Mine would get 120 5mg/500 percs every 14 days without question. He took very little of those 120 and he knew that I was escalating and it was out of his control. When they were gone within 6 or 7 days...I would manipulate him to go back to his hand surgeon and make up some story about break through pain...so he was being supplemented with oxycontin which he hated...made him sick...so those were all mine.
However he would hold them and dole them out 3 or 4 at a time every few hours...man when I think of what our relationship had become, it makes me nauseous. I know that he does not abuse his meds but he is definitely addicted to them and my addiction doctor called him on Friday and told him to set up an appointment. This was after I told him that I knew my hubby was w/ding a few weekends ago. I just want him to realize that he no longer needs a scheduled narcotic to control the pain he has in his fingertips!
I am so grateful that I am clean and that we don't play that game anymore....I mean it was the epitome of dysfunctional!
Now I am just trying to be realistic and pray that my husband gets the help that will be offered him, so we can take our relationship to the next level.
My husband had and still does have legit reasons for pain killers but he does not like them. At most he would take one at night to help sleep. They made him tired so he did not take during the day as his job requires utmost concentration. He never understood when I said they gave him energy although he worked with a guy who said the same thing (gave him energy). My husband just never took them often enough to get anything from them except the times he needed for sleep. He enjoys his beer on the weekends and I would have to say that even with the beer he is moderate. Im definitely the one with addictive behavior lol. He stopped ordering the pills a year ago or so but he could ask his doctor for a script today and hed be given it. Hed just rather do physical therapy and take naproxen or motrin when needed. That really is the WISE thing to do. Im glad he never got use to the pills, that certainly would have been tough to deal with two of us on them. I wish they would do more factual shows on the topic of painkillers (like Oprah did a few years ago) - I just know there are way too many women in particular who rely on those things and dont know they have a problem or dont know how to deal with the problem.
Roxy...I really appreciate your honesty honey. Don't ever feel like you can't come here and say what's on your mind but you are going to get a few responses to those thoughts, hopefully you'll always know that they are out of love and concern. In order to quit using and get clean, I had to start telling the truth. And that meant to everyone. Even here. This was the best place to practice that honesty. You're doing great sweetheart, keep it up. Love Lisa
KeeKee...you've come so far in your marriage. I'm really proud of you.
KeeKee...you've come so far in your marriage. I'm really proud of you.
Thank you Lisa, I am a tenacious biatch and I will be the first to admit it. I was and am not prepared to let over 20 years with man go down the drain. Right or wrong...we need the opportunity to be together clean and sober. So many times I wanted to throw in the towel.
Because of all that I have learned and true and honest feelings....I did not...nor did he.
I so appreciate your support!
Because of all that I have learned and true and honest feelings....I did not...nor did he.
I so appreciate your support!
And I apprectiate yours as well....
I was just reading the post about your husbands pill usage. I sometimes wonder if there is ever a time we need to take high dosages of pain medication except for dire circumstances like burns or childbirth hee hee. My husband missed a step going down our basement stairs and tore his quadriceps completely off his knee. We took him to the ER and they said it wasn't torn since he would not be able to walk and that maybe he just tore some muscle in which case they sent him home with 15 lortabs. He took one in the hospital and never touched the rest He kept feeling like something was wrong so we went to our doctor 4 days later and they said he indeed had torn it completely off and it had rolled up the ley Yuck!! He was scheduled for surgery where they drilled holes in his knee and pulled the quadriceps muscle thru. He was literally crying from the pain when he woke up but still only took one pill the day after the surgery. When I asked him how he could manage he said he felt too good on those pills and he could see how people could get addicted, and he didn't want to chance it. Makes me think my brain is just wired completely differently. I of course took all the pills and was pissed that his doctor gave him so few. The doctor was very strict with them. Funny how the addict mind works.
Lisa I am totally ok with what you said I know you meant it in the best caring possible way. Just wanted you especially to know I truly am being honest.
Roxy
Lisa I am totally ok with what you said I know you meant it in the best caring possible way. Just wanted you especially to know I truly am being honest.
Roxy
Sounds like Tony....after his surgery and the nerve block wore off he took 2 5mg. vicodin...then maybe 1 at night to sleep for 3 days. There is a whole bottle left. I am not tempted one bit by them as they make me ill.I wish oxy made me sick!!! He does not have an addictive personality. Back in the days of my singing career there were lots of drugs..especially coke. I never liked it...my doc was always narcotic pills. 20 years ago he would do coke once in awhile. But he would do it then not touch it for months. Me...I would have a back-up plan for my pill usage...and a back up for my back up...pure and total insanity!! I think when I broke my back and they gave me demerol in the hospital.....that was the beginning of my demise. I liked it way too much. My family has a history of alcoholism on both sides and my daughter's father was a heroin addict. So of course I am always spouting the danger of addiction to her. She knows, but that doesn't mean she can't get caught up. Right now she is on an AD and I pray to God she never goes down the road I did...It would break my heart. She is 28 and works 6 days a week...needless to say I am very proud of her...I put her through a lot with my pill addiction while she was growing up. I don't want to forget those days.....it keeps me humble and striving towards sobriety and good health. Sharonn
My husband's the same way Roxy..he can take one pill, then throw the rest away. But since my "coming out of the closet", he hasn't taken any. Refuses them if they are offered. He won't have them in the house.
What a guy....
Hope today is going well for you...
Lisa
What a guy....
Hope today is going well for you...
Lisa
roxy ,you are doing so great sweety.me well not so good ...but im so looking up at you now..you will be ok,,you will soon get those feelings of happiness again,,you will woke up oneday and say ,,golly I feel pretty good ,,and you will..thats a fact ,,you will feel like you felt before all the pill use ,,,love poopie
