Sea of Cortez Baby...color me there.
2 more days.
i hate when I let this a****** make me feel this way.
I hate it.
I don't know how to handle these feelings.
I hate it.
I don't know how to handle these feelings.
I can tell you how to handle them.
Go to a meeting and talk about them.
Stop trying to figure all of this out on your own.
Keep it simple sweetheart.
Go to a meeting and talk about them.
Stop trying to figure all of this out on your own.
Keep it simple sweetheart.
Go thru them, Jodi. They will make you strong.
Jodi-How are you allowing him to make you feel?You might as well talk about here.It's better than having a drink.
You can't beat the sunsets in Mexico.Man,I want to go now.Ixtapa
Yes, talk about it here too Jodi..I didn't mean to imply that you should only talk about it in the meeting...but at the meeting, you'll get that face to face contact that will empower you to deal with him better.
I've never been to Ixtapa Tim....always Cabo and the Baha...and you're right, sunsets from Georgio's is to die for.
I've never been to Ixtapa Tim....always Cabo and the Baha...and you're right, sunsets from Georgio's is to die for.
Jodi,
You have your whole future ahead of you. You know conditions will only get worse until you change them. You have such a good start towards that happy future with these three days behind you. Please try to find things to keep you busy. If you truly dont have the energy to "keep busy",stay in bed, "have the flu" just ride out a few more days and you will be amazed how much better you will be feeling and how much clearer this will get for you to deal with your future. Everyone is behind you.
You have your whole future ahead of you. You know conditions will only get worse until you change them. You have such a good start towards that happy future with these three days behind you. Please try to find things to keep you busy. If you truly dont have the energy to "keep busy",stay in bed, "have the flu" just ride out a few more days and you will be amazed how much better you will be feeling and how much clearer this will get for you to deal with your future. Everyone is behind you.
Well we just had the ultimate screaming match. I was strong, yet weak.
Strong? After I told him about 10 times to leave....he's gone....atleast for a few minutes, hopefully forever. I can't take it anymore.
Weak? I couldn't make it. I f***ed up 3 days and drank the beer that I had in front of me for an hour.
It's better than commiting suicide like I felt like doing.
I've given him way too much power for way too long.
So, yeah, I f***ed up. Does that surprise you?
Strong? After I told him about 10 times to leave....he's gone....atleast for a few minutes, hopefully forever. I can't take it anymore.
Weak? I couldn't make it. I f***ed up 3 days and drank the beer that I had in front of me for an hour.
It's better than commiting suicide like I felt like doing.
I've given him way too much power for way too long.
So, yeah, I f***ed up. Does that surprise you?
Jody
Hon you have to set up a protective barrier right now....imagine that you have a inpenetratable bubble surrounding you and anything negative bounces right off..
You have to stop thinking about him period..what makes him tick, why he is the way he is...and most definitely not listen or absorb ANYTHING cruel or negative that he will say to you...
You cant possibly let anyone make you feel bad or hurt if you dont give a craup about their opinion...right?
You You YOu...this is about you...he can sort himself out in time..if he wants to..
keep those Blinders on...put that protective bubble around you..spray some anti ( insert hubby name) around the house whenever hes there...
Your going to do this with or without him and in SPITE of him...
Remember..your doing it..your doing what you have wanted to do for so long..dont stop now..
Hugs
Ali
Hon you have to set up a protective barrier right now....imagine that you have a inpenetratable bubble surrounding you and anything negative bounces right off..
You have to stop thinking about him period..what makes him tick, why he is the way he is...and most definitely not listen or absorb ANYTHING cruel or negative that he will say to you...
You cant possibly let anyone make you feel bad or hurt if you dont give a craup about their opinion...right?
You You YOu...this is about you...he can sort himself out in time..if he wants to..
keep those Blinders on...put that protective bubble around you..spray some anti ( insert hubby name) around the house whenever hes there...
Your going to do this with or without him and in SPITE of him...
Remember..your doing it..your doing what you have wanted to do for so long..dont stop now..
Hugs
Ali
Jody
Forget you had that beer...
Dont you dare let that one beer give you an excuse to continue drinking.
whats done is done..
Your moving on to day 4....
Please please just forget that you just did that and keep going
Hugs
Ali
Forget you had that beer...
Dont you dare let that one beer give you an excuse to continue drinking.
whats done is done..
Your moving on to day 4....
Please please just forget that you just did that and keep going
Hugs
Ali
I can't take it anymore Ali.
I can't take anymore.
I'm tired.
I can't take anymore.
I'm tired.
Sweetheart
You can take it, you have been taking it..
if its numb nuts that you mean you cant take..then thats different...i dont blame you and the sooner hes away from you the better...if you have to trick your mind and say its a temporary seperation,.,so be it...get rid of him..
Sweetheart, you may feel that one beer..you havent had anthing to drink for 3 days..
Booze is a depressant and it may be afecting your thinking already..
Please go dump the rest of the beer.....
Many would disagree with me about forgetting that you took that one, but i know all too well how easy it is to throw in he towel and say..oh well. had one..one more wont maqke any difference
OH YES IT WILL
PLEASE sweetheart
dont drink one more drop..
get rid of whats there
youll be so happy ou did tomorrow...DAY 4!!!!!!!!
Loving you
Ali
You can take it, you have been taking it..
if its numb nuts that you mean you cant take..then thats different...i dont blame you and the sooner hes away from you the better...if you have to trick your mind and say its a temporary seperation,.,so be it...get rid of him..
Sweetheart, you may feel that one beer..you havent had anthing to drink for 3 days..
Booze is a depressant and it may be afecting your thinking already..
Please go dump the rest of the beer.....
Many would disagree with me about forgetting that you took that one, but i know all too well how easy it is to throw in he towel and say..oh well. had one..one more wont maqke any difference
OH YES IT WILL
PLEASE sweetheart
dont drink one more drop..
get rid of whats there
youll be so happy ou did tomorrow...DAY 4!!!!!!!!
Loving you
Ali
Jody
Can you call me????
or send me your number and ill call you
ali-herb@hotmail.com
theres nothing i wont do to help you stay on the right path..
Please listen
Hugs
Ali
Can you call me????
or send me your number and ill call you
ali-herb@hotmail.com
theres nothing i wont do to help you stay on the right path..
Please listen
Hugs
Ali
Sweetheart are you there?????
Ali
Ali
Jodi...honey..you have no other viable options...of course you WILL make it....you know what you have to do.....and only you can do it!!!
You are so in my prayers
You are so in my prayers
Ali,
You wanna know what's really f***ed up? I am still so worried he is out there, peeking in the windows, seeing what I am up to....
I've got the tv listings filling up my computer screen, and a seperate window for this board minimized so tiny that I can't read a post without scrolling across it repeatedly.
Why should I give a s*** what he thinks about what I do?
I don't know....
Can you tell me why I do?
My best (only) friend told me that I am strong...stronger than her, for putting up with it. I see that as a weakness. A strong woman would've said f*** you long ago.
The only way I can describe it is feeling like you are backed in to a corner every time. It happened so gradually. I didn't see it coming.
Hell, if I get backed into that corner any further, I'll disappear.
That's what I'd like to do right now..........
Disappear.
You've always understood it, Ali.
Thank you.
You wanna know what's really f***ed up? I am still so worried he is out there, peeking in the windows, seeing what I am up to....
I've got the tv listings filling up my computer screen, and a seperate window for this board minimized so tiny that I can't read a post without scrolling across it repeatedly.
Why should I give a s*** what he thinks about what I do?
I don't know....
Can you tell me why I do?
My best (only) friend told me that I am strong...stronger than her, for putting up with it. I see that as a weakness. A strong woman would've said f*** you long ago.
The only way I can describe it is feeling like you are backed in to a corner every time. It happened so gradually. I didn't see it coming.
Hell, if I get backed into that corner any further, I'll disappear.
That's what I'd like to do right now..........
Disappear.
You've always understood it, Ali.
Thank you.
Thank you, Kee kee.
Prayers are much needed and so appreciated.
Prayers are much needed and so appreciated.
Let's not focus on the beer, k, Jodi?
Right now you still havent' taken a pill. We're still on one thing at a time. You know the beer will make you feel worse so it's up to you as to whether you want to feel like s*** tonight if you drink more.
So, you kicked him. There's some backbone. If he comes back, then what? You've come this far, tell him you're going to a meeting tomorrow and then head for the bedroom and shut the door.
Takes two to fight and scream....shut your mouth.
Right now you still havent' taken a pill. We're still on one thing at a time. You know the beer will make you feel worse so it's up to you as to whether you want to feel like s*** tonight if you drink more.
So, you kicked him. There's some backbone. If he comes back, then what? You've come this far, tell him you're going to a meeting tomorrow and then head for the bedroom and shut the door.
Takes two to fight and scream....shut your mouth.
Jodi,
Surprise me? Nope...been there done that...see we all suffer from terminal uniqueness, but our addictions follow the same patterns...please don't let this wipe out all the pain and effort you have put into your struggle the past few days...yu still want this dontcha? Right? You know what do to...the next right thing...this is your life you only get to go around once as far as I know...your choice, your actions...I am pulling for you honey but you gotta do the work...
Hugs, and hugs,
Come on Jodi!!!
Jan
Surprise me? Nope...been there done that...see we all suffer from terminal uniqueness, but our addictions follow the same patterns...please don't let this wipe out all the pain and effort you have put into your struggle the past few days...yu still want this dontcha? Right? You know what do to...the next right thing...this is your life you only get to go around once as far as I know...your choice, your actions...I am pulling for you honey but you gotta do the work...
Hugs, and hugs,
Come on Jodi!!!
Jan
