Just needed a place to vent, and I couldn't be happier to quit the meds (on my second month today!) BUT... I am so screwed not having been able to work 3 weeks. I am my own business, and it is a really slow time of year. I am scared I may not make ends meet. I am looking for a job to fill in my slow time.This sucks, and I am cleaning house this month, like I may not be here long. Storage unit, and maybe stay somewhere, where!? I have never been in this situation. Selling things, trying to get the notices and shut off times delayed, for insurance, cable, phone, blah blah. Thats what it sounds like to the outside world. "But look what I've accomplished,! say!" No one really gives a poo. Money can't stop. Coming in or going out, it's like a raging river. I am a single mom, really don't know how I keep doing it. Never complained (till just now) No one else pays bills here, never has. I saved what I thought was enough to detox, and I am so thankful that was accomplished. So....without being greedy and one that never asks for help, I can finally say I really need a few good prayer's. What better way to start this year? Love and thanks! I know it can get better! It is definitly NOT a relapse trigger, I am not even worried about that.
brendidi, i understand. i too have been out of work for about 6 weeks and we were already behind. i do have help, but i was primary bread winner. God has not gotten us this far to allow us to fail. i will pray for you RIGHT NOW. i believe God provides. as least clean you can think clearer and realize the seriousness of your situation. on pills you were doomed and now there is hope.
Thank you (choking back tears) I am just scared. I will do the same for you, and try to get my faith a little stronger. I will probably loose the internet soon, but I'll still post from the library. I can't spill the beans to my daughter, it was tough enough on her when I was nodding out being a terror to her and her friends. I am so much friendlier now, god's good fortune has to come with the territory!
Brendidi,
My heart goes out to you. I was a single mum for a long time and it is NOT easy. I believe what Blue said. Things will start looking up. Make the choices you have to to get by. The rest will follow.
Talk to the people wanting money from you and exlpain your situation. Get them off your back.
Make a plan. Get the kids involved in ways to save money.
I'm sorry you are hurting right now and my suggestions are probably waffle but I just want you to know you are not alone!
Wendy
My heart goes out to you. I was a single mum for a long time and it is NOT easy. I believe what Blue said. Things will start looking up. Make the choices you have to to get by. The rest will follow.
Talk to the people wanting money from you and exlpain your situation. Get them off your back.
Make a plan. Get the kids involved in ways to save money.
I'm sorry you are hurting right now and my suggestions are probably waffle but I just want you to know you are not alone!
Wendy
Money worries, especially at this time of the year, are horrible. I hope you have applied for food stamps and help with your heating bills. There are a lot of good helps around if you use them. Do find out where homeless shelters are located in your area. You'll feel better just knowing what your next move might entail. It's certainly scary for you honey, and I'll surely include you in my prayers. (((((Hugs and best wishes)))))).
Brendidi-
Been there many times,all during sobriety.
I have my own landscape business and when I got clean ,the wreakage of my past became very apparent.It sometimes takes a year before you start seeing the damage.I had to file bankruptcy in 2005 and when you go through that clean and sober,it's very humbling.
Hang in there,Talk about it at your meeting,pray to your Higher Power and take action.You might have to downsize.It's o.k.
I have a whole different perspective about money today.During the last 21/2 years I've had time to work on my spiritual life and examine some root problems.I believe sometimes God gives us signals and if we ignore them,he just makes them a little more apparent.
Keep talking about it.You will be alright.You haven't been brought this far to be left out in the cold.
Been there many times,all during sobriety.
I have my own landscape business and when I got clean ,the wreakage of my past became very apparent.It sometimes takes a year before you start seeing the damage.I had to file bankruptcy in 2005 and when you go through that clean and sober,it's very humbling.
Hang in there,Talk about it at your meeting,pray to your Higher Power and take action.You might have to downsize.It's o.k.
I have a whole different perspective about money today.During the last 21/2 years I've had time to work on my spiritual life and examine some root problems.I believe sometimes God gives us signals and if we ignore them,he just makes them a little more apparent.
Keep talking about it.You will be alright.You haven't been brought this far to be left out in the cold.
I'm sorry you are going through this. Two fast ways to make some cash:
eBay! I promise you people on there will buy just about anything and it's really easy to do if you have a computer. The post office even delivers free boxes to your house and picks them up for free too. You can literally make money on the things around your house that you don't want, without having to leave the house. I was shocked at how much I made selling stuff I was going to give or throw away.
Or, if you are physically able, get a job waiting tables for a little while until business picks back up. There are always places hiring and you can usually work part time if you want. You wouldn't have to wait 2-4 weeks to see actual money. Restaurants generally hire quick and put people right to work. After a few days of training, you will be taking cash home daily.
Are you in danger of being evicted? Is that why you are packing? I wouldn't rent the storage unit until you know for sure that you must move. It will just be another monthly payment to shell out.
I hope things get better for you soon. Sending positive thoughts and energy your way.
eBay! I promise you people on there will buy just about anything and it's really easy to do if you have a computer. The post office even delivers free boxes to your house and picks them up for free too. You can literally make money on the things around your house that you don't want, without having to leave the house. I was shocked at how much I made selling stuff I was going to give or throw away.
Or, if you are physically able, get a job waiting tables for a little while until business picks back up. There are always places hiring and you can usually work part time if you want. You wouldn't have to wait 2-4 weeks to see actual money. Restaurants generally hire quick and put people right to work. After a few days of training, you will be taking cash home daily.
Are you in danger of being evicted? Is that why you are packing? I wouldn't rent the storage unit until you know for sure that you must move. It will just be another monthly payment to shell out.
I hope things get better for you soon. Sending positive thoughts and energy your way.
wow...thanks for the good words everyone. I had some similar thoughts about waiting tables, and I do need to make some calls today. I am only behind on utilities that I can live without. I was throwing out a lot, just to make it easy to prepare for a downsize..I will try to sell it. I had good luck with "craigslist.com" last year. I was looking for money for pills back then. Thanks Tim, I guess you know all too well about the seasonal work? I am headed out to meet someone now, for a job in my business. I hope that works out, at least for this week.It is this living on the edge, that is really hard. Staying screwed up on the pills just made things way worse I know. I was where I wouldn't even go check my mail.
Thanks you guys, at least I am getting my health back! I was concerned about that. Little at a time. Another lesson to be learned here. --Brenda
Thanks you guys, at least I am getting my health back! I was concerned about that. Little at a time. Another lesson to be learned here. --Brenda
