Hey Adam are you still coming around the board? If so give us a shout will ya.I wonder how you are doing.Take it easy bud and take care.
Yeah, I frequent the board daily. I don't post often for obvious reasons. I drank Tuesday, and come Friday night, I drank, and tonight I bought vodka. So, I have nothing really to post about, just read mostly. I am better than I was say, 3 or 4 weeks ago..Thanks for askin though :) How are things with you lately?
Dodsworth
Dodsworth
Hi there. glad to "see" you. I am doing good thanks for asking. You could still post on here Adam. I am sure there are some things you would just like to get off your mind at times. It always helps to talk or in this case write. When you are ready you will give up drinking. Maybe there is a bottom you have yet to reach.I just hope that you don't go too far down the scale to get back up.I am sure you have seen what alcohol can do to a person. When you are willing to make that commitment you know the support is always here for you. In the meantime still keep checking in cause I for one like to hear from you.In the meantime I can tell you that sobriety is worth fighting for and so are you. Take care bud and stay safe (((( )))))
Hey Adam,
Good to see you.
It's great that you feel you're doing better than you were a few weeks ago. What do you think is helping?
Martin
Good to see you.
It's great that you feel you're doing better than you were a few weeks ago. What do you think is helping?
Martin
Martin- hi ty.. I think it is the meetings..I havn't fully utilized the program yet, somedays i feel like getting spiritual, but some days i resist it. I've met many very nice and sincere people and i think that has made an impression on me. I have more days recently where drinking seems no fun and it only seems like an excercise in desperation rather than a good time. Thanks for reading and posting martin!
Dodsworth
Dodsworth
Hi Dodsworth,
I think it's great that you've worked out what helps you achieve your goals. I guess the more you can bring of that in your life the more you'll achieve. One day at a time, two steps forward one step back....I wish I'd known at your age what you do already....I think it might have saved both of my long-term relationships and my house....and even more importantly my life would have been lived fully these past few decades....not a grayed-out version......so forgive me if I sound preachy but from where I stand this is your chance to find out who you are and who you might become....living your whole life fully in the moment with a heart full of joy....and even the bad times being bearable because of a deep peace within.....the prize at the end of the path you're taking now isn't just a hangover and guilt-free life, it's a technicolour ride through an amazing existence....every little bit is wonderful! It's as if someone took your old black and white TV and gave you Blu-Ray HD.....it makes me laugh...everything is filled with life's hidden magic....
And yes, that's the spiritual bit....it's a long conversation and I don't want to sound off because it's something I struggled with for months and I know no-one could have told me anything about it.......you can read some of my old posts to see what a state I was in if you want.....in some of them I write about the experiences that crowded in on me, intruded into my life..... I was surrounded by coincidences, songs, adverts, posters, phrases, posts here and elsewhere, things in books....a gathering of birds, a dog....I kid you not....things that are ordinary and unexceptional except the FEELING that exploded within me, the AWARENESS, was utterly miraculous....and is now everyday.... everyday.... once I accepted what was happening....
How in God's name did I EVER take being alive for granted? lol
Keep well and happy!
Martin
I think it's great that you've worked out what helps you achieve your goals. I guess the more you can bring of that in your life the more you'll achieve. One day at a time, two steps forward one step back....I wish I'd known at your age what you do already....I think it might have saved both of my long-term relationships and my house....and even more importantly my life would have been lived fully these past few decades....not a grayed-out version......so forgive me if I sound preachy but from where I stand this is your chance to find out who you are and who you might become....living your whole life fully in the moment with a heart full of joy....and even the bad times being bearable because of a deep peace within.....the prize at the end of the path you're taking now isn't just a hangover and guilt-free life, it's a technicolour ride through an amazing existence....every little bit is wonderful! It's as if someone took your old black and white TV and gave you Blu-Ray HD.....it makes me laugh...everything is filled with life's hidden magic....
And yes, that's the spiritual bit....it's a long conversation and I don't want to sound off because it's something I struggled with for months and I know no-one could have told me anything about it.......you can read some of my old posts to see what a state I was in if you want.....in some of them I write about the experiences that crowded in on me, intruded into my life..... I was surrounded by coincidences, songs, adverts, posters, phrases, posts here and elsewhere, things in books....a gathering of birds, a dog....I kid you not....things that are ordinary and unexceptional except the FEELING that exploded within me, the AWARENESS, was utterly miraculous....and is now everyday.... everyday.... once I accepted what was happening....
How in God's name did I EVER take being alive for granted? lol
Keep well and happy!
Martin
Hey Adam just poppin in to say hi and wishing you a good day. Take care and look on the sunny side.
hey, thanks pirate! Have a good day!
Dodsworth
Dodsworth
Adam,
I just want to say hi and introduce myself...I'm Stacey and I can relate a lot to your previous post. The alcohol & drugs had to quit working in order for me to embrace recovery, in fact, it's when the drugs/alcohol took complete control of my every thought, and I could no longer stand myself, my actions and behaviors were totally insane, is when I finally walked into a meeting. I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to drink or use. It took some time to reach that point but I thank God today that I made it to the rooms before the morgue.
I think it's awesome that you're going to meetings. It takes what it takes and if you keep coming back, crack the door on willingness, you've got a shot. All that is required is a desire to stop....Most every real alcoholic I know has been exactly where you are now and we understand.
Welcome to the board....
Take care,
Stacey
I just want to say hi and introduce myself...I'm Stacey and I can relate a lot to your previous post. The alcohol & drugs had to quit working in order for me to embrace recovery, in fact, it's when the drugs/alcohol took complete control of my every thought, and I could no longer stand myself, my actions and behaviors were totally insane, is when I finally walked into a meeting. I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to drink or use. It took some time to reach that point but I thank God today that I made it to the rooms before the morgue.
I think it's awesome that you're going to meetings. It takes what it takes and if you keep coming back, crack the door on willingness, you've got a shot. All that is required is a desire to stop....Most every real alcoholic I know has been exactly where you are now and we understand.
Welcome to the board....
Take care,
Stacey
Hope your still hanging out and hanging in. Anything new happening? Hope things are going well for you.
