I've never done anything like this before, but I do not want to go to a hospital or doctors, the reason being is I feel it's all a joke, I'm 35 and I've done it all spent thousands and thousands of dollars on rehabs, clinics, suboxne treatments. I was talked in to doing methadone because of a few surgeries I had didn't want to go bk on the pain meds. It's in my blood I can't control myself but, when it came to methadone my highest does was only @ 65 after surgery, after that went down to 30 and then the clinic tried telling me I had drugs in my system I became very very upset and felt that they did it on purpose because I was on my 3 weeks take homes and because I was wanting to come off every time I wanted to come off there was an excuse can't do it when it's summer, then w my lupus I don't think it would b a great ideal, well I gave up and said screw this I went to a very close friend of mine, and was tapered down to 10 I didn't think quieting @ 10 would b too hard, well I've lost track but I believe I'm on day 16 17 and omg I still haven't kicked I'm physically and emotionally tired, I became a lil afraid when I woke this morning I'm having serve lower back pain and anything and everything I try to eat or drink goes right through me and it's this bad yellow bright yellow color, I can't feel when I need to go pee I can only tell when my stomach becomes bloated, I'm determined to do this on my own no matter what and I need some good advice as too help w overcoming this, sorry but I will not pay anymore money to any type of facility, I feel there are a lot of us whom do want help me being one but, so many people are making millions off of us addicts and it's just a revolving door. Thank u for listening sorry if some things are spelt or wrote correctly writing just this took me hours.
Much love & respect
Woffa love
Hi Woffa,
If you really want off, you're almost at the end of the physical stuff, so hang on. I ended up on a two year run after detoxing off of Methadone, but I remember a few days after the physical stuff was over where I was so grateful to not be sick, that had I just hung on to that feeling of gratitude ( to not be dope sick ), I think I might have made it. I just wasn't done yet.
I was having no relief anymore from the Methadone, the docs were after me to get off of it. I had no idea what I was in for with regard to withdrawal from a LONG acting opiate. As I recall, it was about 18 days for me. AND on down the road a bit, when I got clean, my gut didn't straighten out for almost 1 whole year after I was off of everything.
I would gag every time I brushed my teeth too. So, the stomach stuff you are going through is very normal for this stage in recovery. I'm not sure how it was for you, but I was constipated for like 22 yrs. That takes time to heal... To try and help myself along in that department, I ate yogurt and took probiotics. I have no proof this helped, but it made me feel better to take a little action. Every time I had a bathroom attack ( either gagging or the bright foul yellows ) it reminded me of being in withdrawal. My skin would get gooseflesh and it was agony. But I just kept telling myself that even though I felt like I was in withdrawals, I wasn't and eventually this would heal. It did... Gradually, it changed. Be patient with your body, you beat it up fpr a long time.
The pain you spoke of was normal for me too. It was like a rebound effect from getting off of everything. Depending upon why you have pain, it may get completely better, it may not. But, it's worth it to try. I still have a nagging pain in my spine between my shoulder blades, some days it's worse than others. But, it responds to anti-inflammatory drugs like Ibuprphen. And that is something that never would've happened if I'd stayed on opiates. It's like I told this one guy recently: If the pain is truly unbearable after say a year, you can always go back to opiates. But if the pain is being made worse by opiates ( something called hyperanalgesia ), it's not always so easy to get off of opiates.
You've got a good start. Try some 12 step meetings like NA/AA. You make friends, gain support and you won't be alone. All my best to you Woffa, you can do this. Your worth it!
Persephone
If you really want off, you're almost at the end of the physical stuff, so hang on. I ended up on a two year run after detoxing off of Methadone, but I remember a few days after the physical stuff was over where I was so grateful to not be sick, that had I just hung on to that feeling of gratitude ( to not be dope sick ), I think I might have made it. I just wasn't done yet.
I was having no relief anymore from the Methadone, the docs were after me to get off of it. I had no idea what I was in for with regard to withdrawal from a LONG acting opiate. As I recall, it was about 18 days for me. AND on down the road a bit, when I got clean, my gut didn't straighten out for almost 1 whole year after I was off of everything.
I would gag every time I brushed my teeth too. So, the stomach stuff you are going through is very normal for this stage in recovery. I'm not sure how it was for you, but I was constipated for like 22 yrs. That takes time to heal... To try and help myself along in that department, I ate yogurt and took probiotics. I have no proof this helped, but it made me feel better to take a little action. Every time I had a bathroom attack ( either gagging or the bright foul yellows ) it reminded me of being in withdrawal. My skin would get gooseflesh and it was agony. But I just kept telling myself that even though I felt like I was in withdrawals, I wasn't and eventually this would heal. It did... Gradually, it changed. Be patient with your body, you beat it up fpr a long time.
The pain you spoke of was normal for me too. It was like a rebound effect from getting off of everything. Depending upon why you have pain, it may get completely better, it may not. But, it's worth it to try. I still have a nagging pain in my spine between my shoulder blades, some days it's worse than others. But, it responds to anti-inflammatory drugs like Ibuprphen. And that is something that never would've happened if I'd stayed on opiates. It's like I told this one guy recently: If the pain is truly unbearable after say a year, you can always go back to opiates. But if the pain is being made worse by opiates ( something called hyperanalgesia ), it's not always so easy to get off of opiates.
You've got a good start. Try some 12 step meetings like NA/AA. You make friends, gain support and you won't be alone. All my best to you Woffa, you can do this. Your worth it!
Persephone
@Persepone
I want to say how strong person you are ,and I am glade that you are now clean and tapered of by could turkey ! For me,You are a hero!
you said if the pain barely you can't handle for a year !?1' For a year ?!? Did your physical withdrawal agony,lasted so long?!How did you survived ?!?
I want to say how strong person you are ,and I am glade that you are now clean and tapered of by could turkey ! For me,You are a hero!
you said if the pain barely you can't handle for a year !?1' For a year ?!? Did your physical withdrawal agony,lasted so long?!How did you survived ?!?
