Dylan was just playing with the crabs and dropped the whole cage; sand, food, crabs and all, and i DIDN'T CHEW HIS HEAD OFF! he was in tears...yellow sand mixed with black rocks all over the carpet...i told him "it was an accident!" but he started to cry because he dropped the crabs...he said, "but i dropped Shelly again" and i told him, don't worry i dropped him the other night...lol
anyway it was good that i didn't get really angry at him, even though i had to drag out the vacuum, which you know was killing me to lift and use (because my back hurts) we sifted through everything, got the crabs in their walking cage and he is cleaning all the shells, food and water up.
i am so proud of myself...if i'd been using i would have gotten so mad and ugly at him...instead i acted like a MOM...big pat on the back for me!!!
Huge pat on the back for you. My mom was a TIRANT and it killed my little self esteem; I think it's great you're so aware of your old behavior and making the effort to change it....sorry goes a long way when you back it up with action. Good for you, Bumps. Your little boy is slowly learning as you do to trust.
hey bump, i know you from the pill board, you sound like a very cool person. i enjoy reading you posts, just thought i would introduce myself.
Hi Angela, nice to meet you...and thanks for the compliment...
ego swell...somebody pop it before i can't fit my head through the door
What's your DOC?
ego swell...somebody pop it before i can't fit my head through the door
What's your DOC?
at present time percocet or any pain killer i could get me hands on. i had to runs with coke in the past. on when i was 12 that lasted for 2 years and another when i was 20 that lasted 2 years as well. i don't know what happened there but the thought of coke makes me feel really sick??? wish i could say the saqme about the pills. right now i am about a week away from getting off sub, been on for 2 months. its nice to talk to you, i am about to sign off for the weekend, i will look for you monday. have a good weekend
you too angela...and good luck with your taper...
Good going, Janet. It takes a long time for a child to trust there is a permanent change in a parent for the better. My little grandson's name is Dylan too, I just wish his mom could stop using meth so he could feel peace, love, respect and worth.
Thanks Laurie, i wish i had that peace this afternoon at walmart...lol...oh well, it's getting better though
I wish my husband would have done what you did last night by acting instead of reacting...he had a relapse 2 mo ago (8+ years clean) and has been using daily ever since.....we lost absolutley EVERYTHING --- and now I am going thru it again but now our son is old enough for this to REALLY affect him. I am so scared and I don't know what to do. He is so mean and ugly to my son one minute and then tries to be his best friend the next. I want to leave and take my son with me but I am not his biological mother so I have no rights...If I call and talk to Brandon's (my son) mother then I run the risk of her taking him from me forever and he doesn't want to live with her and HATES her new boyfriend...but I can't leave him there with his father either.. he leaves for hours on end, forgets to feed him... I work 8-10 hrs a day so I don't know what goes on all day long there until I get home and have to hear these things from my 11 year old. And Chris (my husband) is really doing some shady stuff lately... 1/2 naked pictures on my computer of this chick down the street that I absolutely can't stand (bag w****)... I have had some serious issues with depression in the past -- tried to commit suicide 3 times-- and I am having those feelings again, but I know that is the chicken sh** way out and I can't do that to my son. I can't really talk to anyone that I know because there only suggestion is to leave him.... I have given this man 10 years and I KNOW how good of a man he is when he is not out of his mind. -- OMG he just called me right now at work to tell me how I embarassed him in front of all of his friends when I called one of them a tweaker....I am soo sick of my life... ANY advise to help keep me sane? lol sorry about this long entry I just really need to vent and have no one to talk to that won't judge me or what is happening
Heather, I don't know what to say here. Has your husband's moods always changed really quick like that, or is it just when he is using? I'm asking because i am bi-polar and thats how i was acting using, or not using...
Is he willing to go for treatment? you also need to get to some Alanon, or Naranon meetings, to help you deal with this.
I wish I had better advice for you...try posting in the families section here, there will be plenty of people who know what you are talking about and can help you. Also, i'm sure there are plenty of stories that you can relate to.
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I hope everything starts looking up for you and your family.
Janet
Is he willing to go for treatment? you also need to get to some Alanon, or Naranon meetings, to help you deal with this.
I wish I had better advice for you...try posting in the families section here, there will be plenty of people who know what you are talking about and can help you. Also, i'm sure there are plenty of stories that you can relate to.
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I hope everything starts looking up for you and your family.
Janet
No not like he was last night...he was just REALLY mean and ugly to him -- all I could do was hold my son and tell him how sorry I was that he had to be treated like that...it is sooo hard on me.... he makes me feel like everything is MY fault and that I am blowing things up.
angela99-- what is sub? I am trying to educate myself on meth and such.
