My sister is at the hospital for an appointment and then spending the night there for a sleep study.So I am spending Valentines day and night with the most special lady in my life...MY MOTHER!!!...She's napping so I snuck away to read some posts.
I see that Lisa has been posting for 3 years now!!!! Thanks for all your warmth,love,insight and support.You have impacted my recovery process in many ways and have felt blessed on many occasions because of your presence here.
Is anyone else tired of the cold weather?!? It was 12 below this morning up here and I can't wait for spring!!! The older I get the more I hate winter...LOL. My main mode of transportation is walking so a little warmth would be nice!
It's been a rollercoaster for me as far as smoking goes.I have to re-focus AGAIN and give it another shot.I truly believe quiting the oxy's was easier,or so it seems,but at least the withdrawals don't compare. Some say smoking is a sin and some don't...I do know it's not good for my health...and it doesn't look cool if i'm talking to someone about Jesus with a Marlboro hanging from my lips..LOL.
I've been doing well this past few weeks.I am Re-committing my life with Christ.Life is so much better when I look at the world through God's eyes instead of my own.To me that is what recovery is about.Giving up my will for God's will.
I don't know about you guys,but when a newcomer posts for help I feel so much heartache.It makes me wish that I could do this for them.It's as if I feel their fear and remember what I had to go through.I always pray that God will comfort them as he has me so many times. I want so badly to make them understand that they can get through this,but I feel as if my words are empty.I wish I could hug them and take care of them until they can stand on their own.
I find myself backing away sometimes because it hurts to watch someone suffer and I feel hopeless to ease their pain.I pray,but sometimes it feels like that's not enough.I envy those that can truly teach!! I've always been more of a doer.Instead of teaching someone how to do something I will do it for them.
For the newcomers here...This recovery board can be a great tool for support and insight,but don't let this be your only source.You'll find that those with a sound recovery will tell you to be completely honest.This means with doctors,family,friends,and yourself.It's hard and maybe impossible to obtain recovery in the closet.It's hard to be honest when you have secrets,especially secrets from spouses.
It's very difficult sometimes,but you really have to be honest with everyone if you want to beat this addiction.It was embarrassing for me to apologize to some of my friends and family,because I had done some pretty stupid things.It was worth it though!! I'm not ashamed any longer and I can hold my head high.God knows that none of us are perfect,but confessing our wrong doings makes us less un-perfect...LOL.
Please try....you may be surprised at how good it will make you feel.Like my sister always says"Take a chance,Columbus did".
God bless you all
Kevin
Kevin,thank you.You are a vey sweet thoughtful man.I too feel like you sometimes,not sure what to say,how to help the newcomer.Wishing i could do it for them.We do the best we can,and hope things work out for the best.
Ive followed you and your story ,you are quite amazing,and an inspiration to many here.I enjoy reading your posts.Thanks for the Happy valentines wishes,same to you.~KIM
Ive followed you and your story ,you are quite amazing,and an inspiration to many here.I enjoy reading your posts.Thanks for the Happy valentines wishes,same to you.~KIM
Well thank you Kim...don't know if I really deserve all that praise though.I feel there are so many more people here that are more inspiring than I will ever be.
You yourself have been very helpful and insightful for alot of people here,especially those using or thinking about sub.I also like that you have alot of off topic conversations.We may be addicts,but we are humans too...LOL.It's nice to get to know someone other than just recovery related topics. I get a kick out of the pictures threads...No one has ever looked like I imagined they would.Everyone looks so good!!! Especially you ladies!
So...do you usually get flowers or candy,or both on this day?? I always tried to make my ex-wife feel special on Valentines day.I said I wanted the other women she knew and worked with to be jealous...LOL.Each year I would try and top the previous.The last Valentines was a trip to Hawaii...I guess she figured I couldn't top that one because we were divorced by the following Valentines...LOL.So now I make sure my Mother feels special on Valetines.
Your right....all we can do is try our best at helping newcomers.I'm just so glad that there are so many better at it then I am.Most of the time I feel like I letting them down,but I am learning not to be so hard on myself.That doesn't help anyone!
I hope you have a very special day today Kim.
Kevin
You yourself have been very helpful and insightful for alot of people here,especially those using or thinking about sub.I also like that you have alot of off topic conversations.We may be addicts,but we are humans too...LOL.It's nice to get to know someone other than just recovery related topics. I get a kick out of the pictures threads...No one has ever looked like I imagined they would.Everyone looks so good!!! Especially you ladies!
So...do you usually get flowers or candy,or both on this day?? I always tried to make my ex-wife feel special on Valentines day.I said I wanted the other women she knew and worked with to be jealous...LOL.Each year I would try and top the previous.The last Valentines was a trip to Hawaii...I guess she figured I couldn't top that one because we were divorced by the following Valentines...LOL.So now I make sure my Mother feels special on Valetines.
Your right....all we can do is try our best at helping newcomers.I'm just so glad that there are so many better at it then I am.Most of the time I feel like I letting them down,but I am learning not to be so hard on myself.That doesn't help anyone!
I hope you have a very special day today Kim.
Kevin
Happy Valentine's Day, Kevin!
Cheers,
Gina
Thanks Kevin.Hawaii huh? Ummmm let me just say,if my husband gave me a trip to hawaii for Valentines day...the last thing i would do is divorce him,he would be a very very happy man for his thoughtful gift. Im sorry things turned out that way for you.Hopefully someday you will find another woman worthy of your love.
I received flowers& earrings this year.Ive been buying myslef flowers the past few months as a hint to my husband that he doesnt get them for me enough,so he for once...got the hint...lol.The earrings are lovely(i picked them out myself,lol)
I so agree,i love to get to know the members here through the OT threads.Yes,we are addicts,and thats a very serious thing.But we are also human,which makes us curious.I feell the more we get to know each other,the easier it is to help,by knowing the others personality(as best as we can through the internet)and i have truly come to be friends with several members here that i genuinely like very much.
Enjoy your day Kevin,shower your mother with all that love youve got,she and you both deserve it!~KIM
I received flowers& earrings this year.Ive been buying myslef flowers the past few months as a hint to my husband that he doesnt get them for me enough,so he for once...got the hint...lol.The earrings are lovely(i picked them out myself,lol)
I so agree,i love to get to know the members here through the OT threads.Yes,we are addicts,and thats a very serious thing.But we are also human,which makes us curious.I feell the more we get to know each other,the easier it is to help,by knowing the others personality(as best as we can through the internet)and i have truly come to be friends with several members here that i genuinely like very much.
Enjoy your day Kevin,shower your mother with all that love youve got,she and you both deserve it!~KIM
Same to you Kevin and I am blessed as well because of your words of wisdom and support. Give your mom a big kiss for me and have a great day! Love Lisa
Good Lord, it has been 3 years....wow, how time flies when you're having fun.
Good Lord, it has been 3 years....wow, how time flies when you're having fun.
God Bless you and your mom Kevin........
you are such a kind man........
so nice to see you posting..........
thumper
you are such a kind man........
so nice to see you posting..........
thumper
