hello people some might know me ,im pretty messed up right now ,i just dont know where i should be writing too,everone one here seems too normal for me too be fking you all up by memories of the feel ings we have being an heroin addict sorryu
Hi Julzrobz,
This is a heroin site and it sounds just like where you should be. I think you've been here before, haven't you? How are you doing? What's up? Stick around and post!
Beck
This is a heroin site and it sounds just like where you should be. I think you've been here before, haven't you? How are you doing? What's up? Stick around and post!
Beck
Julz hey there...I mean HAIA.......I loved that title......like a cross between Hey and Hi......that greeting is "normal".
"NORMAL IS A CYCLE ON A WASHING MACHINE"
Man, Julz we may be clean but normal? Shoot, I'm speaking for myself, but normal?????????? Naw, no way as in "normal" how others show themselves in public. Dang, some of the supposedly most normal people out there are the most screwed up or are living a lie or are posrers. Yes, POSERS!!!!! They are everywhere. Every time I walk out my door I see so called "normals". Yet, I can hear through my rowhouse walls they got alot crazier a*s things happening then I ever did even on drugs.
Please come on. Share. Messed up??????? You have it in you somewhere that you'd like to change. I know for a fact because we've all shared the backward stuff we did while using. Even pre-using.
You're in with good peeps here, Julz. If we dared judge ya then we are hypocritical, and I have not met one person here EVER judged anyone. I hope you feel comfortable enough to come back on. That's why we are here.
"NORMAL IS A CYCLE ON A WASHING MACHINE"
Man, Julz we may be clean but normal? Shoot, I'm speaking for myself, but normal?????????? Naw, no way as in "normal" how others show themselves in public. Dang, some of the supposedly most normal people out there are the most screwed up or are living a lie or are posrers. Yes, POSERS!!!!! They are everywhere. Every time I walk out my door I see so called "normals". Yet, I can hear through my rowhouse walls they got alot crazier a*s things happening then I ever did even on drugs.
Please come on. Share. Messed up??????? You have it in you somewhere that you'd like to change. I know for a fact because we've all shared the backward stuff we did while using. Even pre-using.
You're in with good peeps here, Julz. If we dared judge ya then we are hypocritical, and I have not met one person here EVER judged anyone. I hope you feel comfortable enough to come back on. That's why we are here.
Ohhhhhh yeah, Julz if you are worried about writing about the feeling while ON heroin........for us I mean.......ain't a day goes by I don't remember that.....BUT ain't a day goes by I am glad I am not using anymore........no matter what.
Heck, at NA meetings so much of that talk goes on.......war stories and all, and we're honest.......dope??????? Freaking love it.......love how it numbed me.....love how I nodded......loved when I had the luxury of doing four or five bags at once.........LOVED that drug.
Also hated being a slave.......hated hurting the people I love......hated worrying people........hated hurting strangers even........hated wiping out anything not nailed down to pawn........hated being nice to some creeps just so they'd give me money.......hated compromising myself............................................
Hated peeing my pants when I got jumped on by two cops.....hated how half the free world driving by saw me in pee-pee white shorts, and cuffs.
List goes on........it's O.K. Julz!!!!!!!!!!
Heck, at NA meetings so much of that talk goes on.......war stories and all, and we're honest.......dope??????? Freaking love it.......love how it numbed me.....love how I nodded......loved when I had the luxury of doing four or five bags at once.........LOVED that drug.
Also hated being a slave.......hated hurting the people I love......hated worrying people........hated hurting strangers even........hated wiping out anything not nailed down to pawn........hated being nice to some creeps just so they'd give me money.......hated compromising myself............................................
Hated peeing my pants when I got jumped on by two cops.....hated how half the free world driving by saw me in pee-pee white shorts, and cuffs.
List goes on........it's O.K. Julz!!!!!!!!!!
Hi Julz, if you can't talk about heroin on a heroin message board, where can you talk about it? Anyway, for me personally, it's theraputic to talk about it. None of us are normal!!! I've been clean now since May 2005. Up until about two weeks ago, I kept a burnt spoon, with residue and a needle in my knicker drawer, so I saw it every day, until it ceased to mean anything to me. Like the way some people deal with phobias. Repeated exposure to your particular phobia, until you no longer get a reaction to it. I only chucked it out because my mother will be coming to stay and I'd hate for her to find it. And I guess I realised that I just don't need it any more. With a baby due any day now, I've moved on. We all have to be wary of our addictions, never get too complacent, but I've moved on so far, and have so much to lose now. I won't be going back!
So talk away! Let it all out, and I'm sure you'll get loads of support here. Hell, we've all got our own drama's going on in our lives. Talking about somebody elses problems is light relief for me! Takes my mind off my own! I spent so much time being a "taker" when I was in active addiction, I find it's good for my soul to be a "giver" for a change...
love
diff xxx
I think I remember talking to you waaaay back... do your remember me?
So talk away! Let it all out, and I'm sure you'll get loads of support here. Hell, we've all got our own drama's going on in our lives. Talking about somebody elses problems is light relief for me! Takes my mind off my own! I spent so much time being a "taker" when I was in active addiction, I find it's good for my soul to be a "giver" for a change...
love
diff xxx
I think I remember talking to you waaaay back... do your remember me?
