Thanks to you all for your encourageing words, last nite went from bad to worst.My husband and me had no sleep last night as she kept ringing the door bell, in the end I took the batteries out.
This morning she was meeting her drug worker and I agreed they could meet at my house as she was going to take as urine sample to prove to us she was of the H bad mistake.the sample showed she had been using she said it was wrong , but I know that the sample was telling the truth,
She was abusive to her support worker and said she did not have a habit ,things were getting out of hand so I asked her to leave."I hav'nt got anywhere to go"my daughter said and her support worker offered to take her to find place in a hosle or B&B , she refused and said she had no money for food.I gave here 7 and escorted here to the door what a show she made of here self.
I shut the door and she started to kick it and said she would leave if I gave her 20 which I refused.I called the police or she would have kicked my door in , she was arrested and taken by the police her friends want give their address has she has been pinshing off them.
Now she has to spend the night in the cells and appear in court tomorrow,I feel so sad for here and me and my husband.She is not to come into our street if she has bail.and I feel so guilty as part of me is so relieved that she can't come near the house, I wish there was no such thing as HEROINE I dont really know my daughter yet I only know the addict
Lots of Hugs for your kind words coul'nt
go on with out them
Welsh Ladyxx
If it is any conselation I think you did the right thing. There were times when I should of called the police on my partner Kevin but was too afraid to do so. Maybe if he was arrested he wouldnt be where he is today.
A person on heroin is not the person they were without heroin and unfortunately as frustrating as it is they aint ever gonna be the same person again.
Heroin messes with your mind and changes the person you are and the way you think. I aint saying that heroin addicts dont care about anything else but when they need a hit nothing will stand in there way.
It makes me so sad to read the stories on here. My partner took his own life after battling to get clean from heroin for 9 months. He had been clean for years prior but chose heroin when things got tough.
Even though it ended the way it did and I love and miss Kevin greatly a part of me is at ease that he cant hurt anyone else, inlcuding himself. Even when clean from heroin I think the person is always punished for the addiction and heroin is never cleared from thier mind. Life is never the same.
God bless you. Thinking of you and feel your pain. I just hope that things can get better for you.
Luv and hugs...Lyndsay xx
A person on heroin is not the person they were without heroin and unfortunately as frustrating as it is they aint ever gonna be the same person again.
Heroin messes with your mind and changes the person you are and the way you think. I aint saying that heroin addicts dont care about anything else but when they need a hit nothing will stand in there way.
It makes me so sad to read the stories on here. My partner took his own life after battling to get clean from heroin for 9 months. He had been clean for years prior but chose heroin when things got tough.
Even though it ended the way it did and I love and miss Kevin greatly a part of me is at ease that he cant hurt anyone else, inlcuding himself. Even when clean from heroin I think the person is always punished for the addiction and heroin is never cleared from thier mind. Life is never the same.
God bless you. Thinking of you and feel your pain. I just hope that things can get better for you.
Luv and hugs...Lyndsay xx
Good evening welsh lady ~
I've been reading your story and just wanted to drop by to say I understand how hard these choices have been for you, but you are doing right by your daughter and by the rest of your family - have to take care of yourself in order to help her when she's ready. I also understand your relief that she can't come around - I remember the days when I thought I'd be relieved if my daughter didn't survive her self-destructive behavior. There was so much guilt and shame associated with these feelings that I really thought it was about being a bad parent - who would wish their own child not to survive? But my real wish was not to have to see her killing herself slowly and to just have be done if that's what was to be.
I'll say a few prayers for your daughter and for you. I think you are a very committed mother and I admire your strength.
Peace~MomNMore
I've been reading your story and just wanted to drop by to say I understand how hard these choices have been for you, but you are doing right by your daughter and by the rest of your family - have to take care of yourself in order to help her when she's ready. I also understand your relief that she can't come around - I remember the days when I thought I'd be relieved if my daughter didn't survive her self-destructive behavior. There was so much guilt and shame associated with these feelings that I really thought it was about being a bad parent - who would wish their own child not to survive? But my real wish was not to have to see her killing herself slowly and to just have be done if that's what was to be.
I'll say a few prayers for your daughter and for you. I think you are a very committed mother and I admire your strength.
Peace~MomNMore
Welsh Lady,
Your pain has to be so tremendous...........we wrech havoc and mayhem.......and our loved ones have to pay the price.........I'm really feeling so bad for ya.............BUT I too think ya did the right thing.
If it helps at all..........I did the same things...........BLACKMAIL.......give me the money and I will LEAVE.......she's desperate and nobody else is gonna cave to her.............we go to the ones love us most...........and act like a four year old throwing tantrums.
Last time I did that..........I couldn't believe my own mother told me OUT.......get OUT............I went plain bizerkker............cause I knew then that was that and I'd be on the street...........people can only take so much....and you did all you could have done.
Maybe this is the time........ya did the right thing........it may wake her up.....I sure hope so..........thinking of you and your hubby and your daughter.......none of this is your fault...........NONE..........please, please don't blame yourself.
Here's to getting your daughter back.............she IS in there..........she IS!
Your pain has to be so tremendous...........we wrech havoc and mayhem.......and our loved ones have to pay the price.........I'm really feeling so bad for ya.............BUT I too think ya did the right thing.
If it helps at all..........I did the same things...........BLACKMAIL.......give me the money and I will LEAVE.......she's desperate and nobody else is gonna cave to her.............we go to the ones love us most...........and act like a four year old throwing tantrums.
Last time I did that..........I couldn't believe my own mother told me OUT.......get OUT............I went plain bizerkker............cause I knew then that was that and I'd be on the street...........people can only take so much....and you did all you could have done.
Maybe this is the time........ya did the right thing........it may wake her up.....I sure hope so..........thinking of you and your hubby and your daughter.......none of this is your fault...........NONE..........please, please don't blame yourself.
Here's to getting your daughter back.............she IS in there..........she IS!
Dear Welsh Lady,
My heart breaks for you as a Mom,I cant imagine the pain you feel,but as an addict., I did the same to my parents. I just couldn't see it. You are feeling conflicted now, tough love is hard, but, it is sometimes the only choice you have. You are doing the right thing for your daughter..My thoughts and prayers are with you. Keep well, you deserve it.
Posting here with the others that have been thru similar things with their kids
will give you a shoulder to lean on, sounds like you need one. Be well and be strong,
Lucky
My heart breaks for you as a Mom,I cant imagine the pain you feel,but as an addict., I did the same to my parents. I just couldn't see it. You are feeling conflicted now, tough love is hard, but, it is sometimes the only choice you have. You are doing the right thing for your daughter..My thoughts and prayers are with you. Keep well, you deserve it.
Posting here with the others that have been thru similar things with their kids
will give you a shoulder to lean on, sounds like you need one. Be well and be strong,
Lucky
..Welsh Lady..
..I once knew a man n wife who were relieved to know their son was in prison
and not out on the streets getting up to god knows what ? or where the hell he was ? or where he was sleeping ?..because while he was in prison they knew where he was, knowing he's eating and had a bed to sleep in, and hopefully cleaning himself up etc etc..even thou they loved him..they knew when he was on the street he would only be thieving,using,fighting, coming round there house daily begging for money or nicking stuff from their house, he was in such a mess n pulling so much crap on them n other people that it broke their hearts, thats why they were relieved he was inside and away from trouble and away from hurting the ones who loved him..they just could'nt take the daily cycle of worrying or even waiting for that knock on the door from the police for what ever reason or even worse,that he's dead ?..i don't know personally how you feel but i would guess it's gut wrenching to have to turn your daughter away and to call the police and also knowing what state she's got herself into..and you did what you did for your own reasons..maybe one day your daughter will find the strength to get herself some help with her addiction and live a life free from it..in the meantime all you can do is love from a distance n hope but also to take care of you and your health stresswise..Robbie..
..I once knew a man n wife who were relieved to know their son was in prison
and not out on the streets getting up to god knows what ? or where the hell he was ? or where he was sleeping ?..because while he was in prison they knew where he was, knowing he's eating and had a bed to sleep in, and hopefully cleaning himself up etc etc..even thou they loved him..they knew when he was on the street he would only be thieving,using,fighting, coming round there house daily begging for money or nicking stuff from their house, he was in such a mess n pulling so much crap on them n other people that it broke their hearts, thats why they were relieved he was inside and away from trouble and away from hurting the ones who loved him..they just could'nt take the daily cycle of worrying or even waiting for that knock on the door from the police for what ever reason or even worse,that he's dead ?..i don't know personally how you feel but i would guess it's gut wrenching to have to turn your daughter away and to call the police and also knowing what state she's got herself into..and you did what you did for your own reasons..maybe one day your daughter will find the strength to get herself some help with her addiction and live a life free from it..in the meantime all you can do is love from a distance n hope but also to take care of you and your health stresswise..Robbie..
