Hey guys...
I haven't seen you two for awhile...I've been coming & going, living life and finally back to some sort of normal...It's Friday and slow at work so I'm enjoying it...
How are you guys doing?
I pray life is treating you well....
(((hugs)))
Stacey
Hi Stacey,
I am doing well. You are kind to ask.
At this point (approx 75 days), I am going to meetings(hopefully 90x90), calling and meeting w/ my sponsor, going over the steps, and working a service position. And, I know this sounds funny, but doing the opposite of what I had done in the past (hope you understand).
Still dealing w/ PAWs. I can see why addicts relapse. The depression can be hard to deal with along with the emotional highs and lows. If I didnt know that eventually it would get better (and it has), it would've be hard to stay the course. The saving grace is educating myself on PAWs and going to meetings.
I am not "just existing" anymore but happy to be alive which is one of the promises of sobriety. (I thought the people that posted this on the boards were exaggerating about being happy)
What a gift!
-Gentlepeace
I am doing well. You are kind to ask.
At this point (approx 75 days), I am going to meetings(hopefully 90x90), calling and meeting w/ my sponsor, going over the steps, and working a service position. And, I know this sounds funny, but doing the opposite of what I had done in the past (hope you understand).
Still dealing w/ PAWs. I can see why addicts relapse. The depression can be hard to deal with along with the emotional highs and lows. If I didnt know that eventually it would get better (and it has), it would've be hard to stay the course. The saving grace is educating myself on PAWs and going to meetings.
I am not "just existing" anymore but happy to be alive which is one of the promises of sobriety. (I thought the people that posted this on the boards were exaggerating about being happy)
What a gift!
-Gentlepeace
Gentle!! Wow...fantastic news! That is just so awesome. You sound good and you are doing the work necessary to get better. I am so dern proud of you!!
You go girl!
Hi Stacey...how are you? Everything ok? Good to see you posting...I miss you sparkle around here!
You go girl!
Hi Stacey...how are you? Everything ok? Good to see you posting...I miss you sparkle around here!
Gentle...
Oh, I so understand...lol...I tried for a very long time to abstain from taking pills doing it my way and everytime, I relapsed...For me, I didn't start to heal until I accepted I was powerless and my life was unmanageable...Unmanageable was a tad hard to swallow at first because I still had the husband, the car, the kids, the good job, hell I was getting promotions but, BUT, my life was in total turmoil and chaos...now life is good and some days great but I give that credit to God because without God in my life, I'd be the same miserable dry drunk as before...
I was told nothing changes if nothing changes, so I changed everything and started meetings and I still go 4-5 times a week....Last week I only got 1 meeting in 7 days and I was miserable by the end of the week...I have to attend meetings to keep spiritually fit and quiet the voices in my head...There's nothing better in life than walking into a meeting and knowing I can be exactly who I am and share exactly what I'm thinking, what's going on in my life and I won't be judged or criticized....Keep doing what your doing and the promises will occur...
Oh, and I remember reading this board and thinking, nope, I'll never be happy or feel peace, won't happen to me but the miracle is, I started doing the work and all of a sudden I have a life I only ever imagined....
xoxo
Stacey
KeeKee...thank you...I'm okay and today, I am good...Had to walk through some difficult things last week and went through quite a few different feelings but after I got through it, prayed and gave it up to God, the weight of the world was lifted from my shoulders....Acceptance and knowing that the only thing I can change is me and my actions/reactions....As much as I don't want to hear Miss Katbird tell me "this to shall pass" it does and when it does, it's just like after a storm, life is bright & beautiful again....wishing you well and let me know how the NA meeting goes...smooches...
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Oh, I so understand...lol...I tried for a very long time to abstain from taking pills doing it my way and everytime, I relapsed...For me, I didn't start to heal until I accepted I was powerless and my life was unmanageable...Unmanageable was a tad hard to swallow at first because I still had the husband, the car, the kids, the good job, hell I was getting promotions but, BUT, my life was in total turmoil and chaos...now life is good and some days great but I give that credit to God because without God in my life, I'd be the same miserable dry drunk as before...
I was told nothing changes if nothing changes, so I changed everything and started meetings and I still go 4-5 times a week....Last week I only got 1 meeting in 7 days and I was miserable by the end of the week...I have to attend meetings to keep spiritually fit and quiet the voices in my head...There's nothing better in life than walking into a meeting and knowing I can be exactly who I am and share exactly what I'm thinking, what's going on in my life and I won't be judged or criticized....Keep doing what your doing and the promises will occur...
Oh, and I remember reading this board and thinking, nope, I'll never be happy or feel peace, won't happen to me but the miracle is, I started doing the work and all of a sudden I have a life I only ever imagined....
xoxo
Stacey
KeeKee...thank you...I'm okay and today, I am good...Had to walk through some difficult things last week and went through quite a few different feelings but after I got through it, prayed and gave it up to God, the weight of the world was lifted from my shoulders....Acceptance and knowing that the only thing I can change is me and my actions/reactions....As much as I don't want to hear Miss Katbird tell me "this to shall pass" it does and when it does, it's just like after a storm, life is bright & beautiful again....wishing you well and let me know how the NA meeting goes...smooches...
Hi everyone.....i am still hanging in. 67 days today. I will never go back to the repulsive life I was living. I haven't even thought about a pill, I am just taking each day as it comes. Today I caught myself singing while I loaded the dishwasher. I still don't have as much energy as i would like, but every day gets a little better. I had a pinched nerve in my neck last week and a bad headache from it. I had several appointments with the chiropractor. The good news is... tylenol and advil actually work, who knew, ha! I am so thankful to all of you who post to me. You helped me more then you will ever know. Stacey it was so thoughtful of you to ask how I was. L
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Good to hear how you are doing. You sound so good!
Singing, huh? That is wonderful.
-Gentlepeace
Good to hear how you are doing. You sound so good!
Singing, huh? That is wonderful.
-Gentlepeace
