Hello everyone! Today at my place of employment it got really heavy. I had to facilitate meetings with several employees and then deal with my supervisor. I had this funny feeling that I was "right on the money". I would have never been able to feel like that if I was "still token". If I was smoking even just on weekends I would have been at a loss for words, very anxious, and unable to come up with a plan. Even if this is just my inflated sense of self, it sure feels a lot better than the feeling of loser when I went to meetings as a stoner and wondered afterward if everyone knew! Thanks to everyone that posts on this board. A lot of people out there really do not know that for some pot has become a very large deal and daily struggle.
Dancer
Isnt it great to get that feeling at work. Like you are successful and sharp! And may actually be a contributing member of society. lol.
I remember that feeling, I took it and ran with it. It isnt an over inflated ego. It is your ego that pot inhibited for so long. Just think we might have been rocket scientist, haha.
I remember that feeling, I took it and ran with it. It isnt an over inflated ego. It is your ego that pot inhibited for so long. Just think we might have been rocket scientist, haha.
Thanks Dancer, I feel the same way about that "right on the money" feeling at work. Yesterday was such a great day at work and I gave so much of my self to the people I interated with. Pot made me shy away from living to my potential. I just couldn't even look in the mirror while in the bathroom at work, because I knew "I wasn't living right".
Be sure to pack that memory away in a special place in your brain so that you have somewhere to go if/when the urge to smoke strikes again. And it is likely that it will, pot may not be addicting, but it is insidious.
(My dictionary sat on a shelf for years til I started posting on this board, with its lack of a spellchecker. Now I pull it down once a week, but that's a good thing.)
(My dictionary sat on a shelf for years til I started posting on this board, with its lack of a spellchecker. Now I pull it down once a week, but that's a good thing.)
Thanks, I am going to revisit this post often in the coming weeks. I want that feeling too. dm
dramamama-
Are you doing anything to prepare for your quit date, or is it just "business as usual" right now?
Are you doing anything to prepare for your quit date, or is it just "business as usual" right now?
i know for me it is great feeling going to work straight! I feel so much more confident about what I do. I have some worries and pressures for the coming year, but I know that straight I will figure out a way to handle them and be good at what I do. Before, when I was stoned all the time, I was doing okay, but I was full of fear. I know that my "high brain" was slow and missed so much, even right now at 9:51pm, I am thinking about things, often in my stoned life, I'd be up, but pretty well burnt out and usually smoked myself "out" about this hour. I was out shopping/diner with my wife this eve and it was so nice that I didn't have to worry how I was going to sneak in a buzz, before, after or during.
Not sure if I'm saving any $$$ though. Before I spent about $200/month smoking, now I have so many interests and my mind is interested in so many different and new things, i easily make that $200/mo up in good projects, but that is a good thing.
Not sure if I'm saving any $$$ though. Before I spent about $200/month smoking, now I have so many interests and my mind is interested in so many different and new things, i easily make that $200/mo up in good projects, but that is a good thing.
