I believe I am developing an addiction that I never thought possible. I have dealt with an addictive personality my entire life. I became a drug addict at 17 and at 20 I quit using everything. I started to use exercise as my newest addiction. I am a mother of two step kids and 3 of my own. Mine being 8, 2, and 9 months. My husband works and I stay at home. Lately , like the last 8 months, I have been drinking a lot. I mean there have been a few times I've thrown up. I drink with my neighborhood friends or alone. I use eye drops to hide it and I normally sober up before he gets home from work. The thing is, I don't even like how I feel. I throw away the bottles and try and replace them before my husband would notice. He rarely drinks so he's never even asked about it. I bury the evidence in the trash and take it out. I have an amazing life. Beautiful children and a husband who takes care of everything and I have no financial worries. I have a strong extended family. Truly , I have no idea why I have spent my entire life sabotaging myself. I am either eating healthy and not drinking, or binging in every way. Idk, what it is I am even trying to get from this post. I guess it's my first step to stopping. I've never said I don't want to drink or can't and honestly , just the idea of me telling him that I think I need to stay away from alcohol really scares me. I want to continue to be the hard working wife I have always been. I am terrified of being drunk and something happening to my children. Not because I do something to them, but because I don't react the right way. I'm just looking for advice or kind words. Maybe some suggestions on how to deal with this. Thank you
" I am either eating healthy and not drinking, or binging in every way"
I so relate.
Personally i believe you are an alcoholic /addict from what you described.
But only you can determine that and not us.
Go to AA meetings, check em out . Maybe take baby steps. Start with online AA meetings .
The most important q:
Do you want to stop? Have you had enough? Are you sick and tired of being sick amd tired?
I so relate.
Personally i believe you are an alcoholic /addict from what you described.
But only you can determine that and not us.
Go to AA meetings, check em out . Maybe take baby steps. Start with online AA meetings .
The most important q:
Do you want to stop? Have you had enough? Are you sick and tired of being sick amd tired?
Hi. welcome. I relate to your post. Back in my drinking days especially when my drinking was beginning to get out of control I would do the same that you are doing .. hide my drinking.. hide my bottles and try not to get close enough to anyone so they wouldnt smell the liquor on my breath... It is not my place to call you alcoholic only you can know that but you are showing signs of having the disease. If that should be the case then it is important to know that it progresses and it will get worse. It almost cost me my family and my life .. that was after it it got too bad to hide.... If you are willing to do the work and deal with the problem there is help available. For me I choose AA and counseling and some time spent at a treatment center. There are different methods of recovery but whatever one you choose there will be work involved. There is Hope, there is a solution and there is life after addiction.. let us know how you make out.....
Thank you both for your honesty. I will look online for groups. I'm nervous about this because I don't really want to stop but I want to keep it social. I have tried telling myself that a few drinks a night is "normal" but when I noticed myself hiding the evidence , repeatedly, I realize I am ashamed
side note: I still feel like I am an amazing mom. I mean, I never drink during the day, I wake up early with the kids or throughout the night. I am the constant care. My husband runs his own law practice, and I do 100% of the household. My drinking has never caused me to not take care of my children. A lot of my neighbors drink outside while the kids play at night, and I'll join them, but then I come home and have another drink or two. And some days when all my older kids are away playing, I'll have a drink when just my youngest two are home with me. I'm guessing my behavior sounds like the early stages, and I never want to get to the late stage. So thank you for your words. Is it normal to NOT want to tell anyone?? Do I have to tell people? My thought is, I can say I'm doing a new workout program (completely normal for me) and on a strict diet and cannot have any alcohol. Then maybe no one will offer me anything or invite me out.
Denial
I feel like it's more embarrassment than denial. I would rather just keep this private.
Hey there-
I know where you are coming from .
But you did say. You want to keep it social. You might not fully admit you have a problem or convinced that you do?
You see- with us alcoholics- it is a dream we can never achieve. It just does not work.
Answer these two questions with complete honesty:
When you try to quit, do you find it very difficult to stay quit and when you do drink, can you have control over how much you drink.
I know where you are coming from .
But you did say. You want to keep it social. You might not fully admit you have a problem or convinced that you do?
You see- with us alcoholics- it is a dream we can never achieve. It just does not work.
Answer these two questions with complete honesty:
When you try to quit, do you find it very difficult to stay quit and when you do drink, can you have control over how much you drink.
Also. Drop in google search. Am i an alcoholic questions and see how you do . Your thread title was : do i habe an alcohol problem
