Ok, today is the day I've been dreading for the past few weeks, my AS's birthday. He is 29 years old today. I've gotten my cry out of the way...for everything he didn't end up as and for everything he did end up as. I cannot fathom how he can possibly raise up out of this hell he has put himself in....Homeless, jobless, criminal, heroin addict. He says he put his name on the waiting list for detox but who knows. Even then, if he detoxes, he's still on the street. I feel so helpless and I know that I am. Any words of encouragement would be appreciated today. I'm having a really hard time with thinking of him spending his birthday on the street.
It really was a hard day. We took him out to dinner but of course the good meal was ruined with him asking for money so he wouldn't have to be sick in the morning. We told him no. We told him we loved him and we parted ways....us to go to our comfy home and him back to street life. I waited until he was gone before I cried. I'm glad today is over.
As hard as it was, you did the right thing. You Must Believe That! If you had given in, that may have been the hit that killed him. Instead, by you not giving him money or offering to let him go home, Maybe tonight will be the night he realizes that he does not want this life anymore. There are lots of Success Stories here. My prayer for you and your family is that this is his Bottom!! Stand Firm and Believe Daylight will Be A Better Day. Goodnight
Thanks Gina. I know we did the right thing and we will continue our path on stopping the enabling.
Oh Shell.. my heart breaks for you. I know it wasn't easy especially it being your son's birthday. You did the right thing by not giving him money, but you know that. Stay strong.
Yes I agree with everyone too. You absolutely did the BEST thing you could of done for him. I don't know you and I think this was the first post I read from you but I can honestly say I'm proud of you. I'm also proud that you didn't let him see you cry. Now he can not go back to his sleeping quarters with his other using buddies and speak about that he made you cry and it's only gonna be a little while until you crack and help him out . Good job mom. I'm proud of you.!
Oh goodness. It is so hard to be a mom. I feel for you. You needed to do what you did --for his sake...but I, being a mom, understand totally where you are. Good luck to you. I hope you are going to meetings so you have your support.
Some times I wish there was beautiful inland that he would be on that he couldn't get off of for 1 year ,that he could get clean. Sorry you did well
Thank you so much for the support!
