Dear Achey Please Advise

Pain Pills
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Dear Achet joinys,
I just about jumoed and screamed when i read your post to someone. you mention you have had terrible pain and was able to detox from your DOC?

Maybe you can help me..i hope...

I have a tumor deep inside my bone and it flairs up several times a month, at best to 10 days a month...depending on my cycle (water retention) or if i have been over using that joint by lugging around too many suitcases etc..

The pain very often comes to me when im in sleep, comes to me in a dream, dream that someone is torturing me etc and oh god the pain...i wake up because i hear my own moaning...

For many years i used the narcotics only for pain, I was leery to go on them but had reached the end of the line with everything and everyone, th epain clinic said i have to get over my fear of morhphine and talked me out of my fear of addiciton etc..said if and when the time came i would be weaned off of it NO BIG DEAL....running inot emergency at 4 in the morning was putting a huge stress on my husband AND my Drs ( They would find someone there willing to stick a big needle inside the bone and freeze it..sometimes had to wait for several hours lying there rocking and groaning untill the right Dr could be found. must have been a hard type of needle to give ( IT WAS HUGE)

Anyway in the last several years I have gone through tremendous stress, found a best friend dead from a soma overdose and did CPR on her and didnt realize she had been dead for about half an hour at the time....i still have nightmares about that...also we have had several deaths in my family..For all these reasons and the stress entailed i suddenkly found myself taking these pain pills for more than physical opain but mental pain...I have never been someone that had really done a lot of drugs....never thought id find myself actually addicted to something one day.

I am freaking out now, I have cut way back and have been dealing with some withdrawals, I am taking 70% less than my usual daily dose, but just when i enter a 3rd day of tapering BANG here comes the pain. BAD.

I have read that our brain is remembering the pain opathways or something but it feels like the realo deal to me when im feeling it.

How were you able to get off narcotics and still address your legitamit pain issues?????? Im lost and confused and discouraged.

Any advise for me?

Many thanks,
Hugs,
Ali
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bump...achey are you there? anyone????advise????/

ali
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Ali, I will help you, but I need to know your drug of choice.
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Gidget,
I found your thread after writing this last post...have answered you there.
Thank YOU SO MUCH!!!!
Ali