There's an analogy of the J-walking pedestrian who can't seem to stop J-walking, despite getting thumped by passing vehicles. He keeps doing it, suffering ever-more dire consequences, including broken arms, cracked skull, broken legs. He winds up in a sanitarium to keep from J-walking but, immediately upon release, finds himself J-walking again--and getting whacked again. He's eventually run over by a fire truck, breaking his back.
This was the topic of today's meeting: The insanity of the alcoholic doing the same thing and expecting different results. Over and over and over.
Someone likened it to walking down an alley, opening a door, and getting whumped in the head with a bat. And doing it again. And again. And the bat would get bigger, and then there were two, and so forth and so on.
When I drank in the latter stages of my addiction I had lost my power of choice long before I wanted to stop drinking. I began to drink merely to stay, "normal," if there were such a thing, and my maintenance plan required consumption daily--and (if I could manage it) to leave the workplace early enough to get buzzed enough to feel good. I never came to work loaded--I'd just find somewhere else I had to be. It was always where ever I was drinking at the time.
As an alcoholic, I lost my ability to choose to the insanity a long, LONG time before I recognized or admitted the consequences were sneaking up on me, the club was getting bigger, and I simply couldn't function anymore. I had broken my back and become helpless, hopeless, and heartless. And all I could think was, "I'm going to drink and have fun today."
I have come to believe that AA and a solid 12 Step program is a better way for me today. I am a grateful, recovering, blessed alcoholic.
Skg mate
You know im really glad that bugga swinging the bat wasnt in the major leagues cause he would of been on steroids and may of killed ya.....your posts and recovery are cool and always get the part of me that thinks positively thinking and i thank you for that and also if you see the bstard with the bat ever, let me know cause he broke a few on my head as well LMAO
light and love Zac
You know im really glad that bugga swinging the bat wasnt in the major leagues cause he would of been on steroids and may of killed ya.....your posts and recovery are cool and always get the part of me that thinks positively thinking and i thank you for that and also if you see the bstard with the bat ever, let me know cause he broke a few on my head as well LMAO
light and love Zac
