I was just curious as to what you think caused your relapse? I don't have that much more time than you did. I am 2 years 8 months sober and was just wondering what triggered it for you.
Thanks in advance.
I fell away from the program and pretty much decided I could do it on my own....
I hit meetings hard (84 in 90 the first 3 months) and tapered off drastically after about 6 months to the point where I probably made 10 meetings in the last 14 months before that fateful night 2 weeks ago...
had no sponsor......so now I have a sponsor
stopped after my 3rd step.......so now I'm working my 4th with a pretty thororgh inventory
the time accumulated really never mean't that much because I was concentrating on the one day at a time and one day I caved....
no drama in my life....I just went out so see what would happen
woke up the next morning ready to raise my hand at a meeting (as a new comer) and humble myself with a lesson learned with minimal damage done....
trust me...........ABSOLUTELY nothing changed,I just revisited the same hopelessness that next morning that landed me in the program 20 months earlier.....
I think sobriety a marathon and that one day (for whatever reason) I wanted it to be a sprint...
anyways I'm back on track and better for it
I hit meetings hard (84 in 90 the first 3 months) and tapered off drastically after about 6 months to the point where I probably made 10 meetings in the last 14 months before that fateful night 2 weeks ago...
had no sponsor......so now I have a sponsor
stopped after my 3rd step.......so now I'm working my 4th with a pretty thororgh inventory
the time accumulated really never mean't that much because I was concentrating on the one day at a time and one day I caved....
no drama in my life....I just went out so see what would happen
woke up the next morning ready to raise my hand at a meeting (as a new comer) and humble myself with a lesson learned with minimal damage done....
trust me...........ABSOLUTELY nothing changed,I just revisited the same hopelessness that next morning that landed me in the program 20 months earlier.....
I think sobriety a marathon and that one day (for whatever reason) I wanted it to be a sprint...
anyways I'm back on track and better for it
Thanks for sharing your story. I am not naive enough to think that I am not always one drink away from a bender. I was just thinking something stressful might have happened in your life. So basically you got complacent. Good reminder for me to have sobriety number one on my list.
I go about it a bit differently. In the beginning I never started out the day saying to myself, "I will not drink today". I went to bed at night and said, "Cool I didn't drink today." I have accepted the fact that alcohol cannot be a part of my life ever again. I know this kind of goes against the AA philosphy of one day at a time but it has worked for me.
Every now and again it's good to have a story such as yours to remind me that I can't have just "one".
Thanks again.
I go about it a bit differently. In the beginning I never started out the day saying to myself, "I will not drink today". I went to bed at night and said, "Cool I didn't drink today." I have accepted the fact that alcohol cannot be a part of my life ever again. I know this kind of goes against the AA philosphy of one day at a time but it has worked for me.
Every now and again it's good to have a story such as yours to remind me that I can't have just "one".
Thanks again.
I guess I could look back and reexamine what lead up to it but the that in it self can create another slippery slop if I get to deep into that thought process,especially when the REAL and simple answer is I stopped doing something that was inconvienient sometimes....
I found a new home meeting that has a different atmosphere than the alano club I was going to....the alano club here in Oceanside is somewhat of a revolving door and I get more out of meetings when I know the same group of people are gonna be there week after week (easier to take an interest in other drunks that way when you're consistantly around them)
I'm still mentally keeping my sober day @ 8/27/06
:)
I found a new home meeting that has a different atmosphere than the alano club I was going to....the alano club here in Oceanside is somewhat of a revolving door and I get more out of meetings when I know the same group of people are gonna be there week after week (easier to take an interest in other drunks that way when you're consistantly around them)
I'm still mentally keeping my sober day @ 8/27/06
:)
Well good for you for not turning it into a bender. I don't know that I would have been able to stop at one bad night.
Have a good night.
Have a good night.
hey there Geoff good luck on your 4th step. I hope you are better at it than me lol.
I think I might get an honorary mention in book of records for taking the longest time at the 4th step lol. . Take care and good luck .
I think I might get an honorary mention in book of records for taking the longest time at the 4th step lol. . Take care and good luck .
Thanks Geoffrey,
This is exactly what I needed to hear. I will have six months on Friday and I've been pulling back on meetings. I think it's necessary, but then I see many others who have done well with out AA. I guess I'm not sure if I'm the type of alcoholic who really needs a program. I'm questioning this now. I think I need to pray and wait and listen for an answer from my HP.
Val,
I've had many days where I just thank God at night for helping me to stay sober for the day. Some days I do it in the morning then I forget. I get busy. Theres no wrong way to get and stay sober and reasonably happy. Thanks for all your ESH.
Everyone have a good sober day!
This is exactly what I needed to hear. I will have six months on Friday and I've been pulling back on meetings. I think it's necessary, but then I see many others who have done well with out AA. I guess I'm not sure if I'm the type of alcoholic who really needs a program. I'm questioning this now. I think I need to pray and wait and listen for an answer from my HP.
Val,
I've had many days where I just thank God at night for helping me to stay sober for the day. Some days I do it in the morning then I forget. I get busy. Theres no wrong way to get and stay sober and reasonably happy. Thanks for all your ESH.
Everyone have a good sober day!
