I cant figure my motivation for this.Maybe just sick of being sick.Tomorrow i'm going cold turkey.I hope i can find the support here that i once recieved.i've always loved and hated unconditionally.this may be the m.o.i hate this addiction and love myself and those around me much more than to let them be affected by it.This love includes all of you.difference of opinion is what keeps thins moving forward.agreeance and acceptance are very different.i can disagree with something but accept it as your way.i just ask the same.i will need you all.for support and words of encouragement and just to know there are others
Kenny count me in as a supporter. If you need to talk I'm here. I've got 3 months off pain meds. It's hard, be it can be done. I've been to numerous rehabs across the country. This is the longest I've ever been clean.
Ken,
Count me in too bro. I'm here for ya'. And you have my e-mail, use it as often as you need. I have crazy hours so chances are if you e-mail me you wont have to wait long for a reply.
Good luck.........Take care............God bless..................Bob...
Just remember take it one day at a time, one minute at a time if thats what it takes. Don't worry about yesterday you can't change it, and don't worry about tomorrow it doesn't exist!!! I'm here for ya' bro..................Any time!
Count me in too bro. I'm here for ya'. And you have my e-mail, use it as often as you need. I have crazy hours so chances are if you e-mail me you wont have to wait long for a reply.
Good luck.........Take care............God bless..................Bob...
Just remember take it one day at a time, one minute at a time if thats what it takes. Don't worry about yesterday you can't change it, and don't worry about tomorrow it doesn't exist!!! I'm here for ya' bro..................Any time!
(((Kenny)))
I quit cold turkey too. If you need some support let me know. I promise not to mention any steps. :-)
love ya
Kat
I quit cold turkey too. If you need some support let me know. I promise not to mention any steps. :-)
love ya
Kat
Goes without saying.. you know how much you can count on me. We'll be starting over together. I'll always be here for you.
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Cowgirl
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Cowgirl
Kenny I will be here!
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Hey kenny I just came to the same conclusion today and It amazes me I went to see my counsellor to go on the methadone But he he explained it to me objectively which must have been hard for him because he has known me since I have been 16, Something clicked in my head when he was explaining the maintenance program, I told him "I was clean for 18 months. before I can do this again and he asked me if I was going to meetings <isaid No11 BASICALLY T CAME DOWN TO i HAVE NOT USED MY SUPPORT SYSTem, he will also pick me up on his own time and bring me to a siritual 12 step recvery meeting, AAnd damnit I am starting to remenber the old recovering me! I cant lie to anyone here I also mentioned that I was going to go back on my Ritalin which I have abused before, but they had helped me big time before I had, he told me to find an acountabilty partner and now I will see him once a wekk to make sure I should stay on or off, I am also joining a relpase prevention group, so that has been my day and wow! I hope I am not conning myself with the ritalin, because i will suffer, besides the aching in my legs from the morphine pills, I feel better gOd bles
Kenny and Shaking, as I have said several times recently, I am better at offering suggestions on the emotional side of addiction rather than the physical side.. Having said that, I want you both to know that I will be sending as many healing vibes in your direction(s) as I can. You will be in my thoughts. If you need to come online and vent, even if you post 50 times a day, I for one will cut you some slack. Better that than picking up. I know there will be some rough moments, and I hope that you each will think about how to go about this as to be successful, like letting significant others or friends know so that they can support you, lining up food, hot baths, Imodium, etc.
One thing I do recall from way back when is HALT. Don't let yourself get too hungry, angry, lonely, or tired. I know that sleep is an issue with withdrawal, but still, this is not a good time to go on a diet or get in a fight with someone.
I'll leave it to those with more experience than me to offer better advice. Know that I am rooting for both of you in a big way!
Please let us know how you are doing. You know we all will be thinking of you and wanting frequent updates.
August
One thing I do recall from way back when is HALT. Don't let yourself get too hungry, angry, lonely, or tired. I know that sleep is an issue with withdrawal, but still, this is not a good time to go on a diet or get in a fight with someone.
I'll leave it to those with more experience than me to offer better advice. Know that I am rooting for both of you in a big way!
Please let us know how you are doing. You know we all will be thinking of you and wanting frequent updates.
August
Thanks august!
All i can say is WOW! I still cant believe the healing powers that you all bring through a machine.Thank you all so much
ok Kenny,
i am putting all my ESH gear on! will be here waitin for ya to check in.
if you feel like talking to someone pick up the phone and call someone to support you.I know it will be ok.it sounds like your ready.
GO KENNY...GO KENNY!
if you need me just hollar!
love,
ladybug
i am putting all my ESH gear on! will be here waitin for ya to check in.
if you feel like talking to someone pick up the phone and call someone to support you.I know it will be ok.it sounds like your ready.
GO KENNY...GO KENNY!
if you need me just hollar!
love,
ladybug
dear kenny and shaking -
this is the best darn news i have heard all day!
you go kenny! and shaking good for you for connecting with thoughts of getting clean! keep thinking those thoughts - keep connecting. before you know it, you will be clean and when we get clean we can find our truth!
i'm so proud of both you. ya know - a miracle isn't something that happens once in a blue moon or like some bolt out of the blue. nooooo - a miracle is when we make a decision to do something that is positive and good forever ourselves. it's making that decision - a shift in our perception that makes a miracle.
in my book - both of you are miracles!
what an awesome thread! my heart thanks you.
love -
sammy
this is the best darn news i have heard all day!
you go kenny! and shaking good for you for connecting with thoughts of getting clean! keep thinking those thoughts - keep connecting. before you know it, you will be clean and when we get clean we can find our truth!
i'm so proud of both you. ya know - a miracle isn't something that happens once in a blue moon or like some bolt out of the blue. nooooo - a miracle is when we make a decision to do something that is positive and good forever ourselves. it's making that decision - a shift in our perception that makes a miracle.
in my book - both of you are miracles!
what an awesome thread! my heart thanks you.
love -
sammy
Glad to have you in my corner sam.You seem to have been Ladybug's "rock".As you have probably noticed I'm not too into meetings at this point.I have read some of the slogans and such,they give some good points to think about.Between that,this board and the support network i've developed around me,i feel very confident.Again,i thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
respectfully kenny
respectfully kenny
Hello Kenny,
I just wanted to tell you that we are all here, I had to post my as* off, if you have any questions please ask, I just went off the Oxycontin, although I am sure you have before too. I just want you to know I am here for any support you need. My thoughts are with you, and Congradulations, the days are going to fly by. Take care, Best Wishes
I just wanted to tell you that we are all here, I had to post my as* off, if you have any questions please ask, I just went off the Oxycontin, although I am sure you have before too. I just want you to know I am here for any support you need. My thoughts are with you, and Congradulations, the days are going to fly by. Take care, Best Wishes
Dear Kenny and shaking, even though I am on suboxone it has not been that long ago that I was facing going cold turkey and it doesn't take much to rememer how I felt when I made the same choice as you. I just kept telling myself I could do it. I told myself to use some of that same energy I utilized in seeking, getting, and maintaining my pill supply and that seemed to help. I would also remind myself that if I could make it through about 72 hours without picking up, that I would feel like a newer person at the end of those 3 days and would have a clearer head to deal with doing the NEXT right thing. That way, I was able to plan. I bought lots of soup, ginger ale, immodium, bubble bath, tylenol and gatorade. Also I took extra vitamins. You can take control of your decision guys and we will be here to support you, and I will personally feel your pain. My 19 year old dog passed away last night and all my emotions have just gone haywire today. Even though I knew it was her time, the sheer upheavel of my emotions have blind sided me and you better believe I thought about using. Then I thought about it for a long, long time today, and remembered just how bad (emotionally) and physically I would feel if I took those pills and at the end of the day, things would just be worse. I choose to feel the pain of losing a lifelong companion, and have a head clear enough to appreciate the memories of her and I can grieve for her without picking up. This is weird, but my body aches just as if I have been on a binge and am going cold turkey just like you are planning to do. I guess its some weird kind of Freudian message, but I am feeling it loud and clear. Time for me to take the tylenol, and you can bet your bottom dollar I will be thinking of you and Feeling you for the next hours to come. good nite and god bless.
Very sorry to hear about your dog.That is a loss not unlike losing a loved one.Some just don't understand.I've seen a cruel person laugh at another for crying over the loss of her dog.Couldn't believe someone could be that cruel.I'm glad you have the strength to resist using,it proves a lot to yourself.Don't you think so?that is very inspirational
kenny
Dear Kenny, thank you sweetheart for the kind words. I know people who think its silly to treat animals like part of the family, but my animals are just my kids. I was not able to have kids, and they have been with me through thick and thin. I don't know what I would do without them. I appreciate your comment to me when you are going through so much yourself. Please check in tomorrow and let us know how its going. Stay strong, and remember we are here for you always.
I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW ME KENNY, BUT IM RIGHT THERE WITH YA, YOU GO KENNY!!!!!!!!!
YOU CAN DO IT SWEETIE, JUST KEEP THINKING THOSE PILSS ARE EVIL AND YOU GO THRU HELL TO GET THEM AND HELL GETTING OFF OF THEM , FOR WHAT A LITTLE HIGH, IT IS NOT WORTH IT AND IT f***S UP YOU LIFE, LIFE IS WAYTO SHORT ENJOY IT SOLBER, I KNOW ITS EAISER SAID THAN DONE BUT I HAVE BEEN THERE DONE THAT... YOU CAN DO IT , MY MOM TELLS ME THAT YOU CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS WITH YOU MIND, YOU TAKE THAT AS YOU WANT , BUT ONLY YOUkENNY CAN DO IT NOONE ELSE, TAKE CARE AND BEST WISHES TO YOU SWEETIE, GOD BLESS AND YOU CAN DO IT!!!
YOU CAN DO IT SWEETIE, JUST KEEP THINKING THOSE PILSS ARE EVIL AND YOU GO THRU HELL TO GET THEM AND HELL GETTING OFF OF THEM , FOR WHAT A LITTLE HIGH, IT IS NOT WORTH IT AND IT f***S UP YOU LIFE, LIFE IS WAYTO SHORT ENJOY IT SOLBER, I KNOW ITS EAISER SAID THAN DONE BUT I HAVE BEEN THERE DONE THAT... YOU CAN DO IT , MY MOM TELLS ME THAT YOU CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS WITH YOU MIND, YOU TAKE THAT AS YOU WANT , BUT ONLY YOUkENNY CAN DO IT NOONE ELSE, TAKE CARE AND BEST WISHES TO YOU SWEETIE, GOD BLESS AND YOU CAN DO IT!!!
Agel baby,i feel like i know you and everyone else here,it has been so helpful.
Thanks for your kind words.
Thanks for your kind words.
Kenny-
Selective memory is a trick through withdrawal that tries to hook you back into taking a pill. Don't only remember "the high"- think of the negative reality and issues that it encompasses. Withdrawal is most difficult to endure although obtainable. One feels in total control as time elapses and your life becomes your life once again. Don't keep any pills around your house because an addict abuses them. Believe me- I know. I have been there and hope that after four weeks and total honesty with everyone and myself- I will never take another pill! Be strong... Stick with it!
Selective memory is a trick through withdrawal that tries to hook you back into taking a pill. Don't only remember "the high"- think of the negative reality and issues that it encompasses. Withdrawal is most difficult to endure although obtainable. One feels in total control as time elapses and your life becomes your life once again. Don't keep any pills around your house because an addict abuses them. Believe me- I know. I have been there and hope that after four weeks and total honesty with everyone and myself- I will never take another pill! Be strong... Stick with it!
