Hi all, I am starting to decorate my tree and I was frantic, I couldn't find all of them, I started to panic. Well I did finally find them.
I've been sitting here carefully unwrapping all of Christmas past. I still have about 14 of the ones that my Mom and Dad gave to me. The memories of my childhood. I unwrap them and my heart is pounding, praying that I haven't broken them from last year, I mourn their loss. Luckily they are all spread out and this year I have had no casualties. They are so special to me, my Daddy brought them back from Germany when he was stationed over there. Glass bells, pine cones, the one that has an indent that i always place behind a light, so that the glow will reflect, the hand painted ones. I wonder if my parents have a picture of me, like I have of my son, sitting in front of the tree, reaching at the beautiful colored glass. I breathe a sigh of relief when I find the one glass icicle, unbroken, yet another year.
The memories are flowing back, I'm thankful this year that I'm not leaving the trimming to one of the kids, because I am too coked up to care. I look at the macaroni ones that feature pics of my kids, from times long past. The ones that I bought to paint with the kids, times gone by, where I took the time to make Christmas special. The macaroni ones that we carefully spray-painted, with the kids picture. I wonder if the kids are in awe of these memories. This year marks a special precious time for me. I have a beautiful grandson, that I look forward to chasing away from this fragile beauty.
Life is good.
My husband just called, he went to see his Mama this morning, to find her on the cold floor, leaned up against the couch, in a puddle of urine. She is congested and is waiting to call the ENT that did her sinus surgery last year. She's light-headed and couldn't make it to the bathroom. I'm getting dressed to go and check on her. I pray for her, having lost her husband last November. Knowing that she mourns his passing, along with her 2 sons and grandchildren, and great-grandchildren.
I know now, that life is precious and oh so fragile, just like the ornaments that I carefully unwrapped.
Embrace life, choose to live, not to drug. I wipe the tears from my eyes and ask that everyone pray for each other, pray that the addict that is still active, see the light, decides to stop the hell on earth that they are living.
I love you all, have a Blessed Christmas, and a Blessed New Year.
My Dear Friend, I have chill bumps after reading this. Thank you so much for sharing it with us. It is sooo true and hits home with me. I love you for who you are... i hope you have a very Merry Christmas! Love and God Bless,Bri :)
You too Bri. I am sitting here, so overcome with emotion. I checked on my MIL...she has someone with her, and she is taking a nap. I will get a call if I am needed.
Very sentimental day, lots of tears brushed from my eyes.
I wanted to share with y'all. What it means to be clean, after those lost times.
Very sentimental day, lots of tears brushed from my eyes.
I wanted to share with y'all. What it means to be clean, after those lost times.
She is very lucky to have ya'll right now. I will be thinking of ya'll and praying that everything's okay.
I know i have felt the same way this year about the holidays. It has been years since i was able to enjoy a clean and sober holiday. Thanksgiving was so much fun for me. I know this Christmas will be even better. This is the first year since i was 17 that i actually have money to buy "real" presents for everyone because i didn't blow it on drugs or booze. It's a great feeling!
I hope all is well with your MIL... let me know how she is okay? Love,Bri :)
I know i have felt the same way this year about the holidays. It has been years since i was able to enjoy a clean and sober holiday. Thanksgiving was so much fun for me. I know this Christmas will be even better. This is the first year since i was 17 that i actually have money to buy "real" presents for everyone because i didn't blow it on drugs or booze. It's a great feeling!
I hope all is well with your MIL... let me know how she is okay? Love,Bri :)
Ditto......
Belinda
Belinda
Hi, Janet...wow. I'm so happy you're enjoying all that xmas is meant to be about. Everytime I put up the "macaroni and cottonball" ornaments that britt made so many years ago, they seem to get more special with time. I hope your mother-in-law is going to be okay. Must be so hard for your husband to see her this way. thanks for remindng us what xmas is about. luv corrinne
Corrinne, I still hang the foam star with my second grade picture on it...it's lost all of it's little sparkly things, but the picture remains, slightly faded, but still intact...
Hey, your sparkle glistens in a different way these days.....
big smiles!!!
Thank you sweetheart!
Thank you sweetheart!
Hi Corrinne! How are you and Britt doing? All's well here... got a new puppy! (Been telling everyone... Janet already knows...lol). Are ya'll ready for Christmas?
Love,Bri :)
Love,Bri :)
Hi, Bri...so great to see you. Britt is fine. She's doing really great and is so excited to be buying presents for the first time in year with her own paycheck.
How's caden and your hubby?
New puppy? what kind? how old? Potty training over yet? Xmas will be so much fun for you with your son. I remember it being brand new for me once britt was aware of it and got so excited. sure was fun.
All the best to you, Bri, this holiday season. I hope you get EVERYTHING you want..cause you deserve it..you're just so sweet to everyone. luv corrinne
How's caden and your hubby?
New puppy? what kind? how old? Potty training over yet? Xmas will be so much fun for you with your son. I remember it being brand new for me once britt was aware of it and got so excited. sure was fun.
All the best to you, Bri, this holiday season. I hope you get EVERYTHING you want..cause you deserve it..you're just so sweet to everyone. luv corrinne
Corrinne... i am so glad Britt's doing good... this should be a really special Christmas for you two! I know exactly how she feels about being able to buy presents on her own this year... it really is exciting... feels so good to be responsible for the first time in my life... :)
My puppy is only 6wks old... he's a mini daschund. He is red with short-med hair. He is the runt out of the whole bunch. He has a little bit of white on his chest and his toes are white. I named him "Wilbur" after my late daschund "Goober" and recently deceased basset "Willie". Willie just passed away at Thanksgiving. So, i thought it was good to name the new one after them... in their honor... i know it sounds funny... but they are like family to me...lol!
Shea is doing better... Kaeden's doing great! He is sooo excited about Christmas this year... exactly like you said when Britt first started understanding it all. I got him a "Rescue Pet"... it's this stuffed dog that whimpers and wags his tail when you pet it's head... that is all he has asked for. Then i got him some building blocks... he likes to build stuff. And of course a Sponge Bob TV plug n play. Then some little stuff. And you know the absolute best thing about it? I was able to buy his Christmas presents this year with no problem at all! I am starting to feel like a good mom again... and that's a great feeling!
Sorry i talked your ear off... just haven't talked to you in a while... please tell Britt i said hello and Merry Christmas!!!
Corrinne... have a very Merry Christmas... you are such a great Mom and i am sooo glad that Britt has you to count on! Love you Both! Bri :)
My puppy is only 6wks old... he's a mini daschund. He is red with short-med hair. He is the runt out of the whole bunch. He has a little bit of white on his chest and his toes are white. I named him "Wilbur" after my late daschund "Goober" and recently deceased basset "Willie". Willie just passed away at Thanksgiving. So, i thought it was good to name the new one after them... in their honor... i know it sounds funny... but they are like family to me...lol!
Shea is doing better... Kaeden's doing great! He is sooo excited about Christmas this year... exactly like you said when Britt first started understanding it all. I got him a "Rescue Pet"... it's this stuffed dog that whimpers and wags his tail when you pet it's head... that is all he has asked for. Then i got him some building blocks... he likes to build stuff. And of course a Sponge Bob TV plug n play. Then some little stuff. And you know the absolute best thing about it? I was able to buy his Christmas presents this year with no problem at all! I am starting to feel like a good mom again... and that's a great feeling!
Sorry i talked your ear off... just haven't talked to you in a while... please tell Britt i said hello and Merry Christmas!!!
Corrinne... have a very Merry Christmas... you are such a great Mom and i am sooo glad that Britt has you to count on! Love you Both! Bri :)
Hi, Bri...sorry you lost your doggies. Wilbur will keep their memory alive. Sorry for misspelling Kaeden's name. It's a uniquie name and I like it a lot. Sounds Like the little guy is going to have a great xmas. You are a good mom, Bri. We all make mistakes as parents. I was 21 when I had britt and didn't know my bum from my elbow...we learn through them as we go. I'll tell britt you said hello. She doesn't get on the board much...the computer where she's at is a dinosaur. When she's here next time, maybe she'll pop on. Thanks for all your encouragement, Bri. Luv corrinne
Corrinne... don't even worry about mispelling his name... i spelled a really weird way anyhow... i always told myself i wouldn't do that when i had kids... but you know us moms... lol! Thankyou for the encouraging words.... they really do mean alot. Talk to you soon... luv, Bri :)
