hi all,well were do i start.been on the gear 10 year,im 27 yo now.been clean many times,always fcuked up.im 13 hours in2 my cold turkey.all i can think of is the morning coming so i can score.im not going to tho.did my cold turkey a couple of month back,that was off the methadome,5 an half weeks that lasted,at least i no this 1 wont be so bad
ill update up all.
im drinking my fluids,just eaten an apple,had a lilttle bit of tea.
so im doing ok up 2 now.
only time will tell..
all the best for the rest.
doing my nite shift.
i had my last fix 3.30 pm yest/day (monday}.its now getting on for 2 in the morning here {wed/day} now.
need sum1 2 talk 2 im getting worse,im turkeying pretty bad at the mo.
need sum1 2 talk 2 im getting worse,im turkeying pretty bad at the mo.
Hye Paul,
Bryn here......recovering heroin addict.....it'll be two years in May....like you said almost you know what to expect, and this'll be the one time ya get it right.
Absolutely empathize.....one trick I taught myself on like kick 150 is that I have to just accept it, and stop stomping around like a four year old......then the real tough part comes in.....how to STAY clean......you said it too....you did this.
Ya know the drill....only this time change whatever triggered you to pick up....I am not NA, but a firm believer in that quote: We pick up before we pick up.
That helped me tremendously......as I'd catch myself thinging "JUST ONE MORE".....you know that too.
There's great people here, and they are supportive.....I'm proud of you...and I know you don't want to hear this....BUT BUT BUT.....it will pass...keep yourself in the house if possible.....well that worked for me.
The big time thing I learned the hard way......O.K. if your first kick say.....you break and pick up say day seven.....well you just imprinted in your brain.....Good he'll break and feed the machine on day seven.....well of course day seven next kick was even tougher......I mean I saw that myself...that's why you'll hear people who have been clean off dope about 10 years, and they pick up and tell the horror stories of just how much worst it was this time around.
Usually there's people on here.....say the UK.....when they have insomnia we are on here, and I tell you it HELPS to VENT.....so keep posting....O.K.?
Fill us in or just hang on here....keeps the mind busy.
I'm proud of you......you just keep going.....hope ya get at least a twenty minute cat nap.......for me the insomnia was the worst....glad to meet you.
Bryn here......recovering heroin addict.....it'll be two years in May....like you said almost you know what to expect, and this'll be the one time ya get it right.
Absolutely empathize.....one trick I taught myself on like kick 150 is that I have to just accept it, and stop stomping around like a four year old......then the real tough part comes in.....how to STAY clean......you said it too....you did this.
Ya know the drill....only this time change whatever triggered you to pick up....I am not NA, but a firm believer in that quote: We pick up before we pick up.
That helped me tremendously......as I'd catch myself thinging "JUST ONE MORE".....you know that too.
There's great people here, and they are supportive.....I'm proud of you...and I know you don't want to hear this....BUT BUT BUT.....it will pass...keep yourself in the house if possible.....well that worked for me.
The big time thing I learned the hard way......O.K. if your first kick say.....you break and pick up say day seven.....well you just imprinted in your brain.....Good he'll break and feed the machine on day seven.....well of course day seven next kick was even tougher......I mean I saw that myself...that's why you'll hear people who have been clean off dope about 10 years, and they pick up and tell the horror stories of just how much worst it was this time around.
Usually there's people on here.....say the UK.....when they have insomnia we are on here, and I tell you it HELPS to VENT.....so keep posting....O.K.?
Fill us in or just hang on here....keeps the mind busy.
I'm proud of you......you just keep going.....hope ya get at least a twenty minute cat nap.......for me the insomnia was the worst....glad to meet you.
thanks,yeah im sur staying in the house,dont like going out while doing my turkey..hard enuff going down stairs..i was meant to start this last week..i brought 54 valium an 114 tamazapam,stupid thing was when i got pilled up i went out for a bag..wish i had thoses tablets now..
