"If you're over 30, the sun is like God's flashlight if you've been up all night "Partying." The FoxHole Prayer follows immediately: "I swear, I will never do this again as long as I live!" And some of us have that little addition, "and this time, I mean it!"
Gosh...thank you for that reminder about all-nighters! I'd see the sun coming up and instantly feel the depression and despair.
My depression would start when the birds started singing. How sad is that?Today I hear the birds wake up and I can enjoy it because it's my morning too. I LOVE hearing them sing now. Life is good.
saw the sun come up many a morning when I was "under the weather"
God I remember in parts of the deepest part of the dark pit. The sun would come up after partying all night. I'd puke and still go take another gulp of straight vodka, puke and swallow some of it. Try and chase it down with a beer. Man how sick is that. I didn't want to see the sun. I wanted to pass out into the dark abyss.
Today by the grace of God I love hearing those birds. My husband builds birdhouses. There must be about 15 in our backyard. The squirrels have taken over some of them. One of the mama's was caring her baby in her mouth to another tree as theres wholes in it from woodpeckers.
I enjoy these simple, yet beautiful miracles of life today because I can see them now because I'm sober. The awakening to life. Some days it's like being a happy kid again. Seeing things for the first time in many years that are real. God I'm grateful to be alive! Grateful for God's flashlight.
Today by the grace of God I love hearing those birds. My husband builds birdhouses. There must be about 15 in our backyard. The squirrels have taken over some of them. One of the mama's was caring her baby in her mouth to another tree as theres wholes in it from woodpeckers.
I enjoy these simple, yet beautiful miracles of life today because I can see them now because I'm sober. The awakening to life. Some days it's like being a happy kid again. Seeing things for the first time in many years that are real. God I'm grateful to be alive! Grateful for God's flashlight.
When i was binging day was night and night was day it didnt matter and when i woke up i done many things checked where i was and who i was with, checked if i had peed or pood and looked for more beer plus the money to buy it
I am so grateful i am sober
light and love zac
I am so grateful i am sober
light and love zac
toward the end of my drinking career my binges began at sunrise. I was up and at em before the alarms went of for many.Insane or what?? duhhhhhhh
Thanks for the reminder, I sure don't miss that..........and I called it "partying" ~ like we've posted before here on this board, hmmmmmm some "party"!
I totally relate to 12 Steppers example. The birds and the morning sun used to send me into a tailspin. What really used to bother me was the television on and especially if the morning news came on. I didn't want any connection to the real world. Not so much with the drinking because I was always passed out by the time the sun came up but definitley when I was drugging. My roomie at the time would turn on the TV to catch the morning news and I would become livid. I wanted nothing to do with reality.
Soooo glad that isn't my reality anymore. I love the birds and the bright morning sun!!
Peace out People!
Soooo glad that isn't my reality anymore. I love the birds and the bright morning sun!!
Peace out People!
