Just wondering how you're doing... I know you had to work today and it was probably pretty rough. So, know that we're all pulling for you.
Take care
Cowgirl
fsguy,
yep i'm better known as cowgirls shadow : ) i posted to you on a diff post i think it was the post that cowgirl started for me. so now i feel like a stalker : ) j/k no actually i am just so amzed and impressed with your progress and just wanted you to know i am pulling for you and sending you all my strength energy and good vibes your way to help you lick this thing and maybe ease a lil of the struggle you are facing with the withdrawal challange. even if only for the moment. hang in there. it doesnt last forever. you are almost past the physical funk. then you will start feeling better and can work on some of those emotional funks that will follow. but just know you are never alone. you know you can always come here. you have my support. i care. and i'll even do a cheer or two if i have too, to route you on : )
terrianne
yep i'm better known as cowgirls shadow : ) i posted to you on a diff post i think it was the post that cowgirl started for me. so now i feel like a stalker : ) j/k no actually i am just so amzed and impressed with your progress and just wanted you to know i am pulling for you and sending you all my strength energy and good vibes your way to help you lick this thing and maybe ease a lil of the struggle you are facing with the withdrawal challange. even if only for the moment. hang in there. it doesnt last forever. you are almost past the physical funk. then you will start feeling better and can work on some of those emotional funks that will follow. but just know you are never alone. you know you can always come here. you have my support. i care. and i'll even do a cheer or two if i have too, to route you on : )
terrianne
I think I should be your shadow, Terrianne.... ;o)
cowgirl,
you make my day : ) thanks. we can atke turns if ya want : )
terrianne
you make my day : ) thanks. we can atke turns if ya want : )
terrianne
You both made my day. Ya. It was not a fun day. I actually came home just to be here with you for a while. It really helped. Just got home from work and doing better than I thought. Iwanted to just take one soooo bad, but I didn't. Now I think I need a glass on wine and I'll be back. Thats O. K. right.
Love ya both,
Frank
Love ya both,
Frank
fsguy,
no wine isnt ok dude, let me be your wine, stick around talk to me. talk it out. you are strong i know you can do this, let me try and help redirect your mind if i can. i'm here. keep talking.
terrianne
no wine isnt ok dude, let me be your wine, stick around talk to me. talk it out. you are strong i know you can do this, let me try and help redirect your mind if i can. i'm here. keep talking.
terrianne
Terrianne
OK no wine. I figure after what I have done to myself and what I am going through I can certainly do without a glass of wine. I don't even like it.It just sounded good.
Frank
OK no wine. I figure after what I have done to myself and what I am going through I can certainly do without a glass of wine. I don't even like it.It just sounded good.
Frank
fs,
lol yeah i know exactly where your at, i hate wine too and have pondered the thought myself. ok look at you go boy!!! excellent job on thinking twice about the wine. besides it wont make anything go away, and after the wine wore off it will all still be there and it might even make ya feel worse. wow i am so impressed with you. i can tell you want this recovery so badly. i know you are going to make it. i see alot of the same qualities in you that i had myself when i first stopped. i wanted it so bad i could taste it. your doing remarkably well so far.
terrianne
lol yeah i know exactly where your at, i hate wine too and have pondered the thought myself. ok look at you go boy!!! excellent job on thinking twice about the wine. besides it wont make anything go away, and after the wine wore off it will all still be there and it might even make ya feel worse. wow i am so impressed with you. i can tell you want this recovery so badly. i know you are going to make it. i see alot of the same qualities in you that i had myself when i first stopped. i wanted it so bad i could taste it. your doing remarkably well so far.
terrianne
Terrianne,
Where were you 6 years ago ???
You are awesome!!!!!!!
Frank
Where were you 6 years ago ???
You are awesome!!!!!!!
Frank
So glad that Terrianne was here to talk to you.
She's so right, no alcohol. It will only prolong your slow death you got going right now and will not make you feel any better.
Take the time to go through and read posts from previous months...go way back. Especially look for a guy named O'Nielle. He kept a running diary when he first stopped using and his progress was amazing.
Hang in there kiddo..
Cowgirl
Terrianne..if you have time, can you bump up some of Oneille's threads for him? I've got to get dinner on. But will check back later. Love you
She's so right, no alcohol. It will only prolong your slow death you got going right now and will not make you feel any better.
Take the time to go through and read posts from previous months...go way back. Especially look for a guy named O'Nielle. He kept a running diary when he first stopped using and his progress was amazing.
Hang in there kiddo..
Cowgirl
Terrianne..if you have time, can you bump up some of Oneille's threads for him? I've got to get dinner on. But will check back later. Love you
fsguy,
6 years ago we would have prolly been getting baked together :P but i am here now and thank you for the compliment : ) but really i am just trying to give back what has been given to me. besides helping you helps me as well. so its a win win. you are helping me too
terrianne
6 years ago we would have prolly been getting baked together :P but i am here now and thank you for the compliment : ) but really i am just trying to give back what has been given to me. besides helping you helps me as well. so its a win win. you are helping me too
terrianne
cowgirl yeah i will look for oniell threads, thats the least i can do for you ;)
terrianne
terrianne
Ya, your right. But your are sure helping me to take my mine of of it now. Last night I heard from singlemon. She and I were at about the same level. I have tried to reach her but cannot. I'm worried about her. Has anyone heard from her???
Frank
Frank
fs,
no i havent heard from her today. i am certain she will be back. she sounds very determined to make this work as well. i am keeping her in my thoughts and prayers as well. hopefully she dumped her pills and is resting up riding out some withdrawals. you have a heart of gold i can tell already. how many kids do you have and ages if you dont mind my asking? i have 2 g-14 b-9. did you say your wife knows about your addiction and is she supportive? not being nosey just a lil getting to know you.
terrianne
no i havent heard from her today. i am certain she will be back. she sounds very determined to make this work as well. i am keeping her in my thoughts and prayers as well. hopefully she dumped her pills and is resting up riding out some withdrawals. you have a heart of gold i can tell already. how many kids do you have and ages if you dont mind my asking? i have 2 g-14 b-9. did you say your wife knows about your addiction and is she supportive? not being nosey just a lil getting to know you.
terrianne
Kept it from my wife for 7 1/2 years. When she found out how bad it was I almost lost her. If that would have happened I do not think you would be reading this now. I promised her I would get help. OK it took me 6 months but I finally did it. She is the only person that knows. Well untill last night. Now the world knows. And ya know what, Thats OK I have 2 great kids. Girl 23 and boy 21. Yes my wife has been very supportive. At least at times. Well sometimes not so but she has trouble understanding this. I guess thats normal for someone that does not even like to take excedrin.
Cowgirl told me last night that it's been 9 months for her. How long for you Terrianne?
Frank
Cowgirl told me last night that it's been 9 months for her. How long for you Terrianne?
Frank
fs.
i will have 11 months on the 18 of this month. you will be suprised at how supportive more people would be if they knew. everyone i told were more then willing to help or at least listen and they were all proud of me for wanting to better myself. not one person that mattered to me ever judged me or turned thier backs. there are meetings for familys with loved one addicted called naranon. maybe if your wife and kids looked into it, it may better help them to understand and give them some hope and tool to use so they can learn how to help themselves in how they feel and also get advice on how she can help you. thats just a thought. there is a family and friends support side on this board that offers online support for families as well. maybe she can read some stuff and see how others got through it, what helped them and they support each other as well. i was addicted for about 5 years. my ex husband was in rehab 20 yrs ago, he was of no help or support and he knew all about it he had been there. but thats a whole nother story lol i bumped up oniels posts that i could find i think its the one cowgirl was reffering to. another good person who used to post is adam a if you do a search at the bottom and type in adam a he is the one who reached out to me and got me through when i needed it the most. so if no one is around to chat with look up his posts as well. lots of good info in there from him. but i am so glad i am able to help out. i am sure it will be a huge change for you and your wife and family through these times. but i imagine it will all be changes for the better. i found when i got clean my life has been better then it was before i started using. it will all work out and come to you in due time. you will be rockin in no time. i imagine it will even bring you closer with your family. just ermember the past makes who we are today, we cant change the past. but we can learn and grow from it. if i didnt become an addict i wouldnt be who i am now and i kinda like who i am now : )
terrianne
i will have 11 months on the 18 of this month. you will be suprised at how supportive more people would be if they knew. everyone i told were more then willing to help or at least listen and they were all proud of me for wanting to better myself. not one person that mattered to me ever judged me or turned thier backs. there are meetings for familys with loved one addicted called naranon. maybe if your wife and kids looked into it, it may better help them to understand and give them some hope and tool to use so they can learn how to help themselves in how they feel and also get advice on how she can help you. thats just a thought. there is a family and friends support side on this board that offers online support for families as well. maybe she can read some stuff and see how others got through it, what helped them and they support each other as well. i was addicted for about 5 years. my ex husband was in rehab 20 yrs ago, he was of no help or support and he knew all about it he had been there. but thats a whole nother story lol i bumped up oniels posts that i could find i think its the one cowgirl was reffering to. another good person who used to post is adam a if you do a search at the bottom and type in adam a he is the one who reached out to me and got me through when i needed it the most. so if no one is around to chat with look up his posts as well. lots of good info in there from him. but i am so glad i am able to help out. i am sure it will be a huge change for you and your wife and family through these times. but i imagine it will all be changes for the better. i found when i got clean my life has been better then it was before i started using. it will all work out and come to you in due time. you will be rockin in no time. i imagine it will even bring you closer with your family. just ermember the past makes who we are today, we cant change the past. but we can learn and grow from it. if i didnt become an addict i wouldnt be who i am now and i kinda like who i am now : )
terrianne
Cowgirl, Terrianne,
Thanks for bringing up those past threads. Ireally want to tell you my story from the start. I have to leave for a while but I'll be back. Last Saturday I just knew nobody could feel like I did. Thats exactly how I felt Saturday and Sunday.Today mostly mental. Well you know.
Frank
Thanks for bringing up those past threads. Ireally want to tell you my story from the start. I have to leave for a while but I'll be back. Last Saturday I just knew nobody could feel like I did. Thats exactly how I felt Saturday and Sunday.Today mostly mental. Well you know.
Frank
fs,
ok buddy, just keep yourself in check, i am saying a prayer for you asking god to protect your mind through these tough times. you keep hanging on. if i'm not on to post to you. i am still here in spirit. touting you on and keeping you inline if i gotta hehehe but you are doing a fabulous job of doing just that for yourself.
your a true warrior. keep fighting the good fight. i will be looking for you when i log on to read up on your progress. staying posative is a huge help as well. oh and if you get some crazy thoughts of an obsession dont worrie, cowgirl will be back and we will personally come ovre there and give you a what for!! : P <smiles> only cause we care. take it easy pal. you'll be in my thoughts and prayers as well as singlemom. i will keep my eye out for her and be sure and send her your well wishes. i am sure she will read them anyway when she gets back on.
terrianne
ok buddy, just keep yourself in check, i am saying a prayer for you asking god to protect your mind through these tough times. you keep hanging on. if i'm not on to post to you. i am still here in spirit. touting you on and keeping you inline if i gotta hehehe but you are doing a fabulous job of doing just that for yourself.
your a true warrior. keep fighting the good fight. i will be looking for you when i log on to read up on your progress. staying posative is a huge help as well. oh and if you get some crazy thoughts of an obsession dont worrie, cowgirl will be back and we will personally come ovre there and give you a what for!! : P <smiles> only cause we care. take it easy pal. you'll be in my thoughts and prayers as well as singlemom. i will keep my eye out for her and be sure and send her your well wishes. i am sure she will read them anyway when she gets back on.
terrianne
FS, Terrianne, all =)
I thank you for caring.. I replied in the thread "I feel so awful" After I got back from the hosp I slept AGAIN, now even though I have no energy Im up and its midnight. I feel like Ive been asleep forever. Actually I have, mostly all weekend off an on. I even nodded off a few times at work. I just told my friend who caught me I wasnt feeling well. She told me I didnt look well either. Oh well. I actually wore sweats to work and hair up.. but I showed up. I think I might call in tomorrow, in fact I know I will. I barely made it today and I dont think I woulda slipped and took one today if I couldnt had the choice to lay around. Sounds like your handling yours a lil better than me right now. The day before yesterday I felt so full of hope, today Im feeling full of prayers. Thats all I can do keep myself from just saying .. Ill stop later. I want and need to stop now. Ive already come this far right? Im also so moody, or more emotional. I actually want to cry for no reason. Then Im mad. I should just go back to sleep now, wake up in the morning on the right side of the bed. I think my moodiness is showing. I actually do need to go to sleep, I barely woke up this morning with my alarm clock on 20 (my stereo is the alarm clock). Have you noticed you sleep heavier now? I am sleeping so heavy.
I thank you for caring.. I replied in the thread "I feel so awful" After I got back from the hosp I slept AGAIN, now even though I have no energy Im up and its midnight. I feel like Ive been asleep forever. Actually I have, mostly all weekend off an on. I even nodded off a few times at work. I just told my friend who caught me I wasnt feeling well. She told me I didnt look well either. Oh well. I actually wore sweats to work and hair up.. but I showed up. I think I might call in tomorrow, in fact I know I will. I barely made it today and I dont think I woulda slipped and took one today if I couldnt had the choice to lay around. Sounds like your handling yours a lil better than me right now. The day before yesterday I felt so full of hope, today Im feeling full of prayers. Thats all I can do keep myself from just saying .. Ill stop later. I want and need to stop now. Ive already come this far right? Im also so moody, or more emotional. I actually want to cry for no reason. Then Im mad. I should just go back to sleep now, wake up in the morning on the right side of the bed. I think my moodiness is showing. I actually do need to go to sleep, I barely woke up this morning with my alarm clock on 20 (my stereo is the alarm clock). Have you noticed you sleep heavier now? I am sleeping so heavy.
