Hello. After many tears and arguments, my husband has finally realized that I need help with my addiction to vicodin. I've been taking 25+ a day of the 10's for going on 2 years now. After my doctor supplied me with copious amounts of vicodin and morphine, I just crashed and realized how much this is taking over my life. So, today, my husband decided he wants me to check into a hospital and go through detox. While I am feeling a sense of relief because I know (hopefully) I will be done with these pills that have taken over my life, I'm totally and completely terrified. What should I expect? If anyone out there can kind of give me an idea of what to expect while in detox, and what happens after, I would REALLY appreciate it. I'm so scared!!!
Jilly S the fact that you have the support of your husband is real good.
Regarding detox how long of a program is it? Hopefully you are comitting to a 28 day program.
They will take your blood to draw levels and determine how to wean you off the opiates.
Safest place.
You will be O.K.
Good luck--Jeff
Regarding detox how long of a program is it? Hopefully you are comitting to a 28 day program.
They will take your blood to draw levels and determine how to wean you off the opiates.
Safest place.
You will be O.K.
Good luck--Jeff
Please dont be scared this is going to give you time to rest and get your life back together .First and foremost get all of your favorite comfy clothes clean as that will help you to feel physically more comfortable I might even pack a favorite blanket or something .For now you can leave your make up at home this is all about coming out from behind the mask I know this may sound crazy to some but oh well you need to condectrate on the inside not the outside right now.Start with a little prayer God does listen to us addicts altough when He does not provide us w/ a happy medium to continue to take pills does not mean He hasnt been there all along and accept this it is your blessing .You will be fine just try not to be overcome with FEAR un the program while we were using they say fear stands for F**K EVERYTHING AND RUN in recovery it stands for FACE EVERYTHING AND RECOVER ,the first way is the old way that got us in trouble the 2nd way is what your journey will be about trust me you probably wont even want to come home .You are going to learn how to live again and that is a blessing as some of us could not afford rehab be grateful it is much better to do supervised by doctors and nurses and they can treat side effects of w/d better than you would be able to yourself you may want to have your husband call this nutty dr and tell her you no longer want to be a patient that you are going to seek treatment to come off the narcotics.Dont worry about what is after rehab just worry about the day that your feet are in ok you will only make yourself more nervous projecting into the future paint your toenails red if you have to to remind yourself that you are where your feet are and that would be in this day right here!!! Good luck you will be fine and your body will get some much needed rest and some knowledge about your addiction you will be amazed before you are half way through as long as you stay honest .A better life awaits you on the other side of addiction .I promise that.Cristina
Don't be scared...I went into detox...there you are safe and monitored and made as comfortable as possible...and you only have to concentrate on getting well...nothing else.I went into detox in June..best decision I ever made..gave me a lot of time to think about things...God bless you...we'll be here when you get out...Love, Sharonn
don't be afraid...you will be okay. If they do a medicated detox, you will be made comfortable with meds..and you are gona be okay. This is the time to grab a counselor, and talk about WHY and you will get introduced to programs that will help you stay clean.....listen.
Good luck, and we are all rooting for you.
kerry
Good luck, and we are all rooting for you.
kerry
Hi Jilly,i personally believe youre making a good decision.I think a little help in detox will go a long way.Hopefully youll find a nice/well staffed place.I wrote to you on your other post about my experience when i went to detox,so i'll shorten my response here.I stayed 3 nights/4 days.They gave me sub,and several other meds to help with the WD's,i went to some classes and i was well monitored.Blood pressure check every 4 hours,etc...i hope you have the same good experience as i had.It truly was very helpful.While in there,they will also hook you up with some out patient treatment or possibly inpatient in a rehab if they determine its needed(and you want it)Detox is for detox.Its not any long term care(that i know of)But your aftercare will be discussed while youre in there.It is in a fairly comfortable setting and you have nothing to be afraid of,really,i slept well,even ate well,they had alot of healthy food on hand and i was ABLE to eat,suprisingly.I hope you come back and post when you get home,and i hope to hear youre feeling much better.Take care~KIM
Hi Jilly I realize your scared but I tend to think like the others.Youll be made comfortable & really I hear its one of the best ways.Ive never been but I trust the ones here who have & I bellive what they say.Hopefully we will be able to hear from you again soon.Good Luck & belive it or not there is LIFE without drugs
there is HAPPINESS without being high.That i can promise...Take Care....mj
there is HAPPINESS without being high.That i can promise...Take Care....mj
Sorry to all for taking up your time. I guess my in-laws convinced my husband that I didn't need to go to detox...they're in denial I think....isn't that MY job?! So, I won't be going. I am so discouraged. I feel like I have absolutely no support at home whatsoever. Thanks for listening.
Jily what stops you to enter a rehab on your own. If you feel its your life at stake which it is if you are taking that type of quanity no disrespect but WHO CARES about your in laws. If your husband loves you he should protect you at all costs. I no all about in laws one of the reasons I left my family. Was not a very easy decision.
Do you have children?
Jeff
Do you have children?
Jeff
Hi Jeff. Yes, I do have children. My husband tends to be very influenced by his parents. Since my husband is in school, his parents are helping to support us, and they don't want the financial burden of putting me into a hospital for detox. They want to 'explore less expensive options' first. I'm just going along with it. I guess my whole life I've always been the type to listen to everyone else. It's hard for me to do something for myself...especially with this. They don't see this really as an addiction...but as MY fault for getting myself into the situation. They don't think my addiction is that big of a deal.
Um, Jilly. Hello. Time to stand up for yourself darlin. Just go check yourself in. We're talking about your life here, and probably your death if you don't do something drastic. Leave the kids with the sitter or inlaws, leave your husband a note and drive yourself to treatment. Yes, it's scary but so is dying. You're inlaws are idiots. Your husband needs to be slapped.
We understand what you're going through honey. I get it, but you have to do something. If not this, then get some help through NA or AA. Find an addiction specialist therapist. Someone who can help you and your family understand what's happening to you.
Cowgirl
We understand what you're going through honey. I get it, but you have to do something. If not this, then get some help through NA or AA. Find an addiction specialist therapist. Someone who can help you and your family understand what's happening to you.
Cowgirl
Nice post CG.
I love it!... Idiots, Slapped, LMAO
I love it!... Idiots, Slapped, LMAO
Jilly,i cant imagine how you must feel right now.Having to rely on these people for your lively hood must be very difficult.Standing up to them,when you are so used to just going with the flow,would be a very hard thing to do.Why not start by trying to get them to understand how BAD this situation is,start with your husband.read up on it yourself,print out all the info you can,then go to them and see,LOOK,this isnt going to go away.I need help and need it now! Tell them you intend to do whatever it takes to get the help you need to get your life back together.The detox i wnet totook everybody,regardless of insurance,they could not refuse you.Check into it,call around,you just may find one that will take you in(usually a 3-4 day stay)then they would bill you,or find help for you(state aid) to help you pay for it AFTER you get the help.And the best part is,they then will give you plenty of options for after care,they dont just kick you on the streeet and say"here you go"I hope things work out for you,you're in a tough situation,but you need to fight for you life right now,if your family just wont understand,after trying to explain,tell your husband you will do it on your own,you dont need to get your inlaws approval,but let your husband know you are very hurt and disappointed in the lack of support.Take care,and keep us up to date on your progress.~KIM
I agree with all that is written, I just wanted to add, Just do it.
What are they going to do? Always think about 'what is the worse that can happen'.
You get your life back? The support you will get in Rehab will make up for the non support you are getting at home.
Just pack your bags, call a cab if you must, tell husband you are leaving and be done with it.
CG was being nice, I would have b**** slapped him.. kidding
But you need to do this for YOU, not them...
The folks at Rehab will advise you of how to handle your home situation.
Right now you are all that matters.
Call them , tell the Rehab folks what is going on, see what they tell you. Couldn't hurt.
After you get out, I am sure your life will be more than it has ever been, and start squirrling away money for when you need it in the future be for whatever reasons.
Good luck
Brook
What are they going to do? Always think about 'what is the worse that can happen'.
You get your life back? The support you will get in Rehab will make up for the non support you are getting at home.
Just pack your bags, call a cab if you must, tell husband you are leaving and be done with it.
CG was being nice, I would have b**** slapped him.. kidding
But you need to do this for YOU, not them...
The folks at Rehab will advise you of how to handle your home situation.
Right now you are all that matters.
Call them , tell the Rehab folks what is going on, see what they tell you. Couldn't hurt.
After you get out, I am sure your life will be more than it has ever been, and start squirrling away money for when you need it in the future be for whatever reasons.
Good luck
Brook
Jily please listen to the advice given. Get to a Rehab. The amount of opiates you have taken needs medical attention. Liver enzymes need to be tested.
You will learn all about addiction. AA/NA meetings will be part of your program during your stay. You really learn a lot in rehab and the W/D is much safer and certainly more pleasant than C/T
Your husband will have to pick up the ball while your gone. DO NOT LET anyone influence your decision. Go to Rehab.
Jeff
You will learn all about addiction. AA/NA meetings will be part of your program during your stay. You really learn a lot in rehab and the W/D is much safer and certainly more pleasant than C/T
Your husband will have to pick up the ball while your gone. DO NOT LET anyone influence your decision. Go to Rehab.
Jeff
Daer Jilly;
I'm with e'one else - just go.
It is a safe place where there are none of the drugs that you are trying to get away from - well, they don't give you your DOC. If you have a Psychiatrist, call him and tell him your situation. If not, just call and then go and Psychiatrists are on staff at all rehabs. When I got clean in my 30's in Rehab, I kind of did it kicking and screaming - then it just takes longer so I settle dwn. You already are accepting so you have that going for you.. I learned so much from group therapy b/c like the people on this board, they will tell stories and it will sound like your life. That helped me - that I was not the only horrible Mother/Wife in the world.
It does help and they keep you on a schedule which makes you feel better. When the pills stopped working and I kept taking them, I isolated myself and that is bad.
I hope you go. it may save your life. This is your decision, not in-laws and not husband.
Be strong,
Love you, Jean
I'm with e'one else - just go.
It is a safe place where there are none of the drugs that you are trying to get away from - well, they don't give you your DOC. If you have a Psychiatrist, call him and tell him your situation. If not, just call and then go and Psychiatrists are on staff at all rehabs. When I got clean in my 30's in Rehab, I kind of did it kicking and screaming - then it just takes longer so I settle dwn. You already are accepting so you have that going for you.. I learned so much from group therapy b/c like the people on this board, they will tell stories and it will sound like your life. That helped me - that I was not the only horrible Mother/Wife in the world.
It does help and they keep you on a schedule which makes you feel better. When the pills stopped working and I kept taking them, I isolated myself and that is bad.
I hope you go. it may save your life. This is your decision, not in-laws and not husband.
Be strong,
Love you, Jean
I am not in a good mood, so please excuse this if it sounds snide - but where do you go to "check yourself in"? My son has had assessment after assessment and he is never deemed bad enough for in house treatment. He had another assessment this morning at 8AM and the counselor didn't show.
He had an assessment last week for a hospital that would have cost $24,000 for a 21 day stay. The cheaper place wouldn't accept the assessment from the previous hospital.
So, I am tired of people saying "so and so needs to go to rehab." Oh, yeah - try it. You can't be admitted w/o an assessment and it is difficult to afford treatment w/o insurance.
We are willing to pay a reasonable amount for my son's treatment, but not a years income. So, I understand why in-laws would be unwilling to do this.
He had an assessment last week for a hospital that would have cost $24,000 for a 21 day stay. The cheaper place wouldn't accept the assessment from the previous hospital.
So, I am tired of people saying "so and so needs to go to rehab." Oh, yeah - try it. You can't be admitted w/o an assessment and it is difficult to afford treatment w/o insurance.
We are willing to pay a reasonable amount for my son's treatment, but not a years income. So, I understand why in-laws would be unwilling to do this.
Amy... I can understand your frustration. It sometimes seems as though the people that are suppose to help, put the most roadblocks in our way. There are ways around it though. When I was assesed for treatment, I was in a bed 4 hours later. There are state run facilities that charge by what you can afford.
Your son is very lucky to have you and I hope that he knows that.
By the way:
NA and AA are free.
Cowgirl
Your son is very lucky to have you and I hope that he knows that.
By the way:
NA and AA are free.
Cowgirl
Amy,
I understand your frustration, but what is the reason for them not deeming your son 'bad enough' . Do you mind telling a little more about what they said about him?
What State are you in?
You seem like you are being more than proactive in your sons care and aggressive, so what is their reasoning?
Call your counties Dept of Mental Health, they have to take people who are addicts, suicidal, etc,,, It is what we pay taxes for. They see this all the time, and take people with no money, no homes, etc.
I am sure you have asked each 'place' what would they suggest for your son based on the assessment? They know of the State Hospitals, that charge on a sliding scale, you may have to travel a ways from home, or even go into another State, but who cares.
I would call your family doctor, your GYN, your local ER, in addition to the Rehabs you have already contacted, ASK them what they suggest and for a referrel as to who you can take your son based on his condition. These people know other Doctors, and or Facilities.
The Dept of Mental Health is where I would start first. I am surprised they didn't tell you to do this and you may have already.
Like Cowgirl said there are ways around the system, and it is sad that people even have to do that, but that is just the way it is.
Good Luck and post back how your making out.
Brook
Feel free to email me and I will be glad to help you research options in your state,
Brook_shire@yahoo.com
I understand your frustration, but what is the reason for them not deeming your son 'bad enough' . Do you mind telling a little more about what they said about him?
What State are you in?
You seem like you are being more than proactive in your sons care and aggressive, so what is their reasoning?
Call your counties Dept of Mental Health, they have to take people who are addicts, suicidal, etc,,, It is what we pay taxes for. They see this all the time, and take people with no money, no homes, etc.
I am sure you have asked each 'place' what would they suggest for your son based on the assessment? They know of the State Hospitals, that charge on a sliding scale, you may have to travel a ways from home, or even go into another State, but who cares.
I would call your family doctor, your GYN, your local ER, in addition to the Rehabs you have already contacted, ASK them what they suggest and for a referrel as to who you can take your son based on his condition. These people know other Doctors, and or Facilities.
The Dept of Mental Health is where I would start first. I am surprised they didn't tell you to do this and you may have already.
Like Cowgirl said there are ways around the system, and it is sad that people even have to do that, but that is just the way it is.
Good Luck and post back how your making out.
Brook
Feel free to email me and I will be glad to help you research options in your state,
Brook_shire@yahoo.com
amy,
in order to help or at least try to help I need more info... like what state you are in... how old your son is.. is he still using .. what and how much... do you attend his assessment/intake... and like someone else says do you know what the reasoning is.... or is it that it is not that he isnt bad enough or that a sliding fee cant be agreed upon?..... I am more than willing to try to help but I need more information....
lilly
this is most definately a matter of life and death... I was taking at the end of my last run.. over 30 pills aday.... that is a lot of tylenol on the liver.. I am very fortunatel and I didnt wake up one day and start taking that amount.. it just got that high over time and you will increase your demands too until you change to something else... that is why this is a diseasae.... go to rehab/detox.. worry about your life today and take care of tommorrow when it comes... your husband will have two choices.. he can respect you in the end for taking care of your business to be a better wife and mother... or he can not.... it is that simple.. but the counselors in the rehab can help educate him and the rest of the family regarding the fact that this a big deal and that it is a disease....
I know this is hard... but you have a choice...
I wish you luck ... I will keep you in my prayers..
Teresa
in order to help or at least try to help I need more info... like what state you are in... how old your son is.. is he still using .. what and how much... do you attend his assessment/intake... and like someone else says do you know what the reasoning is.... or is it that it is not that he isnt bad enough or that a sliding fee cant be agreed upon?..... I am more than willing to try to help but I need more information....
lilly
this is most definately a matter of life and death... I was taking at the end of my last run.. over 30 pills aday.... that is a lot of tylenol on the liver.. I am very fortunatel and I didnt wake up one day and start taking that amount.. it just got that high over time and you will increase your demands too until you change to something else... that is why this is a diseasae.... go to rehab/detox.. worry about your life today and take care of tommorrow when it comes... your husband will have two choices.. he can respect you in the end for taking care of your business to be a better wife and mother... or he can not.... it is that simple.. but the counselors in the rehab can help educate him and the rest of the family regarding the fact that this a big deal and that it is a disease....
I know this is hard... but you have a choice...
I wish you luck ... I will keep you in my prayers..
Teresa
