Hello Charmed. I guess I'm reaching out to you because you've been kind to me in the past. And I need some kindness now.
I don't know what's wrong with me, I am just so dam depressed and feel so lonely. All I want to do is use crack. All the time. I haven't used in days tho and the cravings are just getting heavier and heavier. I feel stuck. I was going to some meetings but they're not doing it for me. I even have cravings about heroin which is a really bad sign, 'cause once I get a craving I usually follow it to its natural ending, which is using the drug I'm craving. Charmed please send some words of wisdom like you always do. I've gotta get out of this space I'm in.
HUGS
Lisa V.
lisa,
i know this was for charmed, but i couldn't not post. i'm sorry you are having such a rough time. are you really stressed right now? that could be a big part of you horrible urge to use. i know it makes it very hard. i wish i had an answer to help you through this, but i don't. take a long hot bath, read a good book or even the news paper. drink some herbal tea, take a walk, or call someone. you need to make sure your not isolating yourself. i'm sure its hard, but hang in there, and remember we are here if you need us.
raerae
i know this was for charmed, but i couldn't not post. i'm sorry you are having such a rough time. are you really stressed right now? that could be a big part of you horrible urge to use. i know it makes it very hard. i wish i had an answer to help you through this, but i don't. take a long hot bath, read a good book or even the news paper. drink some herbal tea, take a walk, or call someone. you need to make sure your not isolating yourself. i'm sure its hard, but hang in there, and remember we are here if you need us.
raerae
raerae - I'm so glad you answered my post. Right now I'm sitting at the computer with tears at the edge of my eyes. I don't know why I'm so emotional except maybe the Canadian Thanksiving weekend here. Every year I spendn it alone, and even though I've gone out of my way to help others and get involved and "out of myself", I still don't seem to ever get an invitation to dinner. So I haven't used this weekend and I'm proud of that. And I'm glad I have a friend out there named raerae who cares enough to answer a boring post. Thanks girl and God Bless.
Lisa V.
Lisa V.
Hey Lisa,
Sorry I haven't been around the past few days, just been trying to sort my head out (like that's possible).
I know how you feel and it sux to being a lonely addict. Do you have friends that don't use that you could invite over or visit? Or family?
What are your talents and your loves? You could start working on those. Or try a new hobby? I spend my days on the web - there is so much out there, chat rooms for everything, info on everything, I just found a site that had about 50 meth poems and it kept me busy for hours! I spend as much time as I can (need focus) writing and typing up my book. emails to send.... I'm scanning all my photos from my albums so I have them on my computer and use photoshop to take out red eyes and wrinkles and stuff. download music, clean the house, gardening is very therapeutic, I get lost pulling weeds out! TV, reading books, I like reading autobiographies or drug addict stories. Reading the bible can be soothing too. Sort through old stuff, letters and things, keep a journal, make something special for someone you love, bake a cake.....
I know none of that sounds as good as getting high but doing something positive helps you to think more positive and it also can distract you for awhile from your cravings.
lots of (((hugs)))
Charmed
Sorry I haven't been around the past few days, just been trying to sort my head out (like that's possible).
I know how you feel and it sux to being a lonely addict. Do you have friends that don't use that you could invite over or visit? Or family?
What are your talents and your loves? You could start working on those. Or try a new hobby? I spend my days on the web - there is so much out there, chat rooms for everything, info on everything, I just found a site that had about 50 meth poems and it kept me busy for hours! I spend as much time as I can (need focus) writing and typing up my book. emails to send.... I'm scanning all my photos from my albums so I have them on my computer and use photoshop to take out red eyes and wrinkles and stuff. download music, clean the house, gardening is very therapeutic, I get lost pulling weeds out! TV, reading books, I like reading autobiographies or drug addict stories. Reading the bible can be soothing too. Sort through old stuff, letters and things, keep a journal, make something special for someone you love, bake a cake.....
I know none of that sounds as good as getting high but doing something positive helps you to think more positive and it also can distract you for awhile from your cravings.
lots of (((hugs)))
Charmed
lisa,
hope you made it through the weekend. i know things get really tough during the holidays. maybe have a game plan ready for christmas, so you wont be so lonley. he you could always volunteer at a soup kitchen or an old folks home. it will make you feel better and less alone. let me know if you need to talk.
raerae
hope you made it through the weekend. i know things get really tough during the holidays. maybe have a game plan ready for christmas, so you wont be so lonley. he you could always volunteer at a soup kitchen or an old folks home. it will make you feel better and less alone. let me know if you need to talk.
raerae
HI, IM NEW HERE AND I READ YOUR MESSAGE I WAS MOVED TO TEARS I TO FEEL ALONE SO ALONE I TO AND IM MARRIED . YOU TRY ALOT OF THINGS AND YOU END UP THINKING OF THE DRUG OUR BEST FRIEND ITS AWFUL. WHAT I CAN SUGGEST IS WALKING IN AMUSEM ITS SO NICE OR READINGADDICT BOOKS .HERS ASAYING FOR YOU.........................ONLY.WITH A TTRUE FRIENDS INPUT CAN WE HOPE TO SEE OUR WORLD CLEARLY; FOR OUR OWN PERCEPTIONS ALWAYS SEEMS THE TRUTH. IWISH I COULD BE WITH YOU HANG IN THERE
Thanks everyone. The one common theme running throughout your different posts is that I should get OUT. I'm a cancer who likes to hide in the sand but I'm going to make a real effort to get up and go for a walk. I'm getting kind of sick of whining to you guys about problems to which I know the answers. Maybe I just need the contact at the other end of a modem. But right now I'm going to shut down and go out....going.....going.............gone!
lisa,
there is a place to chat online where we go to just talk. if you want to give me your email addy i can invite you. you can delete it once i get it.
only if you want
raerae
there is a place to chat online where we go to just talk. if you want to give me your email addy i can invite you. you can delete it once i get it.
only if you want
raerae
Dear Guest - thank you so much for your kind response. Your right that sometimes reading a book about our problems helps. But you sound really down girl. Why don't you post me back and unload yourself. There are some really terrific people on this site who will be glad to help you with your addiction problem, whether your active or not. I'm feeling a little better thanks to my friends at this site.
(((Hugs)))
Lisa V.
(((Hugs)))
Lisa V.
thanks lisa, i'll send it to you.
raerae
raerae
Hey raerae - thanks for the invitation to the chat room. I'm still trying to get registered. My computer won't take me to the extra step where I get my "passport". Just letting you know.
i don't think you need a passport to get in. i'll check for you.
raerae
raerae
lisavsmith@sprint.ca
raerae here's my email address again in case you've dumped it. The only other way you can get in is through a hotmail account, which I don't have.
raerae here's my email address again in case you've dumped it. The only other way you can get in is through a hotmail account, which I don't have.
