I have battled depression and anxiety from as early as I can remember. I've never seeked help before because well how can talking about it help or fix the problem. I developed an ice addiction quite a few years ago and after almost dying and losing everything that was important to me, I got my self clean and sober. I have been clean 2 1/2 years.. well I was up until a few weeks ago.
How could I be so stupid? What is wrong with me? Why cant I escape this drug, I feel as through its never going to let go of me.
I've worked so hard to get my life back on track and in one night I've relapsed. I'm so scared of becoming the person I used to be but I just cant stop.
I don't know what to do?
hi Michele, ok you relapsed, its what you do now that will determine what your future holds- we are addicts we are never free from our addiction - unfortunate but true- i relapsed many times - you need to do what you did for 2 1/2 years , if you are still using you gotta stop- gotta de-tox if needs be- get back on track Michele- relapse is not a crime its what we do after that really matters- reach out to the people who helped you get clean, use whatever you used before, NA, AA - whatever worked before- if you start beating yourself up over relapsing you are in danger of throwing in the towel-ok you had a relapse its a bump on the road or it becomes a mountain to climb- i know it is not easy, i really do, but if you want what you had for the 21/2 years i think you know what you have to do- keep reaching out for help - none of us make it on our own - good luck with getting back on track Michelle
