how is everyone? I have missed talking to most of you recently, but hope things in your lives are good.
Today is about funerals here. My young friend (32) who is an addict in denial lost her dad yesterday to liver cancer. It was rather sudden, he was just diagnosed last week due to some very incompetent doctors. She gets a huge inheritance now and becomes a rich woman, and that scares the hell out of me, as I worry her drug use will escalate. Her husband quit his job yesterday before the body was cold.
My daughter has a college friend whose parents were both killed Sunday when another driver ran a red light. Tragic and very sad. You may have heard about this one on the news as her dad was a former football star at UGA.......last name Golden. I hope they don't discover that the driver who hit them was drunk.
I am crippled with back pain this morning and may have to fit a drs. appt. in with everything else happening today. Very strange, as I have not injured it and think it must be kidneys or something. Again, you ladies who live with pain daily amaze me. Don't know how you get anything done.
I hope you all have a great day, and remember to be good to yourselves and those you love, they may not be here tomorrow.
Hey Carol,
Damn, what a day you have planned today. Sorry you have to go through this. Good luck at the Doctors today, make sure you fit in that appointment. You don't want to play around with your health. (Listen to me, I'm the last to talk on this one).
Damn, what a day you have planned today. Sorry you have to go through this. Good luck at the Doctors today, make sure you fit in that appointment. You don't want to play around with your health. (Listen to me, I'm the last to talk on this one).
Morning Carol,
Just getting ready to shut down.....
Will be keeping you in my thoughts today....
And make sure you get to the doctors, ok.....No letting it go!
(((((((Hugs)))))))
Love,
Tina
Just getting ready to shut down.....
Will be keeping you in my thoughts today....
And make sure you get to the doctors, ok.....No letting it go!
(((((((Hugs)))))))
Love,
Tina
Morning Liz and Carol,
Thats horrible news Carol, that whole death in 3s really rings true most of the time. Mike did say something about the man you're talkling about, he watches every sports show possible, so its got to be the same person.
I hate to say it, but your worries about your friend are valid. My mom left me a decent chunk of change and a lot of it went to drugs. I'm ashamed to admit that, but its true.
Hope you feel better. And Liz, take your own advice as well....you both take care of yourselves.
Redd
Good Morning Redd,
How have you been feeling? I have to be leaving soon to get to outpatient. I have to be honest. I have been messing up with that. I skipped the past 3 appointments, 4 if I count the individual. Going back today though and should catch hell about it. Especially when the counselor I have today is a real B*tch.
It's hard for me most mornings to get up, I spend the entire night up because I can't sleep. To get up with a headache because of lack of sleep and get to this thing gets to be too much at times. No excuses though, I have to get my arse out and stop isolating is the bottom line. I'm just my worst enemy sometimes. If anybody needs to know how to screw up your life, come talk to me. I'm a pro at it.
How have you been feeling? I have to be leaving soon to get to outpatient. I have to be honest. I have been messing up with that. I skipped the past 3 appointments, 4 if I count the individual. Going back today though and should catch hell about it. Especially when the counselor I have today is a real B*tch.
It's hard for me most mornings to get up, I spend the entire night up because I can't sleep. To get up with a headache because of lack of sleep and get to this thing gets to be too much at times. No excuses though, I have to get my arse out and stop isolating is the bottom line. I'm just my worst enemy sometimes. If anybody needs to know how to screw up your life, come talk to me. I'm a pro at it.
I know about getting out of our own way Liz. If I had not got out of my way I don't know what would have happened to me. And its really hard to do that, I mean we live with ourselves and thoughts, but you're right, we are our worst enemy. So get your butt in there today and take the heat form her, its worth it. You'll feel better once you get another day under your belt, and a productive day is all the better.
xx
Redd
good morning everyone...gosh I slept like a lamb last night...in my bed even...guess that's what happens when you get up and 3 am and don't go to bed till 10...
it's gorgeous outside...we had a frost and my yankee blood just loves this cold weather...
Carol, I am so sorry about all the tragedies that have happened lately...it is so true about the death's in 3's...last year it was Kenneth on Oct 23rd, my father in law on November 18th and then my husbands aunt in early January...granted there was some time in between, but when it's happening to you, it just seems like it's never ending. Poor Tyler celebrates his 19th birthday on the 18th, and it will be the first anniversarsy of my F-I-L's death...last year we didn't celebrate his birthday until 3 days later, there was so much going on....this year we will do better.
Hope everyone is well this cool October morning!
it's gorgeous outside...we had a frost and my yankee blood just loves this cold weather...
Carol, I am so sorry about all the tragedies that have happened lately...it is so true about the death's in 3's...last year it was Kenneth on Oct 23rd, my father in law on November 18th and then my husbands aunt in early January...granted there was some time in between, but when it's happening to you, it just seems like it's never ending. Poor Tyler celebrates his 19th birthday on the 18th, and it will be the first anniversarsy of my F-I-L's death...last year we didn't celebrate his birthday until 3 days later, there was so much going on....this year we will do better.
Hope everyone is well this cool October morning!
Dear Carol:
I am so sorry, 3 people that you know and gone just like that. I can't help but feel for this young girl who lost both parents at once and she's an addict, too. We know our brains just aren't our real brains when we are using. She will have to feel this pain one day and I don't know when but it will be bad.
You are so sweet, I'm sure you will be there if she will let you. This is traumatic for your daughter, too I'm sure. It's like - these things do happen.
Still, please try and take care of yourself.
Love and my prayers to all.
Jean
I am so sorry, 3 people that you know and gone just like that. I can't help but feel for this young girl who lost both parents at once and she's an addict, too. We know our brains just aren't our real brains when we are using. She will have to feel this pain one day and I don't know when but it will be bad.
You are so sweet, I'm sure you will be there if she will let you. This is traumatic for your daughter, too I'm sure. It's like - these things do happen.
Still, please try and take care of yourself.
Love and my prayers to all.
Jean
Hi Carol,
SO sorry to hear about all the death you're dealing with today. And the back pain as well. Yes, it's tough living with it. Even tougher to not see pain as an instant way of getting a script. Something hurts, that's where my head goes. I've been wanting to comment to you how impressed I am with the progress you're making in your sober life. You've been a real role model for me. I respect your honesty at all times. Was really impressed when you talked about the sub the other day. I thank you for being a blueprint of sorts for someone else who has struggled.
Redd, Janet, liz good morning to you. Glad to see you're doing well. Liz, sounds like a rough one, but I bet once you face it you'll feel great about it. Fear really holds us back. I too isolate terribly. Go face your new life and the people helping you to get there. You'll be glad you did. Beck
SO sorry to hear about all the death you're dealing with today. And the back pain as well. Yes, it's tough living with it. Even tougher to not see pain as an instant way of getting a script. Something hurts, that's where my head goes. I've been wanting to comment to you how impressed I am with the progress you're making in your sober life. You've been a real role model for me. I respect your honesty at all times. Was really impressed when you talked about the sub the other day. I thank you for being a blueprint of sorts for someone else who has struggled.
Redd, Janet, liz good morning to you. Glad to see you're doing well. Liz, sounds like a rough one, but I bet once you face it you'll feel great about it. Fear really holds us back. I too isolate terribly. Go face your new life and the people helping you to get there. You'll be glad you did. Beck
