Early Recovery: The Pink Cloud

Pain Pills
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tell me if im the crazy one please. im on day 77 of healthy recovery (versus my last clean time of 10months in which i was like a "dry drunk") im doing lots of meetings, outpatient treatment complete with relapse prevention and process groups. im doing step work. everything is great. and then 3 days ago i started crying and couldnt quit. and have been crying randomly for a few minutes at a time over nothing. or maybe its unidentified stress? nothing has changed in the past 3 days. duh except everything.(reading back over this, im starting to realize why my therapist and sponsor say to write) i think i may have fallen off the pink cloud.
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Your willingness shines through :-) It's so great to see the light shining through while you write. I don't think I had a pink cloud this time except of course, I was just so damn greatful to not be using. So, everyday was a good day! Reality came back really quick as I had a lot of financial wreakage. Writing is very cathartic.

Rachel
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its so funny how i thought for so long i could do it alone and had to learn the hard way. and how i think everything is crap, until of course i force myself of my own will and follow suggestions and Poof!! surprise surprise maybe some one is smarter than me
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Mandy:

So true. I think we all come in with all of the answers and the longer we are around we realize how much we don't know.
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absolutely rachel. the past few weeks have really made me realize to listen to those who have gone before me. and my way of thinking has evolved so rapidly, from one day to the next its different, bringing new insights. i was so nutty and intense for the first few weeks, then i was miss know it all for a few, and now its like God is daily humbling me by putting people and events in front of me. its like he's saying "hey mandy!! shut up and sit down for a minute and you might learn something" lol. so im trying
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Well, for the record, I think you are doing great!
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tx for the affirmation
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I had forgotten about that pink cloud. I experienced it once, right after treatment. Then I got cocky and thought, everything is great, I don't need to go to meetings or work a program anymore....man was I wrong.

Cowgirl