Morning Jean,
I think you should feel comfortable mentioning this anytime you want to. From one Mom to another, I know you have faced the worst nightmare we could ever have. The very least we can do for you is listen and give you our shoulder and compassion.
To me, recovery is more than just stopping drugs and staying off them. It's life and all that surrounds it. Whatever issues our fellow addicts and friend's face, I think we should be there for them.
I consider it an honor to be here for you anytime you want me to.
Love, Kat
Pam....right back at ya...smile
Thanks so much Kat,
You have always been so nice and still able to get your point across.
I know it's a part of my recovery b/c I will be dealing with the loss of my son the rest of my life. Once I found the pills numbed the emotional pain, I did love that.
Then when the W/D's came - I had to re-live it all over again. So, I need to stay away from them. I'm going to have bad times but I have to accept that and not try and cover up with pills. I know that everyone has bad times for different reasons, this is just the worse thing that I thought could ever happen to me.
What was strange, I have no idea why I prayed this but every night from the time my oldest was born, I would pray to God to please not let me out-live my children. I don't have a clue why that was my prayer even though I was so young when he was born. Nothing like that had ever happened in our family or close friends. Maybe all of that praying helped in the long run. I know for sure now it is not in our hands at all. I do accept that but it doesn't stop me from wanting him back even though I know he is in a much better place than this world is. I do know that I will see him again one day and I don't live for that b/c I have others and myself to live for but it is something I so look forward to - to hug him and kiss him on the cheek like I did every time he would walk in or out the door.
Thanks for letting me talk about him - and not making me feel that you just feel sympathy for me, that you don't mind if I discuss him. It's so hard not to talk about him, he was my son and he was so much fun. I do say that he was the one at the age of 15, tried to kill me - haha - I think after raising 3 boys, that 15 is the worse age.
Don't know about girls.
Thank you again, you are just so refreshing, just thanks for e'thing you are,
Jean
You have always been so nice and still able to get your point across.
I know it's a part of my recovery b/c I will be dealing with the loss of my son the rest of my life. Once I found the pills numbed the emotional pain, I did love that.
Then when the W/D's came - I had to re-live it all over again. So, I need to stay away from them. I'm going to have bad times but I have to accept that and not try and cover up with pills. I know that everyone has bad times for different reasons, this is just the worse thing that I thought could ever happen to me.
What was strange, I have no idea why I prayed this but every night from the time my oldest was born, I would pray to God to please not let me out-live my children. I don't have a clue why that was my prayer even though I was so young when he was born. Nothing like that had ever happened in our family or close friends. Maybe all of that praying helped in the long run. I know for sure now it is not in our hands at all. I do accept that but it doesn't stop me from wanting him back even though I know he is in a much better place than this world is. I do know that I will see him again one day and I don't live for that b/c I have others and myself to live for but it is something I so look forward to - to hug him and kiss him on the cheek like I did every time he would walk in or out the door.
Thanks for letting me talk about him - and not making me feel that you just feel sympathy for me, that you don't mind if I discuss him. It's so hard not to talk about him, he was my son and he was so much fun. I do say that he was the one at the age of 15, tried to kill me - haha - I think after raising 3 boys, that 15 is the worse age.
Don't know about girls.
Thank you again, you are just so refreshing, just thanks for e'thing you are,
Jean
Thank you to Everyone. Sorry i've been away for a few days but I've been really busy working/remodeling my house and now I'm paying for it dearly. Sore, Sore, Sore....................and Pooped, Pooped, Pooped........... I've missed everyone.........
