Has anyone else ever had very vivid dreams about using? Like, taking pills or whatever? I had one today that totally triggered me and they just come up out of nowhere, especially if I haven't taken anything in awhile.
Does suboxone help with the craving dreams? I wonder if this means I should still be on a higher dose.
The weird thing is, the amount I used was always way lower than what I wanted to... so I feel like I have that battle to fight. Even though I have never had to physically detox, I feel like this stuff is everywhere in my brain, that it has been imprinted on me and my body, and the dreams just make that a reality.
It's just scary. I woke up scared.
Bah.
soulpicninc,
You are perfectly normal. Most addicts have 'users dreams', and they can be a little bit disturbing. Or a lot disturbing if you let them.
I have had them, not anywhere near as much quiting this time. I am on suboxone this time, so maybe that has something to do with it. But I have had them at different points in my life when I have stopped using alcohol and pills.
Most people can never seem to get enough in their 'users dream', no matter how much they do. I used to have them about drinking, and I have even had ones where I was hung over and could not get enough Sprite. How strange that one was.........
Try not to let them freak you out much.
I had a weird one the other morning. In my dream I wasusing and then I was ssooo tired driving to work (at 55 miles an hour on a busy 2 lane road) that I couldn't keep my eyes open. I was also talking on the phone in my dream while I was driving. I kept telling the person I was talking to that I had to go, I could not see the road. Freaky. I could not get my eyes open in my dream and I could not get the car pulled over and stopped.
Anyway, take care and just take comfort in the fact that they are COMMON, and mostly in the fact that they are NOT REAL.
I just remembered that we talked about useres dreams at a NA meeting a few weeks ago and one of th people there LIKED them! She said it was because at least she got to use and still not lose her clean time........Sounded good to me!
peaceout
dtroitj
You are perfectly normal. Most addicts have 'users dreams', and they can be a little bit disturbing. Or a lot disturbing if you let them.
I have had them, not anywhere near as much quiting this time. I am on suboxone this time, so maybe that has something to do with it. But I have had them at different points in my life when I have stopped using alcohol and pills.
Most people can never seem to get enough in their 'users dream', no matter how much they do. I used to have them about drinking, and I have even had ones where I was hung over and could not get enough Sprite. How strange that one was.........
Try not to let them freak you out much.
I had a weird one the other morning. In my dream I wasusing and then I was ssooo tired driving to work (at 55 miles an hour on a busy 2 lane road) that I couldn't keep my eyes open. I was also talking on the phone in my dream while I was driving. I kept telling the person I was talking to that I had to go, I could not see the road. Freaky. I could not get my eyes open in my dream and I could not get the car pulled over and stopped.
Anyway, take care and just take comfort in the fact that they are COMMON, and mostly in the fact that they are NOT REAL.
I just remembered that we talked about useres dreams at a NA meeting a few weeks ago and one of th people there LIKED them! She said it was because at least she got to use and still not lose her clean time........Sounded good to me!
peaceout
dtroitj
Hey Soul:
I've had using dreams for years, they're extremely common. I went though an 8 year clean period, and after a while they pretty much stopped. I remember one though, early in my recovery, and it was very vivid. Like seeing a movie, I had gotten my pill, got really messed, decided to drive and killed someone. I woke up in such a panic!! When I realized it was only a dream, I almost cried. I thought I had slipped, binged big time, and killed someone. It was such a relief!
Eventually, sadly, I started using again. I uselly dream about getting pills, the night before my doc's appt. Or if I'm out of pill, I'll dream I've found some. It tells me now how much control the drugs have over me, when even my dream life is involved in scrambling to get them.
I've had using dreams for years, they're extremely common. I went though an 8 year clean period, and after a while they pretty much stopped. I remember one though, early in my recovery, and it was very vivid. Like seeing a movie, I had gotten my pill, got really messed, decided to drive and killed someone. I woke up in such a panic!! When I realized it was only a dream, I almost cried. I thought I had slipped, binged big time, and killed someone. It was such a relief!
Eventually, sadly, I started using again. I uselly dream about getting pills, the night before my doc's appt. Or if I'm out of pill, I'll dream I've found some. It tells me now how much control the drugs have over me, when even my dream life is involved in scrambling to get them.
Boy that really threw me off today. It's not like I haven't had them before, I guess now that I'm on the suboxone and am working to address this stuff, I forgot that they come and are powerful and usually make me go, "Ooh, I really want to take something..." and now instead of just brushing it off, I was like "OH F---!!" Like it's some kind of failure on my part. Even though I know, rationally, that it isn't.
I just wasn't expecting it, I guess.
I just wasn't expecting it, I guess.
Ah yes, using dreams, I am quite familiar. I would bet more addicts have them than don't have them. It's very normal, especially if you are newly clean. Most find that they come less frequently over time, although they can pop up at random. I don't think this should be cause to increase your suboxone.
I had them all the time when I was using, especially is I was close to running out of pills. I would dream of counting, counting, counting my pills. Half a bottle would be four pills. Probably because I knew I would take the rest of the bottle like someone else might take four pills. I would wake up disturbed and feel compelled to go count my pills, to be sure I knew how many I had left. As if I may have made a mistake the other 10 times I had counted that day.
I even had a dream about the dust bunnies on my floor containing an opiate. I wanted to get high so much I started eating them. As funny as it sounds, the dream had a desperate feel and I was shaken when I woke up. It's posted here somewhere. I think that was the last time I had one, and that I was newly off of suboxone. They do fade.
I had them all the time when I was using, especially is I was close to running out of pills. I would dream of counting, counting, counting my pills. Half a bottle would be four pills. Probably because I knew I would take the rest of the bottle like someone else might take four pills. I would wake up disturbed and feel compelled to go count my pills, to be sure I knew how many I had left. As if I may have made a mistake the other 10 times I had counted that day.
I even had a dream about the dust bunnies on my floor containing an opiate. I wanted to get high so much I started eating them. As funny as it sounds, the dream had a desperate feel and I was shaken when I woke up. It's posted here somewhere. I think that was the last time I had one, and that I was newly off of suboxone. They do fade.
