Hello, I am 23 and had a baby just over a year ago to my current partner. He has previously had drug addictions of almost everything. He came clean just before he moved in with me for over 2 years. He was working hard and became stressed over the smallest things and got seriously depressed. I notcied he started coming in from work very hyper and his pupils were tiny. I have no experience in drugs myself but knew the signs so confronted him. He denied that he had done anything. This went on for weeks. Sometimes he would come in sleepy and talk very slow, others very hyper and quite arrogant and nasty, also very itchy on a night which I had heard about before was connected to drugs. This went on for 3 months and after confronting him a few times he admitted he has been taking crack and df118 tablets. He said he had a problem with the tablets because they are opiate based. I found myslf looking through is pockets, searching his phone, asking him question after question. I was finding things which didnt add up. I also found foil in his van and also in is pockets at home. I knew it was more than just a problem with tablets....I dont know why I knew I just did. I helped him a few times to get off the "tablets" but after 2 days clean he would just go and get something and we were back to square one. I have kicked him out a few times when he has gone and took something but he always comes back begging to give him another chance and I do for the sake of our daughter. It was the last straw the other week when he hadnt took anything for 24 hours and become very very nasty towards me and threatening me and saying he wanted to kill himself. He would also blame me for his problem saying I had drove him to this and he hated me. Again he went and took something, but begged his way back in. I told him this was the last chance so he again went 2 days. I had my suspitions that he had took something in the 2nd day and he used it as an excuse and got totally off his face. I grabbed his things and threw him out....even though he was threatening me that he was going to kill himself if I made him go. It has got to the stage where I just had to let him go because I have become so depressed myself an feel like I cant take anymore and I also have my daughter to think about. He did come back the same night and had attempted suicide obviously without success. He agreed he would leave and stay with his friend who agreed to help him and then he would come back to me clean. We talked right through the night and he eventually confessed he had took heroin on a few occasions an it had now took over him. I had suspected he was using heroin but he had confirmed it for me. He left the next morning to go to his friends but I called him back and I have agreed to help him once more and he is once again in his 2nd day, the day I dread cos this day is normally when it ends. He is using valium and sleeping tablets but apart from that he is doing cold turkey. He has rang apparent helplines, rang clinics but he has to keep going to see them and they told him it can take a few months to get into and he has also seen his doctor who said he couldnt do anything to help him so he decided he has got to do it along or not at all. I am so scared cos I know if he doesnt do it this time it will cost our relationship and possibly his life cos he is sick of it all. I just dont know what else to do. He said he is totally gratefull for me helping him but everytime he goes and takes something I feel like he has just thrown it back into my face, taking me for granted and feel I am waisting my time. Has anyone got any tips for me for helping him or any tips for him while he is cold turkeying? Please please advise me. I have read similar stories and I just want to know if nyone has had success with cold turkey?? It is our only option at present. Thanks for your time reading this.
hello,
sorry you are going through this,i am an addict myself so i dont really understand your side,if you go to the families on here there are many people in your situation there that you will be able to tell your thoughts to,take care of your self and your baby,
julie
sorry you are going through this,i am an addict myself so i dont really understand your side,if you go to the families on here there are many people in your situation there that you will be able to tell your thoughts to,take care of your self and your baby,
julie
Thanks for that. He no longer cold turkey. He has been and got some meth after 2 days cold turkey. He is going to try a clinic again and continue with the meth. Only thing is meth is supposed to be worse to come off than heroin?? Not sure how true this is. I am still gonna stick by him and help him as much as I can cos I do know how hard it is although I havent been through it myself. He has told me I am very strong and to look for a carear in drugs counciling. I hope you get yourself clean too. Wish you all the very best of luck for getting through this xx
