Hi Kat,
Thank you so much for your kind reply. I have not showered in a couple of days and have been wearing the same clothes!! I just took a good look at myself in the mirror and realize I have not even brushed my hair. I have really long hair and I am afraid something is going to start taking up residence in it!! ha ha, I still got my sense of humor even if my mind is all clouded.
Since today is day 2, I have truly decided this is it. I DON'T WANT ANY MORE PILLS. Your advice really hit me hard and I truly appreciate you taking the time to write me. This web site has been such a big help for me. I never knew how many of us were out there and the secret we have been hiding. Only my husband knows I have been on pain meds so long. My family would never understand and I am too ashamed at this moment to confide in them.
thank you Kat for being out there.
Love and prayers,
Anisa
Hi Anisa, it's a true pleasure to be of any help at all to you. Day two is hard and I remember it well. I felt alot like you....just BLAH. lol. I wanted to curl up and lay there in my misery. I found though, that attitude really changes how we handle it. If I acted like I felt better, I did. It was so wierd. So I started making myself to things even if I didn't want to. I turned up the music pretty loud, picked up my house, showered, tried to look human, and what do you know? I actually started to feel human! Oh and don't let me forget....I prayed alot. Come here and talk alot, it feels better to be able to express what we're going through. Post every few minutes if you want to. My heart is with you and I'll be praying for you to have strength. You can do it!!!! Hang in there!!! Oh, and you know what the best part is? To be able to say "I'm clean" it's the greatest feeling. I loved the first morning I woke up and my first thought was not about pills. It occurred to me later and I was just blown away. It had been so long since I thought about a pill before I even opened my eyes. You'll be feeling that real soon. Much love, Kat
