I started this post earlier saying that I felt worse today than days 1, 2, and 3 put together. I didn't like the sounds of it so I never sent it. Instead I was fortunate enough to be able to go back to bed for an hour. I read some AA material and I have to say that I feel much better. Guess my body is exhausted. I was always go, go, go with the pills. Doing laundry at 1am when I had to be in work at 7. Did I get anything accomplished around the house today. NO. I haven't even taken a bath yet, but I didn't take any pills. So yaah. I'll get my bath now and go get the girls. I guess it's going to be up and down just like life is supposed to be right? I'm working on letting go of recent hurts as I can't do anything to change the hearts of others. I know my heart is in the right place. Just thought I would share. Alice
It takes time to heal, Alice. Listen to your body. If it says rest then if you can, rest. The first few days are going to be rough but you'll get thru it. Make sure you drink plenty of water. Good luck, hon. It's going to be ok.
Alice - I am really proud of you. You have had so much to deal with - it WILL get better, never fast enough, but it will. You will be able to face your life and all that is going on with a clear, sober mind and you feel so good about yourself! For now, one day at a time. Get plenty of rest and drink lots of water, water, water! If you like it, cranberry juice w/lots of ice really helps in the early days too - cleans out your system I guess :) Try to eat some healthy foods too. Just stay on track - you are well on your way to past the worst of it. Hang in there!
Julie
Julie
Alice, I am checking this site daily just to check in on you. Good for you for treading the AA material. I know this would be an incredible leap, but if you could locate a meeting in your area, the face to face support might be very helpful. At a minimum, it will assure you an hour when you will probably not use, and when I came in, that was more than I could do by myself.
hang in there,
AW
hang in there,
AW
Thank you so much. I am doing okay. Made it to a yoga class tonight. That felt good. Gonna hit the sack. Nite Nite!
