This week I had a drinking dream.. I don't know why they happen but all I can say is I WAS SO RELIEVED to wake and realize it was just a dream.. In my dream it was awful, horrible, was a nightmare but the thing is I have experienced in real life all the feelings and chaos that happened in my dream so to wake up and it not be real left me feeling so GRATEFUL, THANKFUL, and so appreciative of what I have now... Whatever the reason we get drinking dreams and I have had them before but they would usually leave me with the desire to drink but this time it was like I was given the experience of the way it would be without doing it and really I cannot put in words how very grateful I am that it was just a dream.
I can relate to the feelings of relief when awakening and realizing it was just a dream, that moment of "phew".
Curiously, I had dreams on back to back nights last week, right when we left on our long weekend, one was a drinking dream & one was a using dream but it was when I was young & using methanphetamines. When I woke up, I was like huh? There's something to the drinking/using dreams and for me, it's not the desire to go & use again, it's more like things are trying to surface & my brain is trying to stuff....Sammy (our friend Denise from PP board, rip) used to say it was our spirits getting ready for another spiritual growth...I like to think of it as that, more spiritual growth.
You're doing awesome, Marie...keep taking that next step forward & relying on your HP for the guidance & wisdom.
Much love,
Stacey
Curiously, I had dreams on back to back nights last week, right when we left on our long weekend, one was a drinking dream & one was a using dream but it was when I was young & using methanphetamines. When I woke up, I was like huh? There's something to the drinking/using dreams and for me, it's not the desire to go & use again, it's more like things are trying to surface & my brain is trying to stuff....Sammy (our friend Denise from PP board, rip) used to say it was our spirits getting ready for another spiritual growth...I like to think of it as that, more spiritual growth.
You're doing awesome, Marie...keep taking that next step forward & relying on your HP for the guidance & wisdom.
Much love,
Stacey
I haven't had a drinking dream for many years but I remember vividly waking up and knowing that I had to tell my group and my sponsor I had drank, and trying to figure out how I could do it "painlessly". For the first minute or so I still wanted to "cover up".
Thanks for the post pirate, it was a good "remember when".
Bob
Thanks for the post pirate, it was a good "remember when".
Bob
I have thoughts about drinking once in a while, and usually when something new gets advertised that seems new. For instance, there's some product being advertised that's Southern Comfort mixed with Tobasco.
"I wonder what THAT'S like? I'll bet it's hot and sweet! Smooth, sleek, glamorous--especially drinking with THAT model! Followed shortly by: Nope, don't think so. There's not enough in there to even think about getting started because I'm going to want to 'catch up for lost time;' She's gonna want a key to my hotel; anxiety, guilt, anguish, fear. Followed by: Gawd, the amount that I'd have to drink? That'd burn everything up between my mouth and my, well, you know already! Probably not a good idea--and remember the LAST time I got hammered?
All within a second or two.
No, I have absolutely no delusions about where alcohol/____ takes me, and there's not enough to get me started again. 24Gordon said, "If you can't remember your last drunk, you're not finished." It all comes rushing back to me in respectful fears today, like touching a hot stove; And I don't have another recovery within me, knowing what I know today.
Thanks for telling on yourself--it scares the FIRE out of me these days...
Yes, that was intentional...
"I wonder what THAT'S like? I'll bet it's hot and sweet! Smooth, sleek, glamorous--especially drinking with THAT model! Followed shortly by: Nope, don't think so. There's not enough in there to even think about getting started because I'm going to want to 'catch up for lost time;' She's gonna want a key to my hotel; anxiety, guilt, anguish, fear. Followed by: Gawd, the amount that I'd have to drink? That'd burn everything up between my mouth and my, well, you know already! Probably not a good idea--and remember the LAST time I got hammered?
All within a second or two.
No, I have absolutely no delusions about where alcohol/____ takes me, and there's not enough to get me started again. 24Gordon said, "If you can't remember your last drunk, you're not finished." It all comes rushing back to me in respectful fears today, like touching a hot stove; And I don't have another recovery within me, knowing what I know today.
Thanks for telling on yourself--it scares the FIRE out of me these days...
Yes, that was intentional...
I've also had a drinking dream and I woke up with the same feeling I used to have when it was a smoking dream. So glad it was only a nightmare.
I've had dreams about using cocaine even after 12 yrs c/s.
Its not unusual. The wish to drink or use is there still there in the unconscious part of our minds,and will likely never leave.
Its not unusual. The wish to drink or use is there still there in the unconscious part of our minds,and will likely never leave.
