that.With us we are so use to popping a pill to fix it that I feel it takes awhile to get use to it,
Roxy THE MOST important thing is to keep talking,learning & pushing.
Are you planning on meetings or private therapy?
For me I myself am just more comfortable with private therapy.I have very personal things I want to work out & I dont want to bring it to a group (except at times here)thats just me though
YOU just keep on KEEPING on Roxy!!!
Roxy THE MOST important thing is to keep talking,learning & pushing.
Are you planning on meetings or private therapy?
For me I myself am just more comfortable with private therapy.I have very personal things I want to work out & I dont want to bring it to a group (except at times here)thats just me though
YOU just keep on KEEPING on Roxy!!!
Thanks MJ no I have not done the therapy thing and do not plan to I have tried to promise myself that if I fail this time I will have to go to NA or therapy. I truly don't know what I would say as I blame only myself. I truly have had a wonderful life. The only bad thing I had was when I was younger I let two men in my life treat me direspectfully and who were abusive. But I married a wonderful caring man. so I don;t hav any issues that would cause me to use I can't figure it out
Roxy
Roxy
Ok please DO NOT take this the wrong way ok?Because it comes from a place in my heart.I was in an abusive relationship for 13 years,.After I did get out of that I was lucky,.so very lucky to meet not only 1 but 2 wonderful men.My Xhusband was & is a soulmate & theres still so much love & respect between us,Mikey my partner of 7 years has been such a gift to not only me but for my girls.
I guess my point is I myself feel addiction may be something deep rooted.
Like you I felt for so long that as long as I wasnt usen I was in recovery,but it was only after actually started therapy (which took me 2 years)that I learned so much.
Stopping the drugs as hard as that may be to me is the easy part...learning to LIVE without them....now to me thats the challenge.Im so use to self medicating pain that I needed to learn healthier ways of realizing what triggers me & how to handle it
Goodness I didnt ,mean to sound all like a lecturer!!! Please know Im just saying my feelings.No matter what Im still very proud of how far youve come
molly
I guess my point is I myself feel addiction may be something deep rooted.
Like you I felt for so long that as long as I wasnt usen I was in recovery,but it was only after actually started therapy (which took me 2 years)that I learned so much.
Stopping the drugs as hard as that may be to me is the easy part...learning to LIVE without them....now to me thats the challenge.Im so use to self medicating pain that I needed to learn healthier ways of realizing what triggers me & how to handle it
Goodness I didnt ,mean to sound all like a lecturer!!! Please know Im just saying my feelings.No matter what Im still very proud of how far youve come
molly
Roxy????Did I upset you?Gosh I hope not I just feel that extra support is a positive thing.Believe me when I say it took 2 years & alot of soul searching to start therapy.But for me its helping.
hope I havent offended you because that was not my intent at all.
molly
hope I havent offended you because that was not my intent at all.
molly
Roxy- Day 16 is great. Truthfully it took a lot longer than that for me to feel better but the good news is you are so far along the right road your like at the half way if not further. Have you done a reward yourself thing? No pill related obviously this is the time you need to try to reach out and remind yourself of things that you love or at least did love before you true love became pills. Nails, hair, books, walks etc. You won't love them as much as you did at least not at first but eat something delcious or take a long hot bath or do something nice for yourself you deserve it. Good job friend. I am so glad you are back.
Love,
Jane
Love,
Jane
You're doing great.....be gentle with yourself. I remember the last time I got out of detox..I was tired and depressed a long time. Keep a journal so you can see little changes. Try not to dwell on it....Love, S
Roxy,
Congratulations on 16! You're doing great. Boy do I understand the ups and downs. Keep in mind that the good days will begin to out weigh the bads ones in time.
Exercise really does help with the depression.
-Gentlepeace
Congratulations on 16! You're doing great. Boy do I understand the ups and downs. Keep in mind that the good days will begin to out weigh the bads ones in time.
Exercise really does help with the depression.
-Gentlepeace
MJ I am so sorry no I am not mad at you, I just get to sneak on every now and then and with the boys home and 3 of their friends I lost the computer.hee hee
They are playing in the snow now so I have a few minutes. What I was saying about the abusive relationship was I was going to marry this guy when I had it for "bad boys" but I left after he hit me the first time. The other guy just cheated on me like 50 times. My biological father used to hit my mother but she left when we were 5 and married the man who raised us and he is the best father anyone could have so it is not as bad as it sounded, but I hear you in my heart of hearts I know I should get some support besides this board but I am not willing to tell my family yet, my mom is sick with lung cancer and this would be too much for her to bear.
Jane you know what I don't even know what I was like before the pills I have been taking something for close to 20 years. I am trying to get an appt. at the spa I love facials, and once the weather clears I hope to be able to get rid of these winter blues.
Sharon and gentlepeace (I love that name sounds so calming) thanks for the congrats I need to hear that every now and then
Roxy
They are playing in the snow now so I have a few minutes. What I was saying about the abusive relationship was I was going to marry this guy when I had it for "bad boys" but I left after he hit me the first time. The other guy just cheated on me like 50 times. My biological father used to hit my mother but she left when we were 5 and married the man who raised us and he is the best father anyone could have so it is not as bad as it sounded, but I hear you in my heart of hearts I know I should get some support besides this board but I am not willing to tell my family yet, my mom is sick with lung cancer and this would be too much for her to bear.
Jane you know what I don't even know what I was like before the pills I have been taking something for close to 20 years. I am trying to get an appt. at the spa I love facials, and once the weather clears I hope to be able to get rid of these winter blues.
Sharon and gentlepeace (I love that name sounds so calming) thanks for the congrats I need to hear that every now and then
Roxy
Roxy- That is a good point here I am 31 months drug free (yesterday woo hoo!) and I am still learning. I have to admit I focus very little of my time to finding that with kids and work and school but I find out a little bit more all the time. You are right about this time of year some times there is not end to it and cabin fever sets in big time! But just explore a little bit at a time and think of somethings you can do just for you. That is the least you can do. I even resorted to buying myself flowers one time and it felt good. I also started to get my hair cut and frosted every six weeks and I use it as a reminder that I am doing something nice for myself because I have quit pills. Still doing it I went on Saturday. Each time I go I remind myself why. Try that. With kids and husband its easy to forget the little things that really do help you feel better. Just a suggestion.
Love,
Jane
Love,
Jane
Roxy,
Something Tom (TCCME) said once...
Life is like an EKG; it goes up, it goes down, that's how you know you're alive.
Extending the metaphor, I guess drugs made our lives flatline. Not a good thing.
Hang tough,
Gina
Something Tom (TCCME) said once...
Life is like an EKG; it goes up, it goes down, that's how you know you're alive.
Extending the metaphor, I guess drugs made our lives flatline. Not a good thing.
Hang tough,
Gina
Thanks Jane and Gina today wasn't actually too bad I do find I am craving right arould the evening time that I would normally take the pills. Also I know this sounds weird but I look forward to going to bed its like a sigh of relief that I got thru another day. The other thing that stinks is everytime I go on my e-mail I see all those reminder messages to refill my prescription for soma and they call my cell phone constantly. I have tried to put them in junk mail and delete but they keep coming back that I have to say is a trigger for me right now so I am going to stay off my e-mail for now.
Well tommorow Mom and I have meals to deliver and they say it is going to be a cold one, sometimes I wish I was a kid again remember how you could play out in the snow for hours nad not feel cold or go into the cold water and swim all afternoon hee hee
Roxy
Well tommorow Mom and I have meals to deliver and they say it is going to be a cold one, sometimes I wish I was a kid again remember how you could play out in the snow for hours nad not feel cold or go into the cold water and swim all afternoon hee hee
Roxy
HI Roxy,
I am glad you had a good day. I started delivering moblie meals on thanksgiving and christmas when my kids were younger and then took a route of my own 12 years ago.. I had a good day today to. It is getting better and better finally. Sleep well. L
I am glad you had a good day. I started delivering moblie meals on thanksgiving and christmas when my kids were younger and then took a route of my own 12 years ago.. I had a good day today to. It is getting better and better finally. Sleep well. L
