hey guys
I need some help. I am totally freaking out.
So I said that 2008 would be a big year for me and I stood to lose a lot if I didn't get sober. Well my work made me a make or break offer at the end of last year. A big promotion and they will pay for me to do my MBA.
I think that is why I kind of went back to drinking end of last year cause the whole thing scared me so much. Anyway I had it all plotted out, I would have the whole of january to get sober, get bedded down in the new job and start the new semester in February.
Well found out today the new semester starts NEXT WEEK. OK I am freaking out here. I am so not ready for this and the first subjects are hard stuff like accounting which I do'n't like all that much. I'm also freaked cause I'm trying to get some RPL and I just don't have the documentation for things so long ago and how do you prove 15 years work experience anyway???? If I could get some RPL I could shorten the length of time I have to study by months.
OK can you tell I'm totally freaked here? LOL those who know me can probably sense by my writing how fast my brain is revving right now.
Oh yeah, if I don't succeed at this I will lose my job which I love.
Before the drinking got to me I would not have been afraid becuase I know I'm capable of doing this stuff - but I'm scared now because I don't know if I still have the stamina, the discipline, the drive that I used to have that you need to do this stuff - plus I'm scared I won't stay sober and the whole thing will end up in the crapper.
Idg.
Hi idge
Calm down and take a deep breath!You will do just fine and take it one step at a time. You are thinking of things that will probably never ever happen and you are getting yourself in a frenzy. Use the steps you use to stay sober to keep you calm for this. You can and you will do it. call upon your higher power to help you. Put the negative thoughts out of your head its probably the alochol demon who is causing you to doubt your strength. Dont let it win! You are much stronger and brighter than that and You KNOW that. You got all of us backing you up and praying for you. How can you go wrong with so many supporters. You are not alone . You will NEVER be alone. so take it easy and relax and tell yourself there is nothing that can stop me from accomplishing this venture. you got it in you girl GO FOR IT
and dont look back. Good luck and I wish you all the best ......pirate
Calm down and take a deep breath!You will do just fine and take it one step at a time. You are thinking of things that will probably never ever happen and you are getting yourself in a frenzy. Use the steps you use to stay sober to keep you calm for this. You can and you will do it. call upon your higher power to help you. Put the negative thoughts out of your head its probably the alochol demon who is causing you to doubt your strength. Dont let it win! You are much stronger and brighter than that and You KNOW that. You got all of us backing you up and praying for you. How can you go wrong with so many supporters. You are not alone . You will NEVER be alone. so take it easy and relax and tell yourself there is nothing that can stop me from accomplishing this venture. you got it in you girl GO FOR IT
and dont look back. Good luck and I wish you all the best ......pirate
Idgie
I think it was you who asked me if my husband drank. he dont drink very much just socially when we get together with friends and he says he wont even do that now in order to support me. but i told him he can still go ahead with that anyway cause its only probably once a month or so. there isn't any booze in our home now and Thank God for that because i could not handle having it around me. If you can not drink with it in your home than girl YOU ARE A STRONG ONE. I admire you for that. it shows willpower and restraint of which I have neither . You take care and God bless you!
I think it was you who asked me if my husband drank. he dont drink very much just socially when we get together with friends and he says he wont even do that now in order to support me. but i told him he can still go ahead with that anyway cause its only probably once a month or so. there isn't any booze in our home now and Thank God for that because i could not handle having it around me. If you can not drink with it in your home than girl YOU ARE A STRONG ONE. I admire you for that. it shows willpower and restraint of which I have neither . You take care and God bless you!
Hi Idgie...
I like what was said, Breathe and then take another breath....Pray to your HP to help you through this...don't look at how hard it might be, just jump in and do what is right in front of you and give the rest over to God...
Fear is one of my biggest obsticles and my diseases best friend...Get out of fear and into faith and it will all work out the way it's supposed to....
I have faith in you...
(((hugs)))
xoxo
Stacey
I like what was said, Breathe and then take another breath....Pray to your HP to help you through this...don't look at how hard it might be, just jump in and do what is right in front of you and give the rest over to God...
Fear is one of my biggest obsticles and my diseases best friend...Get out of fear and into faith and it will all work out the way it's supposed to....
I have faith in you...
(((hugs)))
xoxo
Stacey
Idg,
I know you are completely freaked right now. IMO a greater power is at work here. It sucks that you have to start school early but I know you can do it. It could be a blessing in disguise pal.
I know you have struggled with sobriety for a while now. However you have still been making huge progress even if you don't think so. A year ago things were much more dire. You haven't had HUGE benders like in the past.
I know many of you are probably reading this thinking I am not giving good support but I know Idgie pretty well and she knows what I am talking about.
Idgie... like Pirate said....breathe and calm down. Try to look at this as a blessing and a tool to stay sober. You cannot do well in school if you are drinking. You know what will happen if you go off track.
Perhaps give a call to your old sponsor and hit one meeting before you start classes. Just to get you on the right foot.
I believe in you pal. I know you can do this. 2008 is going to be fantastic for you!! Just Breathe and believe!
Love and support
Vally
I know you are completely freaked right now. IMO a greater power is at work here. It sucks that you have to start school early but I know you can do it. It could be a blessing in disguise pal.
I know you have struggled with sobriety for a while now. However you have still been making huge progress even if you don't think so. A year ago things were much more dire. You haven't had HUGE benders like in the past.
I know many of you are probably reading this thinking I am not giving good support but I know Idgie pretty well and she knows what I am talking about.
Idgie... like Pirate said....breathe and calm down. Try to look at this as a blessing and a tool to stay sober. You cannot do well in school if you are drinking. You know what will happen if you go off track.
Perhaps give a call to your old sponsor and hit one meeting before you start classes. Just to get you on the right foot.
I believe in you pal. I know you can do this. 2008 is going to be fantastic for you!! Just Breathe and believe!
Love and support
Vally
Hi,
As Churchill said: "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."
You wouldn't argue with Churchill now would you? (A man who struggled with depression and alcohol all his life!)
You've earned the right to this chance. Enjoy it. Good luck.
As Churchill said: "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."
You wouldn't argue with Churchill now would you? (A man who struggled with depression and alcohol all his life!)
You've earned the right to this chance. Enjoy it. Good luck.
thanks for your support guys - I'm a bit calmer today but still stressed.
Vally I think you may be right. Perhaps it is good that I'm being thrown into it like this and forced to step up instead of creeping along at my own pace.
I can cope with things not working out if its for a legitmate reason - eg my mum takinga turn for the worse or something like that. But if its because I screw myself up through drinking that is what I couldn't cope with.
yeah good suggestion I will give L a call - I owe her a call anyway and see what she has to say.
OK - back to it!!
Vally I think you may be right. Perhaps it is good that I'm being thrown into it like this and forced to step up instead of creeping along at my own pace.
I can cope with things not working out if its for a legitmate reason - eg my mum takinga turn for the worse or something like that. But if its because I screw myself up through drinking that is what I couldn't cope with.
yeah good suggestion I will give L a call - I owe her a call anyway and see what she has to say.
OK - back to it!!
Wow - I actually spent the evening working on the computer putting together my RPL application.
what a change from spending the evening getting drunk and passing out in front of the TV.
I may feel a bit fatigued but at least I feel like I accomplished something as well.
I feel happy I'm sobe tonight.
what a change from spending the evening getting drunk and passing out in front of the TV.
I may feel a bit fatigued but at least I feel like I accomplished something as well.
I feel happy I'm sobe tonight.
Hey Idgie
You rock and the force is with you:)
Thanks for sharing your fear because it is better shared than bouncing around in our heads at a 100miles a second.
Idgie alcoholism is supplying the fear because it needs a drink....As a sober person you can and will achieve anything because you are strong and i thankyou for your strength that you so freely share.
light and love zac
You rock and the force is with you:)
Thanks for sharing your fear because it is better shared than bouncing around in our heads at a 100miles a second.
Idgie alcoholism is supplying the fear because it needs a drink....As a sober person you can and will achieve anything because you are strong and i thankyou for your strength that you so freely share.
light and love zac
LOL at Zac - yup I felt like my head was going to explode!!
Better now.
Anyway I gotta get going, this arvo I'm conducting training so get t obe teacher instead of student - lucky for them I got my head in the right place LOL
Better now.
Anyway I gotta get going, this arvo I'm conducting training so get t obe teacher instead of student - lucky for them I got my head in the right place LOL
"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."
What a gift for me to read this tonight.
Thank you Martin.
Diana
What a gift for me to read this tonight.
Thank you Martin.
Diana
When I freak out, think I can't accomplish something new, something hard it's generally do to my fear and a need to be reassured. Isn't it great to have other people lift us up!
I've been reminded by others do you remember when you thought you couldn't do that. They reminded me of the fact that I did accomplish something with often great successs that I thought I wasn't capable of. This fact in it's self has helped me jump the hurdle.
Hi WW,
I to needed to read and here Churchill's words. I wrote his qoute down stuck it on my computer. I like Martin's writing style. I've read some of his posts on the other boards. He has a big heart his words are ringing clear in my head and touching my spirit. As well as many of your posts to. Though many of yours have made me laugh and think deeply. I'm not sure why exactly I've never posted on the marajuana board as I was a pot head for yrs. Until I decided I liked alcohol better. I don't dare smoke as I've learned it leads me right back to alcohol and besides I want to be sober, I need to be sober. Thanks for all the intersting links you share with us ww.
I've been reminded by others do you remember when you thought you couldn't do that. They reminded me of the fact that I did accomplish something with often great successs that I thought I wasn't capable of. This fact in it's self has helped me jump the hurdle.
Hi WW,
I to needed to read and here Churchill's words. I wrote his qoute down stuck it on my computer. I like Martin's writing style. I've read some of his posts on the other boards. He has a big heart his words are ringing clear in my head and touching my spirit. As well as many of your posts to. Though many of yours have made me laugh and think deeply. I'm not sure why exactly I've never posted on the marajuana board as I was a pot head for yrs. Until I decided I liked alcohol better. I don't dare smoke as I've learned it leads me right back to alcohol and besides I want to be sober, I need to be sober. Thanks for all the intersting links you share with us ww.
