Hello Again
I am on day two of tapering and go to the pain clinic tomorrow. I went from 20-30 (3/4 at a time) to 6 (2 at a time) and I am doing o.k. I had the creepy legs and tossing and turning last night and slept most of the day today but I will take sleep over my head wanting pain pills any time. Thanks Ali for posting the OTC meds. I picked up every one of them and have them at the ready for cold turkey day if it starts tomorrow. I did take the advice of many of you and told my husband. I don't think he realizes just how dependent I am still. He didn't say much but he isn't mad either. Tomorrow I will go confess it all to the clinic and we shall see what happens. I just hope I get through the job interview on Tuesday without turning to mush. I will post tomorrow and let you know how day 3 goes. I have so many of you to thank for this. You have given me the support to get through thid weekend with a positive "I can do this" attitude. I won't let you (or me) down. You have helped me to save my life!
Thanks again and I will keep you informed tomorrow.
God bless you all.
Lynn
Welcome Lynn,
My prayers are with you, believe me I know how hard it is. Same thing happened with my hun when I finally admitted the fear of being adicted..
But he was the best thing for me, he even slept with me thru the NO sleeping and sweating stage...got the herbs for me ( Gaba, dlph and vit. c) helped a bunch..
Please be careful they don't put you on methadone...I was referred to the pain clinic for my back...sure i didn't hurt but it screws ya up big time..
Hang in there,and take hot bathes, drink tea you can get thru it.
Traci
My prayers are with you, believe me I know how hard it is. Same thing happened with my hun when I finally admitted the fear of being adicted..
But he was the best thing for me, he even slept with me thru the NO sleeping and sweating stage...got the herbs for me ( Gaba, dlph and vit. c) helped a bunch..
Please be careful they don't put you on methadone...I was referred to the pain clinic for my back...sure i didn't hurt but it screws ya up big time..
Hang in there,and take hot bathes, drink tea you can get thru it.
Traci
Lynn,
It is good to hear that you are hanging in there. I am also glad to hear that you told your husband. When I told my husband I experienced the same thing as you. I don't think he totally understood and he thought I was over reacting. But the important thing is that he stuck by me and tried to be there for me. He is not an addict so I think it would be impossible for him to completely understand, but he tries. I am sure your Dr. will be understanding and help you decide what you need to do from here. Your on the right track now and that is a huge step. Be proud of yourself! I will continue to pray for you. Let us know how tomorrow goes.
Shelly
It is good to hear that you are hanging in there. I am also glad to hear that you told your husband. When I told my husband I experienced the same thing as you. I don't think he totally understood and he thought I was over reacting. But the important thing is that he stuck by me and tried to be there for me. He is not an addict so I think it would be impossible for him to completely understand, but he tries. I am sure your Dr. will be understanding and help you decide what you need to do from here. Your on the right track now and that is a huge step. Be proud of yourself! I will continue to pray for you. Let us know how tomorrow goes.
Shelly
Dear Lynn,
Oh my gosh girl...Im SO proud of you...and Im so happy you told your hubby.
he may not truly comprehend the seriousness of your addiction to your painpills, that may take time...but admitting it to him is big. real big...and liberating for you...
You have had a huge drop in your dosage, personally if your Dr agrees, i would stay on that 6 pill dose awhile longer before going down to 5. two days is not enough......Sounds like you have an important interview on Tuesday and if you jump down too much more in your dosage your w/ds may prevent you from going, or having a good interview....( you dont want to sit there twitching and sweating all over the place...Do i uh....get the...uh job????lololol)
Please let me know how the appointment goes tomorrow...are they the ones that actually prescribe for you> Here in Canada they do not. they recommend dosages to your Dr, and work WITH him or her to achieve a successful dosage for pain control...
Its reassuring to to hear that a huge drop is something others can do too.
I recall many were shocked at how i could go from 25-30 a day down to 8 without having a major medical enmergecy,, but like you I did it realitively well..
i started to think that maybe I could do it because I have such a build up in my system that the w/ds just havent hit me yet....But that wasnt the case...i have stuck to the taper ( for the 1st time in my life) and are down to 5 pills a day..
Once you start reducing the tablets, its amazing how fast you get used to it...I can barely recall my stupiditiy at being able or willing to take 6 or 7 at a time...
cant even CONCEIVE of doing that anymore...we really can change when we are ready and willing to do so honey...Thats the bottom line. If you are rady..you can do it. get as much support as you can, be as honest as you can with your Drs and anyone that has ties to your DOC.
And know that there is no shame in the fact you got addicted. Thats one thing Ive learned that helped me so much...Its not a charachter flaw...not some horrible example of what a wretched human being I am...i just got addicted. i abused the priviledge of using my pain control pills and now have to deal with the consequences....
Please let us know how the pain clinic appointment goes....and lke someone else said, DONT let then give you methadone...thast supposedly hell to come off of and worse than your current DOC's withdrawal..
Ask them about your options..someone here went on sub only for 3 or 4 days and then had nothing further, no withdrawals and they said it was a miracle pill...
i have no idea if sub could work that way..have also heard some people need to stay on it for yesrs...but discuss your options with them...
please get back to us, and know that we are all here for you!!!
Hugs for tomorrows appnt..
Ali
Oh my gosh girl...Im SO proud of you...and Im so happy you told your hubby.
he may not truly comprehend the seriousness of your addiction to your painpills, that may take time...but admitting it to him is big. real big...and liberating for you...
You have had a huge drop in your dosage, personally if your Dr agrees, i would stay on that 6 pill dose awhile longer before going down to 5. two days is not enough......Sounds like you have an important interview on Tuesday and if you jump down too much more in your dosage your w/ds may prevent you from going, or having a good interview....( you dont want to sit there twitching and sweating all over the place...Do i uh....get the...uh job????lololol)
Please let me know how the appointment goes tomorrow...are they the ones that actually prescribe for you> Here in Canada they do not. they recommend dosages to your Dr, and work WITH him or her to achieve a successful dosage for pain control...
Its reassuring to to hear that a huge drop is something others can do too.
I recall many were shocked at how i could go from 25-30 a day down to 8 without having a major medical enmergecy,, but like you I did it realitively well..
i started to think that maybe I could do it because I have such a build up in my system that the w/ds just havent hit me yet....But that wasnt the case...i have stuck to the taper ( for the 1st time in my life) and are down to 5 pills a day..
Once you start reducing the tablets, its amazing how fast you get used to it...I can barely recall my stupiditiy at being able or willing to take 6 or 7 at a time...
cant even CONCEIVE of doing that anymore...we really can change when we are ready and willing to do so honey...Thats the bottom line. If you are rady..you can do it. get as much support as you can, be as honest as you can with your Drs and anyone that has ties to your DOC.
And know that there is no shame in the fact you got addicted. Thats one thing Ive learned that helped me so much...Its not a charachter flaw...not some horrible example of what a wretched human being I am...i just got addicted. i abused the priviledge of using my pain control pills and now have to deal with the consequences....
Please let us know how the pain clinic appointment goes....and lke someone else said, DONT let then give you methadone...thast supposedly hell to come off of and worse than your current DOC's withdrawal..
Ask them about your options..someone here went on sub only for 3 or 4 days and then had nothing further, no withdrawals and they said it was a miracle pill...
i have no idea if sub could work that way..have also heard some people need to stay on it for yesrs...but discuss your options with them...
please get back to us, and know that we are all here for you!!!
Hugs for tomorrows appnt..
Ali
Lynn hey sweety I was just checking in to see how you are doing.Im also glad you told your husband.Its hard enough having an addiction,but than to try & keep it a secret from someone so close probaly is like a full time job.
I tend also to agree about the methodone.
Now I would never totally blame Drs for us becomming addicts but some do make it too easy.
As hard as it may be,please try to remember your Drs WORK FOR YOU.It needs to be up to you to choose the right way for yourself.There are alot of ways of recovery,find the best way for yourself & know you have all our support.For the times your feeling weak remember to come here & we will help however.
Please let us know how you make out today.Take Care.... mj
I tend also to agree about the methodone.
Now I would never totally blame Drs for us becomming addicts but some do make it too easy.
As hard as it may be,please try to remember your Drs WORK FOR YOU.It needs to be up to you to choose the right way for yourself.There are alot of ways of recovery,find the best way for yourself & know you have all our support.For the times your feeling weak remember to come here & we will help however.
Please let us know how you make out today.Take Care.... mj
Was just reading your post. You are doing great. Keep up the good work. You should be so proud of yourself. I'm hoping to get there soon. So many people on this site that are here willing to help. Wish I had found this site sooner. praying for you!
Annie
Annie
