Hi Ruby, How was the weekend? I have been thinking of you and hoping that things went ok. If you read my earlier posts, I didn't make it through the weekend without smoking. Starting at day 2 again. Hope you are well.
I'm at day 3....keeping busy with other things.....
Hi Rachael and all! Week 13 and counting....................
I survived the weekend! We had a great time at our friends place, we only get to see them every few months due to distance between us. As I suspected there was smoking going on. It is mainly my friend's husband who smokes and I asked him not to offer me any while I was there as he is usually very generous with his pot. There were times when he was sitting in the room smoking a joint and I found myself staring intensly at that lovely joint. Boy did I feel sorry for myself! To make things easier I would leave the room and go to the bathroom for a while or walk around the garden until I was sure that he had finished the joint. It was hard but I have no option. Going back to square one is not on my agenda, I simply cannot do it.
Having said that I keep saying to myself that I would like to get just a little bit this coming Christmas............. I do love a few joints with my mince pies at Christmas!! I am going to have to slap myself around the face again nearer the time.
Rachael, so you had a few smokes. So what, it doesn't matter. Just get back on that horse and start again! I am certainly not smug, I too am in danger of 're-offending' at any moment. I am still in early days and although I hope not to I presume that at some point I may relapse. Ooohhh, this is hard eh?
Take care of yourself, all the best for the coming week.
Ruby
I survived the weekend! We had a great time at our friends place, we only get to see them every few months due to distance between us. As I suspected there was smoking going on. It is mainly my friend's husband who smokes and I asked him not to offer me any while I was there as he is usually very generous with his pot. There were times when he was sitting in the room smoking a joint and I found myself staring intensly at that lovely joint. Boy did I feel sorry for myself! To make things easier I would leave the room and go to the bathroom for a while or walk around the garden until I was sure that he had finished the joint. It was hard but I have no option. Going back to square one is not on my agenda, I simply cannot do it.
Having said that I keep saying to myself that I would like to get just a little bit this coming Christmas............. I do love a few joints with my mince pies at Christmas!! I am going to have to slap myself around the face again nearer the time.
Rachael, so you had a few smokes. So what, it doesn't matter. Just get back on that horse and start again! I am certainly not smug, I too am in danger of 're-offending' at any moment. I am still in early days and although I hope not to I presume that at some point I may relapse. Ooohhh, this is hard eh?
Take care of yourself, all the best for the coming week.
Ruby
Right on Ruby ! Kudos to you for removing yourself from the situation. I'm a huge believer in nature as a comfort, it has helped me tremendously to focus on plants, animals, clouds....relieves anxiety for me.......
Hi Ruby, That's great! You are so strong. I think you should give yourself a lot of credit for being able to resist when you're in the same room with a lit joint. It sounds like you used some great coping skills, removing yourself from the room and getting outside to get in touch with nature. The fact that you can still say you had a really good time with your friends is a good sign. I appreciate your words of encouragement. Keep up the good work. No slapping required. Thanks to WW and Bryn, you are such good support to me. I loved the quote from the Simpsons movie. That put a smile on my face. I know I'm only a few days into it, but I don't feel as much resistance this time. My first few days last time were filled with angst and trying to keep my hands busy. Last night I sat with 2 cats in my lap and felt relaxed about the whole thing. I will take that and run with it......I'm off to acupuncture for the migraines. Hope you are all doing well.
Oh I would love to have a cat....lucky girl.....allergies in this house....let us know how the acupuncture worked....migraines are awful....:-(
