Looks like my area may get some more snow today....I gotta say it was nice but now Im looking SO forward to FISHING.Goodness I swear & said this to a friend...if I didnt have a family Id LOVE to work on a barge & be on beloved river ALWAYS.
So is anyone around I guess I could use a friend????
Hey MJ
Hey DANNY....lISTEN CAN YOU TELL ME iLL BE OK?Just be a friend please?I feel so friggin lost!!!!
Kiddo- Of course you will.
You know, somedays, I had felt like all was lost..really..and it wasn't..I know..it's a hopeless feeling
You know, somedays, I had felt like all was lost..really..and it wasn't..I know..it's a hopeless feeling
Of course you will be ok....
Well if you let yourself be.
And then maybe I should ask what you need to be ok with?????
Love Yah!
Well if you let yourself be.
And then maybe I should ask what you need to be ok with?????
Love Yah!
are you ok mj ?
whats wrong?
hugs
whats wrong?
hugs
Goos morning all!
MJ, you will be more than OK, I promise!
Hope y'all have a good day today.
MJ, you will be more than OK, I promise!
Hope y'all have a good day today.
Tina I know Ill be ok because under all the sadness I am after all a tuff woman I just am feeling lost,& so much more I just WONT put on here.No Im not abusing,Im at 8mg of Sub but I just have so much going on personal wise.I realize how far Ive come because even 1 year ago if I felt like this Sub or no Sub Id abuse that or just say "the Hell with it"& binge.But Ive come to far damn it.I wish I could see my therapist today but I wont see him again till next week
I suppose we all have these weak moments....Im just not use to them
molly
Thumper huny thank you & maybe Ill jot you in a bit.Right now my mind still feels so??????Confused...But thank you your such a beautiful woman.
I suppose we all have these weak moments....Im just not use to them
molly
Thumper huny thank you & maybe Ill jot you in a bit.Right now my mind still feels so??????Confused...But thank you your such a beautiful woman.
MJ, maybe some exercise
or a good poo
will help?
Don't forget that I love you!
or a good poo
will help?
Don't forget that I love you!
Smiling, lost is my middle name lately....
But in a different way, and my f*ck it tends to stop time from moving forward as it should. Boy can that wall go up fast.....
But everything always will be fine, in time. Maybe a bit of redirection for you to today, crank up the stereo, maybe do some writing to let out what is bugging you....Anything but staying to focused the sadness.
Thinking of you and will write later in email.
Morning to Danny, Janet Thumper. Hope all of you, You to MJ have a wonderful day.
Love,
Tina
But in a different way, and my f*ck it tends to stop time from moving forward as it should. Boy can that wall go up fast.....
But everything always will be fine, in time. Maybe a bit of redirection for you to today, crank up the stereo, maybe do some writing to let out what is bugging you....Anything but staying to focused the sadness.
Thinking of you and will write later in email.
Morning to Danny, Janet Thumper. Hope all of you, You to MJ have a wonderful day.
Love,
Tina
molly
goos! what is going on today sweetie? you sound down in the dumps, i have those days too where for no apparent reason or cause i will just be depressed, sooo what do we do?
pray to our higher power, which in my case is God
look at and count our blessings
list gratitudes
know that spring is around the corner and that means we get to go outside more and get some sunlight into our faces which stimulates the pineal gland in our eyes, this process affects depression i.e.light boxes for home use when sun is limitedl may be a little cabin fever.
are you missing those kitties at petsmart??
concentrate today on anne and amanda and how liucky we are today to wake up to see our beloveds faces... so many people this morning cant do that, i think about that terrible accident here that happened on feb 11 where 5 teenagers died... and i THANK GOD so much that today i was able to tell my sons i love you and be safe as they walked out the door today and know and pray that God activate His legion of Holy angels to walk with my sons and protect them.
also i woke up today to be able to see and spend time with my 2nd love of life and thats my animals!!!
i havent really been craving drugs but lately i just have this feeling to want to just "tie one on" if you know what i mean.
it was hard to attend the last 3 social engagements i went to and wasnt able to be like all the normal people there who were able to temporarily escape reality and feel good and party but yet they are able to return back to normal behavior and i am not. i miss that and its hard for me to know that i can never do that again,
there are so many things wrong in my life that need to be fixed and i just dont know where to start, when i got out of rehab in july it was like ok i am gonna go home and start getting things organized in my life and here it is feb and things are still not in order. when i get caught up, is what i am constantly seeking and its not happening.
i am procrastinating and isolating again and it takes a great deal of effort on my part to prioritize things today and do it! but then i am so overwhelmed and exhausted that i can't so i guess i need to be grateful today, give it to my higher power and start some step work! i am on step one and got distracted from holiday stress and fight with my sponsor.
i have finally after much pressure from my therapist found a possible candidate as a sponsor, man that is one hard thing for me is to look for a sponsor. sooo i didnt mean to make the goos this long but i was hoping molly that you would know you are not alone in this fight called life. i love your kitty with the head phones soooo cute.. where do you find those kittie pictures? i mailed you my picture yesterday so be looking for that to arrive. God bless all you goosers!
jewels
goos! what is going on today sweetie? you sound down in the dumps, i have those days too where for no apparent reason or cause i will just be depressed, sooo what do we do?
pray to our higher power, which in my case is God
look at and count our blessings
list gratitudes
know that spring is around the corner and that means we get to go outside more and get some sunlight into our faces which stimulates the pineal gland in our eyes, this process affects depression i.e.light boxes for home use when sun is limitedl may be a little cabin fever.
are you missing those kitties at petsmart??
concentrate today on anne and amanda and how liucky we are today to wake up to see our beloveds faces... so many people this morning cant do that, i think about that terrible accident here that happened on feb 11 where 5 teenagers died... and i THANK GOD so much that today i was able to tell my sons i love you and be safe as they walked out the door today and know and pray that God activate His legion of Holy angels to walk with my sons and protect them.
also i woke up today to be able to see and spend time with my 2nd love of life and thats my animals!!!
i havent really been craving drugs but lately i just have this feeling to want to just "tie one on" if you know what i mean.
it was hard to attend the last 3 social engagements i went to and wasnt able to be like all the normal people there who were able to temporarily escape reality and feel good and party but yet they are able to return back to normal behavior and i am not. i miss that and its hard for me to know that i can never do that again,
there are so many things wrong in my life that need to be fixed and i just dont know where to start, when i got out of rehab in july it was like ok i am gonna go home and start getting things organized in my life and here it is feb and things are still not in order. when i get caught up, is what i am constantly seeking and its not happening.
i am procrastinating and isolating again and it takes a great deal of effort on my part to prioritize things today and do it! but then i am so overwhelmed and exhausted that i can't so i guess i need to be grateful today, give it to my higher power and start some step work! i am on step one and got distracted from holiday stress and fight with my sponsor.
i have finally after much pressure from my therapist found a possible candidate as a sponsor, man that is one hard thing for me is to look for a sponsor. sooo i didnt mean to make the goos this long but i was hoping molly that you would know you are not alone in this fight called life. i love your kitty with the head phones soooo cute.. where do you find those kittie pictures? i mailed you my picture yesterday so be looking for that to arrive. God bless all you goosers!
jewels
Hey MJ. Smile dear... I love you!
Thank you janet I just went back & reread & laughed!!!
Hey stacey how are you feeling sweety???
Hey stacey how are you feeling sweety???
JANET you crack me up!!
that is defiantely me straining on the ole toliet bowl!!! how did you know?
i am so sick of being constipated from the sub. i have tried every suggestion out there and the only thing i think is going to solve it is to go off sub and there is no way i am ready to do that yet.
my counselor keeps saying you will taper off when you are strong enough in your program...... i am just now starting stepwork so theres a begining.
hey carol
you asked me to let you know what the doctor said about the swelling in my ankles..
3 things cause edema:
1. heart problems
2. kidney problems
3. vein problems
the doctor and i googled suboxone together at the appointment and only 9 % of patients taking sub experienced swelling so he doesnt think its sub related.
since BOTH LEGS are swollen he doesnt think blood clot
he doesnt think its heart problems and obviously its not conjestive heart failure
he ordered blood work to check kidney function, liver enzymes etc
he thinks its vein related, varicose, spider veins all that good stuff from being on my feet in my jobs past and present,
so i am supposed to get the blood work, go the the medical supply store and purchase and wear support hose at all times, keep feet elevated when at home, practice going up and down on the balls of my feet when i am standing for long periods of time like at work. hopefuly this will help.
he ordered a nerve function test for a diagnosis of carpal tunnel in left hand.
now i need to get to a podiatrist for the heel spur! whew! a lot to do, this aging sucks!
support hose and grandma shoes with orthotics in them... boy i will be the fashion statement! gratitide julie, gratitude.
Jules, I hope that they figure out what is wrong with you.
My pain management dr gave me some Senokot S samples for constipation and they have been helping out a bit. I went to buy some and they were like $15 for a bottle, so I bought Walmart brand stool softener and vegetable laxative separately and have been taking those in the morning, it has helped me out quite a bit. Have you tried them?
My pain management dr gave me some Senokot S samples for constipation and they have been helping out a bit. I went to buy some and they were like $15 for a bottle, so I bought Walmart brand stool softener and vegetable laxative separately and have been taking those in the morning, it has helped me out quite a bit. Have you tried them?
MJ I am much better.. that stomach virus really screwed me up. I was so sore in my rubs from getting ill and praying to the porcelain god as gina described it. lol
yesterday was my first day back to work and i'm so happy i'm back!!!
Write me soon. Let me know what's up.
stac
yesterday was my first day back to work and i'm so happy i'm back!!!
Write me soon. Let me know what's up.
stac
Mj,Whats going on? Are you feeling any better. I'll tell you,youre not alone hon,it seems i get like this more lately than ever before.I think the weather is a big contributer,but family and everyday stresses play a big part too.
I've still got your phone number,i have nothing going on tonight,i would love to give you a call,if night time is alright with you.I sure could use a friend to talk to and it sounds like you need the same.
I hope all the rest of you are getting through and doing the best you can.Some days just arent all that good,but tomorrow always seems better.The things we get so upset over,or stressed over,find a way of lessening somehow,thank god.Take care,hope to talk more to all tonight(i will call Sabrina if you feel up to it)email me,i should be home by 3 today.~KIM
I've still got your phone number,i have nothing going on tonight,i would love to give you a call,if night time is alright with you.I sure could use a friend to talk to and it sounds like you need the same.
I hope all the rest of you are getting through and doing the best you can.Some days just arent all that good,but tomorrow always seems better.The things we get so upset over,or stressed over,find a way of lessening somehow,thank god.Take care,hope to talk more to all tonight(i will call Sabrina if you feel up to it)email me,i should be home by 3 today.~KIM
yes janet i have tried everything otc for constipation,stool softeners, enemas, suppositories, they only provide immediate relief and then afterwards i am bound up again...then i went on to do activa yogurt, flaxseed, plum smart juice, only temporary relief then doctor prescribed zelnorm and activa, nothing.... had to do an osmo prep last month, the procedure one does before a colonoscopy, that worked great to clean out all that bound up crap so to speak but that is only a one time shot. it was so bad in nov and dec i had to have an x ray of my abdomen and that revealed a lot of hard mass in there, got that all out with osmo prep. so this is the dilema how long can one be on a laxative? i do take prescription gylcolax 17 grams of powder in juice and that works great but i tend to not want to do it daily as i know that is not good. sub is the culprit but its a lifesaver for my addiction.
why are you taking laxatives janet? are you constipated? you are not on sub right?
also did a colon cleansing regimen, nothing.
si i researched opiate induced constipation today and it says everything i already know and tried, i want to do chantix too but the side effect of that is constipation! oh, what a dilema. i think i need to make an appt with my gastro doctor, we have just been talking over the phone thru his nurse.does anyone know anything about laxative use and is it ok to take on a daily basis? julie
why are you taking laxatives janet? are you constipated? you are not on sub right?
also did a colon cleansing regimen, nothing.
si i researched opiate induced constipation today and it says everything i already know and tried, i want to do chantix too but the side effect of that is constipation! oh, what a dilema. i think i need to make an appt with my gastro doctor, we have just been talking over the phone thru his nurse.does anyone know anything about laxative use and is it ok to take on a daily basis? julie
I've been suffering ever since I went on the Chantix. I want to go off, but I am going to finish up what I have, another 2 months worth....I am still having cig thoughts, so I want to make sure that I have at least 6 months of not smoking before I quit. I also take Ultram for pain, not on a daily basis, as needed, but enough that it contributes to the constipation.
chantix is constipating too?????
do you really think this medication helped you quit smoking??? julie
do you really think this medication helped you quit smoking??? julie
