I am on Day 7. What an angry angry week. I have lashed out at more people than ever, but warned the ones close to me that know. I feel stronger than ever. Like a tornado. DAMN is all I can say. I sure have some big work to do. I know that I have done some damage that will never be fixed no matter how hard I try. I am actually looking forward to going to a particular meeting tomorrow night. Great bunch of mad people. I didn't know all the damage I had been doing the past, uh, maybe 10 years or so. My poor kids. Had I only know. I saw my mother today and I don't want to turn out like her. She is beyond repair. It's like her brain is damaged from the drink. I think I can still heal and think and maybe be okay if I do not relapse. Wish me luck.
LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK, LUCK.
that's lots of luck coming your way!!!
that's lots of luck coming your way!!!
90210 (Beverly Hills?) ~ Seven days is huge! Just stay in today...tomorrow will take care of itself if you don't pick up a drink. Do you have a Sponsor? Remember it's easier to stay sober than to get sober.
Hey 90210 Hows things
In me i cover fear and worrie with anger.
If there is a situation that i am fearful of or even not confidant about i cover it in some way with anger, not all the time now cause im learning to cope with my fears.
I looked up an AA book called As Bill Sees it for worrie it said to see fear, there is heaps of pages to read and one is pg 51 where it said freedom from fear is faith in a higher power. So the moral for me is the more i work on my spirituality or +ve living the less fear and worrie i have and the spin off of this is i am less angry. Although the kids can still call me Mr Grumpy at times.
Light and love
Zac
In me i cover fear and worrie with anger.
If there is a situation that i am fearful of or even not confidant about i cover it in some way with anger, not all the time now cause im learning to cope with my fears.
I looked up an AA book called As Bill Sees it for worrie it said to see fear, there is heaps of pages to read and one is pg 51 where it said freedom from fear is faith in a higher power. So the moral for me is the more i work on my spirituality or +ve living the less fear and worrie i have and the spin off of this is i am less angry. Although the kids can still call me Mr Grumpy at times.
Light and love
Zac
Hey, I am on day 9. I was really excited to go to my meeting tonight. Have a really special group. BUT, just too exhausted. Got slammed with such bad news today I am just going to go to bed. I went out for a walk. No the news did not drive me to drink. I am proud of my strength. My good friend came to work to tell me that her sister's two boys were killed yesterday, on Mother's day in a head on collision car accident. They were killed instantantly. I am recovering from a similar trauma that happened a year ago and will never recover. Brought back all the horrible memories. Post traumatic stress. On and off sobbing all day. All I could do was hold my friend's hand and let her talk. Be a friend, you know. Anyway, I missed my meeting, but, I didn't drink and I am proud. I am stronger from it all. It is so amazing at how clearer your head is when you are sober. You pick up so much more in conversations and remember everything. Thanks for being there. Every day is precious because it could be your last
90210 - what an awful thing for your friend's family. That is SO SO sad and tragic. Just unbelievable.
I'm SO glad though that you were able to be there for your friend. Sober and reliable to be a good friend in need. What an accomplishment, that is something to be proud of. Instead of giving in and getting sloppy drunk you did what needed to be done.
My thoughts are with you and your friend's family.
take care.
Idgie
I'm SO glad though that you were able to be there for your friend. Sober and reliable to be a good friend in need. What an accomplishment, that is something to be proud of. Instead of giving in and getting sloppy drunk you did what needed to be done.
My thoughts are with you and your friend's family.
take care.
Idgie
90210 - You didn't drink no matter what...so proud of you. Stay in today and let the feelings and emotions come and sit through them sober, easier said than done, I know, been there, go there from time to time, and know that it is extremely difficult...this feeling business, but I don't have the option to check out anymore, for me I would check out forever (six feet under).
90210: My thoughts and prayers go out to you, Glad to hear that you didn't drink, that is such strength on your part, I went through the passing of my dear friend last year, and I drank until I couldn't drink anymore, and I didn't grieve, I just prolonged the process. God Bless you Hun, take care of yourself..
lovedove
lovedove
90210, how awful about your friend's boys... as the others are saying, I'm proud that you could stay sober and strong and be there for her. I've had a lot of loss and too often have used it as an excuse to self-medicate, so it's great to see others able to resist that temptation. Nine days is great, everything starts somewhere, right? I hope you can continue to be strong, you've proven that you can not drink even under the worst circumstances, and that's fantastic. Please keep posting and stay in touch with us!!
I'm so sorry you and your friend are going through this. I know words can't take away the pain, but just know that you're all in my thoughts and prayers. You appear to be a very strong person, and getting through this sober will make you even stronger;)
Congratulations on 9 days, and keep up the great work!
Hope you keep posting!
Congratulations on 9 days, and keep up the great work!
Hope you keep posting!
90210 ,
Sorry to hear your sad news,
You have done well, not to drink, after news like that,
you are doing well,
Take care
Ginge
Sorry to hear your sad news,
You have done well, not to drink, after news like that,
you are doing well,
Take care
Ginge
Hey 90210 have you stood in front of the mirror yet and given yourself a pat on the shoulder and smiled because someone really worthwhile is smiling back at you.
Light and love to you and your friend.
Zac
Light and love to you and your friend.
Zac
Keep it up 90210!
Once you get to 30 days you won't want to drink at all. It only gets easier. Remember, it will only get worse if you go back.
Once you get to 30 days you won't want to drink at all. It only gets easier. Remember, it will only get worse if you go back.
Lovin' Life, for me it didn't work that way...I went out and drank before because I was celebrating being sober for 30 days! LOL!
