It is 4:00 AM. I have not had more than 3-4 hours pf sleep for the past three nights. Today ( or yesterday ) I made the decision to quit using pain pills. I would use about 6 -10 mg. a day, sometimes more sometimes less. I have been sneaking and lying to my family, I have drained our savings account. I feel like c..p. I am trying to go cold turkey.
I guess my questions are what can I expect?
I get hot, then cold. I don't know why I didn't sleep the previous two nights, because I was still using but even with Tylenol PM and benadryl, I can't sleep.
I have not told anyone, not even m y husband of 33 years. I have two daughters, 23 and 19 that still live with me.
I don't have money or a good insurance plan for rehab. I am counting on this site and meditation and any other sources that I can think of to help me. I will contact NA on Monday, but today is Easter and I doubt anyone is available. I have my married daughter and her family coming over for brunch, I am going to my sister's for dinner.
Can anyone help me?
Welcome to the board Grace.
There should be a 24 hour help line if you need to talk today.Holidays are a big time in substance abuse so someone should be there.18187739999 Call me if you get desperate and need to talk.7135019082
You are over the worst of it and sleep deprivation might last another week.It's one of the last physical symptoms that sticks around.
Grace....it's time to get honest so people can help you.This is not a moral issue.It's a disease that effects the whole family.You are not a bad person trying to get good.You are simply a sick person trying to get well.
All that shame and guilt you are feeling right now are just consequences of w/d's.Try not to go there.
The only thing on your mind right now should be getting well.
The program of NA will teach you how.Call them up and they will probably connect you with a female to take you to your first meeting.All you will have to do is sit and listen and keep an open mind.
In the meantime it would be a good ideal to let your husband know what is going on.Don't project reactions.A lot of times they already know.
Keep in touch here too.
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There should be a 24 hour help line if you need to talk today.Holidays are a big time in substance abuse so someone should be there.18187739999 Call me if you get desperate and need to talk.7135019082
You are over the worst of it and sleep deprivation might last another week.It's one of the last physical symptoms that sticks around.
Grace....it's time to get honest so people can help you.This is not a moral issue.It's a disease that effects the whole family.You are not a bad person trying to get good.You are simply a sick person trying to get well.
All that shame and guilt you are feeling right now are just consequences of w/d's.Try not to go there.
The only thing on your mind right now should be getting well.
The program of NA will teach you how.Call them up and they will probably connect you with a female to take you to your first meeting.All you will have to do is sit and listen and keep an open mind.
In the meantime it would be a good ideal to let your husband know what is going on.Don't project reactions.A lot of times they already know.
Keep in touch here too.
