hi every one am just new to this and am feeling really down and all a can think about is smack am off it but no one understandes how a feel and that makes me worse cause my family just think am beins stuped and dont want to hear wat av got to say. my big bro died with it and no one will talk to me about him. a really miss him and some times a just want to go die with him
Hi Tilly from Scotland,
That's just the drugs talking now. If you got clean for a bit you wouldn't feel that way. I'm sure you really don't want to follow in his footsteps. I bet he doesn't either. I'm here to tell you that if you could stick it for long enough, you could turn it all around. I know this from experience. I also know the depression of drowning in it all that goes with using. Also the depression that goes with stopping. You hang on now and think it through. Get whatever help you can. Do this for you. You really are so worth it. Keep posting.
Beck
That's just the drugs talking now. If you got clean for a bit you wouldn't feel that way. I'm sure you really don't want to follow in his footsteps. I bet he doesn't either. I'm here to tell you that if you could stick it for long enough, you could turn it all around. I know this from experience. I also know the depression of drowning in it all that goes with using. Also the depression that goes with stopping. You hang on now and think it through. Get whatever help you can. Do this for you. You really are so worth it. Keep posting.
Beck
Hi Tilly
Take it easy**
Do you really think your brother would want that for you?? He wants you to live a long ,happy life. Try and find a professional or keep posting to us un-professionals here- youll be surprised how many people can relate and make you feel better about things.
peace,
jack
Take it easy**
Do you really think your brother would want that for you?? He wants you to live a long ,happy life. Try and find a professional or keep posting to us un-professionals here- youll be surprised how many people can relate and make you feel better about things.
peace,
jack
Tilly I was so messed up. I could not stop until one day I surrendered.
My family did not understand why I did the things I did to myself. I hated jeff. I was depressed and I had it all. Addiction is a cunning disease. But you can beat it.
If you want to stop you have to be willing to anything and everything to quit.
Can you get to detox. Have you ever tried to stop.
Your not alone. I have kicked more than one drug. Its not easy but anyone can do it.
You have insurance?
Keep coming back here for support but you need F2F--DETOX??-Therapy--AA
And try to find a addiction specialist.
Jeff
My family did not understand why I did the things I did to myself. I hated jeff. I was depressed and I had it all. Addiction is a cunning disease. But you can beat it.
If you want to stop you have to be willing to anything and everything to quit.
Can you get to detox. Have you ever tried to stop.
Your not alone. I have kicked more than one drug. Its not easy but anyone can do it.
You have insurance?
Keep coming back here for support but you need F2F--DETOX??-Therapy--AA
And try to find a addiction specialist.
Jeff
Alright..Tilly..listen to that great woman Becks.Our moods can be all over the shop as regards using smack..i understand how you feel bout yer bro&no one wanting to listen or talk,i lost my bro(98) to a mixture of booze,coke&mdone..he was 25¬ a regular opiate user,but drug deaths can be taboo..as in people reconciling&really moving on&understanding the whys&what ifs.If yer family arnt willing to talk maybe check out a bereavment councillor...its a step forward..take care&keep us posted..all the best ...Davey
Wow Tilly! Please don't feel like you don't have anyone to talk to about your brother and just getting through a tough time in your life!! I was so sad reading your message and i want you to know that after only being on this message board for a month that you have lots of people on this site who are here for you! I wish I could give you a hug! My motherly instincts were kicking in when I read your message . I have never lost a sibling so I don't know that pain ,but, I know your brother is not wanting to see you just yet. I don't know how old you are and it sounds to me that you are young. You hang in there! They say something about God only giving you what he knows you can handle or something to that effect. He must think you are strong enough to handle what life is giving you. I pray that you have better days ahead and remember that we all are here for you!!!
You are in my thoughts and prayers,
mamabear
You are in my thoughts and prayers,
mamabear
..Tilly..
..How ya feeling today ?..my sympathys to you over ya bro's death..those feelings of lonliness and feeling like everyone is shutting you out can be gut wrenching..even when theres people around ya still feel lonely inside..ya emotions are all over the place..and it can get very fustrating when no one wants to listen or talk..thats when we think smack is our only friend..the only friend that will set our mind at ease and help us make it though the day..i know people say ya shud talk to a counsellor or sumone like that about ya bro..but counsellors only really listen..i think wot we need at times is sumone to really talk back to us..to really tell us how they see things and have a real good chat with us ya know wot i mean..and cos ya feeling down thats when the smack calls..it creeps up on ya and sticks in ya mind and won't go until you give into it..i know ya said ya off it..but i know how it plays with ya head at times like this..its testing ya tilly..its testing ya strength and seeing if you give into it..no matter wot ya goin thru or how low you feel..but wot will you achieve by giving in..maybe set ya mind at ease for a few hours..then wot ?..ya bang in trouble again..cos aswell as feeling like ya do..you'll get yaself another habit on top..you know your bro wud'nt want that for you..thinking of heroin can really bring you to feel real low in itself..try find the strength inside yaself to fight your way out of that feeling..we as addicts in recovery have to fight that battle everyday..and this is a great place to come to get wot ya feeling out..there is good people who know wot your going through regarding the need for heroin on here that will give you all the support you need..i know all you see is words..but theres people behind those words who are thinking of ya and hoping that you are holding on and not giving up the fight..we're all here for each other and we are here for you also..just getting stuff out on here and posting can give you a release of the pent up emotions and need for sumone to talk to we feel..i hope ya hanging in there and you will post back to let us know how your doing..stay strong..Robbie..
..How ya feeling today ?..my sympathys to you over ya bro's death..those feelings of lonliness and feeling like everyone is shutting you out can be gut wrenching..even when theres people around ya still feel lonely inside..ya emotions are all over the place..and it can get very fustrating when no one wants to listen or talk..thats when we think smack is our only friend..the only friend that will set our mind at ease and help us make it though the day..i know people say ya shud talk to a counsellor or sumone like that about ya bro..but counsellors only really listen..i think wot we need at times is sumone to really talk back to us..to really tell us how they see things and have a real good chat with us ya know wot i mean..and cos ya feeling down thats when the smack calls..it creeps up on ya and sticks in ya mind and won't go until you give into it..i know ya said ya off it..but i know how it plays with ya head at times like this..its testing ya tilly..its testing ya strength and seeing if you give into it..no matter wot ya goin thru or how low you feel..but wot will you achieve by giving in..maybe set ya mind at ease for a few hours..then wot ?..ya bang in trouble again..cos aswell as feeling like ya do..you'll get yaself another habit on top..you know your bro wud'nt want that for you..thinking of heroin can really bring you to feel real low in itself..try find the strength inside yaself to fight your way out of that feeling..we as addicts in recovery have to fight that battle everyday..and this is a great place to come to get wot ya feeling out..there is good people who know wot your going through regarding the need for heroin on here that will give you all the support you need..i know all you see is words..but theres people behind those words who are thinking of ya and hoping that you are holding on and not giving up the fight..we're all here for each other and we are here for you also..just getting stuff out on here and posting can give you a release of the pent up emotions and need for sumone to talk to we feel..i hope ya hanging in there and you will post back to let us know how your doing..stay strong..Robbie..
