Friends?

Marijuana
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I totally understand now what a friend isnt (Wonderwoman i understand your message).

i had friends which would drop in all the time. Now they are seeing other friends. At first i thought it was me. Now i understand they go where the pot goes.

Tonight i dropped in on some really good friends (well maybe). One was at home the other was out (scoring so i found out later). Soon as the pot turned up it was like "so lets have some bongs". They know i dont smoke anymore and they didnt offer me but it still sucks. It's really hard not to say "hey pass it my way".

I have had a really emotional week. A cousins wedding. SCUBA diving on a reef right near where Steve Irwin died (do you know him? Huge in Australia), fighting with my partner, organising my wedding in 3 WEEKS!!!!!! Aggggghhhhhhh it's all so much. And now hanging out with friends who i no longer understand. It was easy when we were all stoned. Now I feel like an outsider.

feeling so emotional. A smoke would be nice to shut all this crap out.

Cant do it! I've come too far now. Over 6 months which i cannot blow on just because i feel crap right now.

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shark girl
good to hear from you. congrats on your clean time. sorry to hear life is feeding you a s*** sandwich right now. hang in there. im sure stress will be less after the wedding.
totally understand feeling like an outsider.
have a great day
hope this message sends sun shine your way.
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Shark Girl,
I have lost some friends due to not smoking. Its for the best though because those friends are the ones who try to get me to smoke even though its not what I want in my life. I feel better & more peaceful now that they are gone. I did heaer of Steve Irwin's death & yes he is HUGE here to. Its very sad what happened & I can understand your anxiety about being near where he died. I am so proud of you for not picking up during this diffiuclt time. Your getting married in 3 weeks? No wonder your stressed out! lol Seriously though things will work out just fine & once its over you'll feel so relaxed knowing its finally done & finished. Just try to enjoy the moment & really let yourself feel every bit of it. Then life begins with your new husband & a wonderful future is yours for the taking.
Wishing you all the best in life,
aea
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CajunLady,
Many cyber hugs are being sent your way Hun!! I could use alittle cheering up today. Just trying to live in my own skin today. For this day though at least, I am clean. I dont even think about rying to be clean tommorrow anymore. Just today, thats as far as I can handle right now. I want to smoke all this pain away but today is his day & I want to feel him as close as I can. Yes I am all wrapped up in my pain today but its these moments that make me realize how lucky I am to be alive.
Love to you,
aea
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Hi sharkgirl
well don't you go falling for that rubbish, that smoking would end the pain, we both know it would just temporarily hide and postpone it. You don't want to go back to how your old, boring stoned wasted "friends" are do you!!!
Focus on the things that you have control over, like last minute wedding things (all the best for that ) and your daily life.
Forget these so called "friends". They're all the same.
Ive dropped a few of them too, they are so, so boring, insular, inward looking, selfish, lazy all the things i used to be. It's no wonder you (and i!) no longer understand them. Theyre literally on another planet.
Be strong and remind yourself of why you quit in the first place and of all the many benfits you've noticed since being clean.
You will soon make new friends, proper friends and life will go forward, youve done so, so well, don't let these lot spoil it for you.
all the best for the nuptials
smx