Good Morning ALL,
Well, I made it thru the weekend and now on Day 9. The weekend was a little tough at times but I made it thru. Zac, I am still riding the occasional wave of cravings and 2 this weekend were as strong as when I first quit drinking but didn't last that long.I was really surpised at that strong of craving. I thought if I would have any at all at this point they would be mild. But I didn't cave. Just rode the wave. Me, some fruit and a bite occasionally of mint chocolate chip ice cream. LOL. I got alot done this weekend that I would normally have put off to "another day". Weeded my flower beds, cleaned house, watched a couple of movies, cooked some delish food ( in my opinon) LOL. I know I am no where out of the woods as it IS "ONE DAY AT A TIME".
Ciabella, so sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. I found if I dis-associate myself from others with the same addictions or habits as mine, it is much easier. I have a friend that I used to talk to for hours, we would drink together over the phone, talk, act crazy and such. Now, I still talk to her and she is one of my best friends but now I can hardly talk to her due to "association". It's as if .. If I talk to her , the old habit of picking up a drink urges come back strong. Its amazing what your body and mind does by association. Keep strong-- So glad you're still not drinking. But if you are, as I said before. START OVER. I am praying for you.
Idgie, Wow, you really took a turn didn't you. You had said you always crash around day 10. Not being critical, but maybe, just maybe the stress of knowing you've never made it much farther than day 10 put you back down. I guess it goes back to the association thing I mentioned. I know this probably doesn't make much sense but I know if I had put a day 10 road block so to speak in my head, that would make it very difficult for me.
It sounds that you are now on the road again. Put your right hand on your left shoulder and your left on your right and give a real big squeeze. That is a big hug from me. That goes for you too Ciabella, Jade, Zac. VW and ALL of the others who are struggling each day with this. Remember you are loved and appreciated for your honesty and strength and if you fall, you have friends here.
Have a great day and God Bless each of you.
Loving my sober life
ONE DAY AT A TIME,
Tremor
way to go... getting through the weekend is great. and look at all that you got done!! that should make you feel great.
keep it up tremor, just like you said, one day at a time.
stay strong,
patricia
keep it up tremor, just like you said, one day at a time.
stay strong,
patricia
Tremor, so proud of you for keeping strong and sober... 9 days is great. I'm still dry but feel almost like I'm planning a relapse... we had a thread about that, that we plan our relapses, part of me wants to stay sober, physically I feel much better than I did, but part still wants to get loaded. I'm kind of like Idgie in that it's usually about a week or ten days when I crash & burn. Who knows, I'm feeling kind of dry drunk anyway - still thinking pretty much the same way even though not drinking. Anyway I hope things continue to go so well for you, you are doing really well. Keep keeping us posted...
Thanks CB and Codep.
CB, Hang In there. I think about it too. Sometimes the cravings are as strong as the very first day. I am TRYING to stay strong. Prayer, food and this site helps so much. I am trying to recondition myself in my thinking. Everytime I want one SO BAD, I get myself busy with something or put my mind onto something else.
Even now I feel I could turn up a gallon. I know this will pass. It does get easier and less often have the cravings. Please hang in there. Every day is a struggle but it's also a new adventure that you can REMEMBER!
All my best to you. Please stay ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Tremor
CB, Hang In there. I think about it too. Sometimes the cravings are as strong as the very first day. I am TRYING to stay strong. Prayer, food and this site helps so much. I am trying to recondition myself in my thinking. Everytime I want one SO BAD, I get myself busy with something or put my mind onto something else.
Even now I feel I could turn up a gallon. I know this will pass. It does get easier and less often have the cravings. Please hang in there. Every day is a struggle but it's also a new adventure that you can REMEMBER!
All my best to you. Please stay ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Tremor
Way to go on day 9 Tremor! You did great! Riding the wave sucks I know. I do it almost daily and it has been 9 months for me. I still really crave the booze. Don't know if I will ever get over that. Hang in there and know you are loved here! Ciaobella.....I know what you mean about the planned relapse! Last week I was so pissy and didn't know why. I felt like I was purposely trying to start fights with my hubby....then I realized that I was planning an excuse for my relapse. Luckily I realized what I was doing before I did anything stupid! Take care all of you and thank you for your posts!
Peace and Sobriety,
Your Friend Valarie
Peace and Sobriety,
Your Friend Valarie
Way to go Tremor - Day 9...that is terrific! I use to "white knuckle" it, I think that is what you guys are describing (cravings/obsessive thinking)...each and every time I tried to get and maintain sobriety before, for the twenty years I tried to stop drinking ~ I might put a few days together, a week, one time I got 30 days...but was driving myself crazy. This time around is different, the cravings and obsessive thinking left early on...I truly surrended this time....it's like they talk about in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous...I had a Spiritual awakening and continue to have them as I continue to grow in my Program of recovery. Hang on tight Ladies, hang on!
Hey Tremor way to go. I found the cravings just went without me noticing until one day at a AA meeting i rememered i hadn't craved for weeks. I would say if i give drinking headspace now it is more a dangerous fantasy and not a craving. It does get better, keep up the good work.
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
