*smile*
thank you for sharing this..............
i got an inceditable feeling in my heart when reading this...........
GOD BLESS YOU..............
thumper
Thank you for that story.
Amazing how the right thing shows up. I agree with Kee Kee and Gina; thank you for sharing how it works. Even today if I got a call like that, I would like to think it would be automatic, and you did it.
You just showed me it can be.
btw, how in the world does someone get 700 oxys? That drug should never be presrcibed imho unless you have a terminal illness. It is some highly dangerous s***.
Amazing how the right thing shows up. I agree with Kee Kee and Gina; thank you for sharing how it works. Even today if I got a call like that, I would like to think it would be automatic, and you did it.
You just showed me it can be.
btw, how in the world does someone get 700 oxys? That drug should never be presrcibed imho unless you have a terminal illness. It is some highly dangerous s***.
tim!!!
great job in playing the rest of the tape thru!!! jewels
great job in playing the rest of the tape thru!!! jewels
Again..........Thanks everyone for your kind words.
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The guy has an open end script to all kinds of narcotics.He doesn't do them.he saves them and sells them.
I told him several years back I had quit but I guess he's desperate to unload.
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The guy has an open end script to all kinds of narcotics.He doesn't do them.he saves them and sells them.
I told him several years back I had quit but I guess he's desperate to unload.
you done good, tim.
congrats on the contract.
congrats on the contract.
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I cannot speak for the others, but I sure don't feel like I am very strong and I still feel "scattered" do NOT feel like I have it together. I don't know where you are getting strength from in me, your eyesight is better than mine. Thanks for the compliment though. I constantly negatively compare myself to others, you included. Sometime, I will e-mail you I incompetent I feel sometimes. Promise not to laugh. But keep on for another 24 hours doing the next right thing. I do such by catching up at work (I get behind alot, part of it is planning, part of it is I truly do have too much to do)
Take care today...here is to life....
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I cannot speak for the others, but I sure don't feel like I am very strong and I still feel "scattered" do NOT feel like I have it together. I don't know where you are getting strength from in me, your eyesight is better than mine. Thanks for the compliment though. I constantly negatively compare myself to others, you included. Sometime, I will e-mail you I incompetent I feel sometimes. Promise not to laugh. But keep on for another 24 hours doing the next right thing. I do such by catching up at work (I get behind alot, part of it is planning, part of it is I truly do have too much to do)
Take care today...here is to life....
Hey Tim...It's been awhile,but I know what your mind and body went through when you were hit with the thought of getting a butt load of oxy's cheap.Stuff like that would ruin my day or two.It's like your body is instantly thrown into a panic attack,but yet there is excitement that goes along with it.Then you can't concentrate and as hard as you try you just can't seem to get it out of your head.You can't seem to relax.
I don't know if the one had to do with the other,but I am happy that you were able to get that bid.It's a wonderful thing to realize and see God at work.The bible tells us that if God will take care of the birds in the air how much more will He take care of us.
I guess it's our sinful nature to question and second guess God,but He really is in control.We would see it more and more if we truly kept our eyes open.It was exciting to hear how God has worked in your life.Thank you for sharing this with us Tim it makes me want to keep my eyes open for when He works again.
Kevin
I don't know if the one had to do with the other,but I am happy that you were able to get that bid.It's a wonderful thing to realize and see God at work.The bible tells us that if God will take care of the birds in the air how much more will He take care of us.
I guess it's our sinful nature to question and second guess God,but He really is in control.We would see it more and more if we truly kept our eyes open.It was exciting to hear how God has worked in your life.Thank you for sharing this with us Tim it makes me want to keep my eyes open for when He works again.
Kevin
Elim-I can't even begin to tell you how much I get out of your post.That one last week had me thinking for days.The one about "tough love".I've never heard it presented like that.I guess I was ready to hear it.Thanks again.
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I agree Kevin but for so much of my life I thought I was God and in control.It was a very cruel joke.Even in sobriety I want to take the power back some days.I am not cured.I'm an addict that's trying to find a better way to live.I might have a few more days than the newcomer but left to my own devices,I can act out like any street junkie.
I have to keep myself in check.
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I agree Kevin but for so much of my life I thought I was God and in control.It was a very cruel joke.Even in sobriety I want to take the power back some days.I am not cured.I'm an addict that's trying to find a better way to live.I might have a few more days than the newcomer but left to my own devices,I can act out like any street junkie.
I have to keep myself in check.
Tim,thanks so much for sharing that experience with us.Do you realise how often things like this happen to all of us here,sometimes we cave,sometimes we turn them away,and feel so grateful for having the strength to do so.
For those of us who have caved,heres proof that we CAN walk away and feel better for it,if not the first temptation,then hopefully the second.
And for those of us who have walked away,never say never,it can happen again at anytime,when we are at our lowest point,but doing the next right thing(even if by rote)brings a huge amount of gratification.
Tim,what you said,about bascially going through the motions at times,i feel thats kind of how ive been doing things these days,but the metophore,fake it til you make it,really does work.You did what you did out of sheer habit,by having told yourself time and time again if,if,if,...
Your post is very uplifting and inspiring,thank you,thats whats so great about this board.We get so much from each other,without even knowing it sometimes(like Elim....how could you not know how much your words have helped many of us?)We all just do what we must and carry on.I think we are all doing the next right thing.....~KIM
For those of us who have caved,heres proof that we CAN walk away and feel better for it,if not the first temptation,then hopefully the second.
And for those of us who have walked away,never say never,it can happen again at anytime,when we are at our lowest point,but doing the next right thing(even if by rote)brings a huge amount of gratification.
Tim,what you said,about bascially going through the motions at times,i feel thats kind of how ive been doing things these days,but the metophore,fake it til you make it,really does work.You did what you did out of sheer habit,by having told yourself time and time again if,if,if,...
Your post is very uplifting and inspiring,thank you,thats whats so great about this board.We get so much from each other,without even knowing it sometimes(like Elim....how could you not know how much your words have helped many of us?)We all just do what we must and carry on.I think we are all doing the next right thing.....~KIM
Hey Tim...whether an addict or a Christian or both we will always need to keep ourselves in check.I may not attend AA or Na anylonger,but still hit my Sunday meeting.
Is there such a thing as being cured??? I'm not wise enough to answer that.I do know that I have to keep a good relationship with my Lord or I tend to get myself into trouble.Like you,I try and be my own god,and I suck at it..LOL.
If you think about it...what kind of Christian would I be if I never read my bible..never prayed..and never went to church? I'll never get to the point where I know it all and don't have to do those things.HUH??? kinda like recovery isn't it?
Again Tim,congratulations on the bid.May the Lord continue His blessings upon you.
Kevin
Is there such a thing as being cured??? I'm not wise enough to answer that.I do know that I have to keep a good relationship with my Lord or I tend to get myself into trouble.Like you,I try and be my own god,and I suck at it..LOL.
If you think about it...what kind of Christian would I be if I never read my bible..never prayed..and never went to church? I'll never get to the point where I know it all and don't have to do those things.HUH??? kinda like recovery isn't it?
Again Tim,congratulations on the bid.May the Lord continue His blessings upon you.
Kevin
Tim, you are a ray of sunshine in so many people's lives. You are a miracle and living proof that God is alive and living in you. Congratulations on your wise choice and the reward God gave you in return. I know what it is like having to pray for contracts to come along, lol. Are you in construction? God bless you and I am proud of you!!
Love, Cherie
Love, Cherie
