I was just reading all the great advice Sasha had for withdrawl aids.....O.K. so I thought of something which is NOW actually funny......in no way am I minimizing the awful kick...did it myself probably no lie near 50 times...well if you count those one dayer's.......love all the vitamins.....AMINO ACIDS...helped me mucho......that Omega-3 no lie helps with the depression and anger...but I take you back to what seems like faraway, but yesterday.
Me.......the thieving, nasty, junkie.......let in once again even after I robbed the poor guy......my friend........what I didn't do to this guy......so here I am in a clean bed.......while dude takes the couch......I'm smelling, and the minds racing, and I'm of course up all night, and wandering around putting lights on.
This is a bachelor by the way.......I'm messing up his schedule, and he doesn't trust me so one eye is open.
Day 2..........me........sweating, and smelling, and crying like a two year old...oh, wait my apologies to the two year old.....I'm bawling like an infant.
I'm laying on the bathroom floor.......rocking like we do.......my friend comes in, and says.......stop your crying......you put yourself here........well, uhhh yeah, but can ya tell me that in like a month.......I ignore him......then he goes into the mode we all know I think......hey, your tough......I'm proud of ya......you're bigger than that stuff.........OH-------------Kay, thanks and all, but I prefer to vomit in private.......you may leave your own bathroom......junkie is here.
So, he then says......I got ya something will help you........do I DARE....my junkie persona comes to life.........ya got me something.......I knew it wasn't heroin off the bat.......he would never do that........the glimmer of hope was he got an Oxycontin somewhere.......YESHHHHHHHH.......here I see a pill....I'm focusing on his hand.......I see......I see a pill.......bing, bing, bing.
We got ourself a winner folks.......A PILL.........watch me come to life.....I stop my stammering, and try to look as sweet, and innocent as one can look with puke on them, BO which only a heroin addict knows.........and of course no way will I see that shower until these chills go....I'm a beauty, and I already am trying to coax a second pill out of him....ain't got the first one in my hand. Yes, people we know that sultry look only withdrawl brings.....glowing skin, and I am now thinking I look pretty damn good he's going to give me TWO PILLS cause I am C-U-T-E........LOL......dilusional.....OH WAIT.....not good....look ill as possible.....go back to bad as hell, and cry.....WAH......if I am not suffering enough I'm only getting the one pill......back to suffer.
My friend then says........this is a multi-vitamin, and I read it will help you....you need some vitamins cause you are run down.........A VITAMIN????????
Dude you are joking me..........a dang vitamin.........oh, no you did not.
Oh, my Lord.........talk about a big letdown.....LOL.......I freaked, and took up with my boo hoo thingie, and told him to go take it himself.....and oh yeah....he was a chain smoker......actually quit the two pack a day habit recently.....I go off on well I am going to take your smokes, and when you're jonsing I WILL give you a vitamin......LOL........trust me I dreamt up ways to make that cat suffer.
I love him........that was wild........looking back on it I have to say now it's funny.
Sorry, to anyone suffering right now.....I was there too......it will I promise go away.......hang on, and try to be cool with anyone helping you.....unless they have been there they don't understand.....vitamin.......too funny.
Oh, and loved ones......don't try that at home......hopefully none of us will ever have to ever again......either side.....addict or loved ones.....here's to Multi-Vit's.
great story!. This reminds me of when i kicked in the mental hospital. I would beg those nurses for a some valuim. My doc comes in with a SHOT i'm so excited God this must be good some Ativan perhaps or something to calm me down. I was a raving idiot and walking the halls between running to the bathroom. He says it's Thiamine I have a thiamine deficiency oh the sadness set in.
Oh, ZeroGirl.....I mean hero girl.....thiamine.....oh you had to be ready to freak out........well at least you didn't put one of those rubber gloves tied around your head..........I did that because my head was POUNDING.......so of course, and mind ya this is pre-drug.......of course they didn't go for that.......LOL....told me to knock it off and get the glove off my head......it was a tournecuit of course to stop that blood pound in the back of your skull.
Ahhhh, what did they know......giving an addict in withdrawl a bit of thiamine...well Mizz we not need to worry none bout that now.
Here everybody.......here's rubber glove for your head.
Ahhhh, what did they know......giving an addict in withdrawl a bit of thiamine...well Mizz we not need to worry none bout that now.
Here everybody.......here's rubber glove for your head.
Bryn- You bought the fist smile to my face in six day's since iv'e hopefully finally kicked and riden that horse straight out of town. Your post reminded me it's somethying we all have to go through to get clean, but when your sick you feel for sure your the only one given this curse and your cluck is far worse than anyone else's. Well it's not df's,oxcy or anything like that I want or vitamin's either. But those chills and leg aches just send me cranky as there seems to be no respite or anything to help them other than the classic hot bath system, where you get in the bath, get nice and cosy, top it so it's scorching, get out, feel colder than before and then go for another one and so on and so. So if anyone out there knows any remedies for the leg aches and chills please tell, iv'e heard quinine before can help the legs, but any pills, potions or remedies cos if anything is going to send me crazy it'll be the combination of them. I can handle the sleeplessness and restlessnes, as long as there is some form of comfort, I must remember it's not even been a week yet, so there's still along way to go, but at least iv'e started Naltraxone already on day 4(arghhhhhhh) so I can't use even if I wanted-just suffer the consequences. Carl
Your are one funny dope fiend(I mean HA-HA-funny)
much love&respect
jack
much love&respect
jack
Cheers Jack for the copliment, there much required at the mo, so if anyone else wants to throw some in feel free, it'll give me something to do now the insomnia is wearing me down a bit. Pacing round the house at all hours. I tried to get one flew over the cockoo's nest last night from blockbuster, they took one look at me and refused straight blank, I think they thought I had just flown the nest. I like cranky films when i'm in a cranky place although one flew over might of sent me over, i'm sure I wouldn't be the first victim of Ken cassey and probably not the last. Anyway rambling to kill a bit of time. It's nice to finally meet you Jack, I think you came around about the time I dropped out about this time last year. one other thing I should be spending oct/nov over your sides of the water san fran/LA, so if anyone reading this goes to any good meetings over there, please tell and I may pop along and surprise you all........
